You probably won't read this for a couple of weeks. Maybe even months. But I'm saying this more for me than for you. I've kept my heart reserved for you this entire time. I haven't let anyone else in because I've been waiting for you to come back and claim your spot. And I was fine with that for a while. But now. Now I can't do that anymore. Ryan loves me. He does everything for me. And the only thing he wants is have me love him back. And I can't. Because of you. I'm afraid to lose you, but I've already lost you. I'm not even sure I ever really had you. This thing between us has been over for a very long time. Yet, I still wait around for you. Yet, I still check the air fare to New York. I don't know. The point of this message is to tell you goodbye. So goodbye Jon. Thank you for giving me hope on dark days. Thank you for listening. Thank you for loving me. Take care of yourself please. --Kelsey