it has come to a point that all of my thoughts end with. and thats okay. or. are you serious? as well, i am lost between understanding. and knowing. and thats okay

if i could write. i would write about the world. about the people in it. about the air. about the sun that shines on certain days. about the green of the grass. and the sky that can be the bluest of blue. i would write to friends. to family. to the government. and people on the street. i would tell them. the world. she is perfect. and beautiful. and that they. and everything else. are part of it. they make her perfect. they make her whole. they make the air so good to breathe. they make the sunshine on certain days. i would write and say. never think you won't be missed. never think you are nothing. because you are. you are everything. you are what controls. what the world herself is. you control if she is perfect. you control the future. you are important. you are the green of the grass. and the bluest of blues in the sky. you make up the children running on the streets. you make it all worth while. if i could write. i would write about the world. i would write to the world. i would write about the world. about its beauty. about its purpose. about its life. about how it is perfect.

perfection. real angels. memories life. and understanding promises. inspiration. creativity and hope. friendship. truth. childhood. hiddin meanings. freedom. forgiveness. beauty. real love. put it all together. and you've got. me

i really like to smile.

Let's tattoo our faces to prove that we're stupid for each other. Bring a switchblade-comb to a gunfight and look good doing it. Let's sneak into good movies but pay for the bad ones. Fuck in a police station bathroom, halfway through the tour. Tie ourselves up in trees on halloween night. Scream at children. Climb rooftops and pretend to shove. Saved your life. Eat ice cream sandwiches. Take turns paying for the candy. Keep all our secrets in our open mouth. Love Love Love, with capital L's.

its nice to know. you were a person to trust. you were loving and understanding. that you really do love. and that its alright. i enjoy the fact, you are a person no one knows. that you are disliked. that you don't care. that you are free in many ways. i liked tonight. it was how life, and lost people should find themselves. it was how everyone should talk, and listen, and really understand.

i enjoy the way i feel no matter what way it is. i enjoy the twisted feelings in my stomach the smile on my face the way my hearts beats in perfect rhythm i enjoy getting bugged. getting pushed around. and being forced to defend myself. it makes me feel alive. a way many people don't live. i wish to have happiness. i wish to be left alone. i wish to hear no more lies. and make no more promises. they'll all be broken.