hey there it's saturday and i am getting ready to go camping with my mom's boyfriend and his kids..josh and i are completely done wiht i guess i thought that i loved him but i don't..i can't believe that i thought that hew would be the man of my dreams jeesh i'm so stupid..oh well we all make mistakes and we all have our first loves and he is mine so i guess i'll just have to deal with it..if you want to know what happened i'll get started..alright last summer josh and i started going out..we where CRAZY about eachother and he was so wonderful we spend everyday together and we where never parted we where together for 7 months and we only had sex twice because sexual activaty wasn't a big thing at all with us we never got bored with eachother and we loved eachother so damn much..then we broke up and i got really depressed and i went out on this whole i need sum1 better then josh faze and i went out with this really good guy named kyle demars he's such a sweetie..things didn't work out though because i messed them up..then i went out with eric anderson and things didn't work out again because he was the worst boyfriend ever god no's how many times he's cheated on me..then about 3 or 4 weeks ago josh and i got back together i was crazy about him again but he wasn't about me..i've heard from so many people that he's cheated on me and i couldn't handle it and how people who he hangs out with are calling me a slut and saying that i cheated on him which i don't cheat on guys because that's horrible and i just couldn't do that because i'm not like that at all..so i've finally decided that josh and i are completely done with i mean i do still love him so much it's unbelievable but we just won't work out and if we do then THANK YOU GOD..but i HIGHLY doubt that will happen..so my friend kym is trying to hook me up with one of her friends named kyle he's from eau claire and he goes to memorial i've seen a pic. of him and he's just GORGEOUSE and you have no clue what i mean by gorgeouse untill you see him..n/e ways so yeah i have been talking to him lately and he's really nice and stuff and i am kina liking him from what i know of him and hopefully we will hook up or something that'd be pretty neat if we did..but i dunno what else to say that's my problems lol i guess that's what you do in a diary is say your problems right well those are mine for now but yeah untill next time my friends.. love you all, Lakrissa Jade P.S. I Love You Ashley, i would call but my mom shut my phone off cuz of how much the bill was cuz of josh and jessica..sorry babe love you