[eleven] who knows anymore

who knows..i mean honestly-how long can one person be lost and confused for???i think that im gonna drop the bitchin since no one listens anyway and ill learn to cope with this pain and be hard as a stone-nothing is gonna get to me anymore.i am in control of my attitude and my mood and feelings therefore i choose to forget all this terrible shit that has almost ruined my wonderful relationship-i love him and i dont wanna throw it all away-we've alerady come this far...so if you people wanna ignore me-you do that b/c i know my family is here for me and there are plenty of people who are willing to listen... my LOVE goes to george shencazitz, dann marucci, tasia wentzell, erica smith, and my family and greg! i couldnt have done it without your undying love and devotion-u guyys are THE BEST...best friends forever and ever. people rread my shit and theyre like:ok w/e...but u all read it and knew i needed help. thanks for listening to my bitchin-dann and tas-SORRY....lol... but seriously--thanks guys... im outttttt.....
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[twelve] blah blah blah dee blah
Feeling: alright
talking to greg and dann and dreadin work... YUCK-i hate work...maybe we'll be dead and i can come home early-i love those nights...theyre theeeeee best.. GREG AND DANN ARE SEXXXXAYYY BEASTS-best friends forever guys! tas-hows life treating ya? everyone else-how thee hell are you all??? if anyone wants to chat IM me at: c0ncReteXo aNgeL but i have to leave for work><>
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[five] missin the carolinas

Feeling: longing
This one's for North Carolina! C'mon and raise up Take your shirt off, twist it 'round yo' head Spin it like a helicopter.This one's for you, uh-huh, this one's for who? Us, us, us; yes sir! Who am I? nicole michelle motherfucker! First to put it down for North Carolina But guess what (what?), it's been worth it! i really miss all of my NC friends...i was talking to my cousin yesterday and they are all having a blast.i cant wait to go down again....tear**tear hey guys... man iunno what to do anymore... i love the kid more than thee entire world and were sooo close but he can be soooo mean to me and everything bad that ever happens is "my fault" even when its obviously him...i jus dunno anymore...whatever ♥tasia*i love you and miss you girl::::dun hesitate to ring my telli....hehe. stacey-how was ur party-hope all went well...sorry i couldnt be there...i truly am.i love u girl-if u need anything jus come to me-im always here for u... i guess thats all i really have to say today.. oh wait!!!!!im getting my OWN laptop!!!(its gonna cost me 800-900 buckaroos but hey)im getting my own!!!i cant wait-it is suh*weet.lol. now thats alll.....lol....tallk to you all whenever i gt the chance.... love yas nicole michelle
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[four] detention

Feeling: unappreciated
this is soooo stinking pathetic!i dun understand why the hell they would give me and renae detention together.are they specially challenged or sumpin?w/e.and then i have the biggest jerk you can imagine to "supervise" us-mr miller....grr.i hate that man wit a deep passion and i think im gonna go crazy before this day is over.lol. but on a happier note-i have a game tonight!yay. against the wonderful wreckers.wish us luck everybody.can i get a woot woot for the firebirds!hehe. things are great wit george and i am no longer grounded.hip hip hurray!haha. i guess thats all i can think of for now...tty alllll tomorrow.love ya guys!later. szwayka is sexy!hehe. love always... nicole michelle
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[three] oh-i like it like that
Listening to: changes
Feeling: beautiful
well this just effin sucks...b/c of renae colburn i am grounded, got kicked off the bus and i have a detention! im a good kid-i dont get detentions-bottom line...ugh and i didnt even do anything to deserve it!!! supposedly "i refused to sit in the front of the bus and that's unacceptable."thats what mr.shorty says.but hes an asshole and he knows shit b/c i was given the option to sit in the front or back and i chose back.then mr.shorty called my bus driver and my bus driver just sat there lying!he told them (my mom and mr.shorty) that i was cursing and yelling and tripping people. and a bunch of stupid stuff like that so i got a stupid detention and mr shorty highly recommendedthat i dont ride the bus anymore...friggin idiot-doesnt he realize that that isnt going to e disciplining me?ive asked for that for years now!lol. chelz-how are they anyway...long and boring right? staace-what happened? dana marie-thank you baby girl!i love you! i guess thats about all i have to say for today...nothing else is happening to me... so im out for now... ¢¾sweet*kissesx3 nicole michelle
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[two] *`DisCo inFerNo'*

Listening to: disco inferno
Feeling: spiteful
aloha!!! what the hellis up wit everyone? not a whole bunch here i guess? nothing is really happening as far as i know. casey and i are still on NO TALKING terms.oh well...who cares anyway.i know i sure as hell dont.but uh... george came over last night and we went to my softball game together. we didnt have an umpire so he umped teh game for me. :]i love my baby!and im thee sexy catcher of course so i got to talk to him thee entire game.it was great but i guess they kicked our asses.oh well it was only a sxrimage any way. george is going tanning to night with christina menotti...is that how u spell it?lol. im hoping my mom will let me go to NY wit him b/c if she doesnt-i will be flipping pissed.like u cant even begin to imagine!grr... how is everyone doing though? whos going to staces partay?you all better get your booties uup there b/c our baby girl needs our support ladies! damn guys!the time is flying!2 weeks left of school and we're out for thee summer! STACE-are you coming back for thee fair at least?sure hope to see you a BUNCH still... i guess thats about it.. ttyl.... loveforlife*nicolemichelle/
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[nineteen] whoa man

Feeling: bleh
well i havent written in here in soo long and i honestly dont have a lot too say-but hey...HOW THE HELL IS EVERYONE? school is shit-big surprise? i think not! georgerrs and i are doing pretty good..lot better tahn we ever did in the past so i cant complain when it comes to that right? homecoming was supposed to be tonight but since it called for thunder and lightening [which never came] they postponed it til sunday-at ONE...thats just too weird dont you think? i dont know-maybe its just me... but i want jesse smith to win homecoming queen guys...if laura wins im going to flip...ewwwwwwww well i guess tahts all i have left to sya...nothing has happened that is even worth talking about the comments are still loved ladies [and gents] x33nicole michelle
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[eight teen] school tomorrow baby
school starts tomorrow and i just can not wait! well jeffrey moved into his house yesterday and i might be headin over to his place in a lil while. not really sure yet nothing has really been going on...today is jeffs birthday [my bro jeff =p] its soo confusing having 2 jeffs. could you imagine if jeff and i started dating? whew eee l=O george and i are doing great i cant wait to see him tomorrow . i love him soo much guys..ahhh! i cant really think of anything else that would be even a little bit exciting.. went shopping in maryalnd the other day...got a few things and snagged some great deals in the process...we went to eat at ryans--taht place is the shit! and i hung out with greg [my bro] and kar [his g/f] and elvis [their cat] for a while until my family showed up...kar and i rode down together-its a 3 and 1/2 hour ride to ship-we made it in about 2 1/2 [yeahh baby yeahh] and we got there a while before them. it was the best ride ive ever had to ship! =p ha ha shhh but yeah thats about the only thing i can think of...im starving so im gonna get going... the comments are loved! x3 nicole michelle baby--thats the name =]
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[seventeen] bad dayy at work!

got yelled at at work today b/c i had my feet on the wall and i had to scrub the entire walll down and then i never did get to eat the food that i paid for b/c mark is an asshole and he yelled at me for eating too and i didnt get the chance to eat my food before it got cold since i was too busy cleaning the damned wall...so after i got done with the wall i wrapped silverware for about a half hour==gag me...and then we got soo busy that i didnt get a chance to stop. oh man..what a bad night george is at a Mets game tonight and he wont be home til like 2 or 3 this morning..so im waiting up so i can talk to him before he goes to bed. which i prolly shouldnt be doing b/c im beat and i promised christina lynne that i would be at her party tomorrow and i cant back out on my girl! besides-ill get to see george tomorrow. but my mom has now forbidden george from the house b/c of him and jeff not getting along.GREAT.just what i effin need. you know what though? life is a mothaf**king bitch and you really cant control her. shit im tired. and im out leave em for me or IM me at c0ncReteXo aNgeL ill prolly answer you in the morning--if not-tomorrow night when i get home.you know how it is. =] buh byye ♥nicole
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[sixteen] what a prick! l=[

> > >CHILD ABUSE!!!!!!!!!! > > > > > >My name is Sarah > > > > > > > I am but three, > > > My eyes are swollen > > > I cannot see, > > > I must be stupid > > > > I must be bad, > > > What else could have made > > > My daddy so mad? > > > I wish I were better > > > > I wish I weren't ugly, > > > Then maybe my mommy > > > Would still want to hug me. > > > I can't speak at all > > > > I can't do a wrong > > > Or else I'm locked up > > > All the day long. > > > When I awake I'm all alone > > > > The house is dark > > > My folks aren't home > > > When my mommy does come > > > I'll try and be nice, > > > > So maybe I'll get just > > > One whipping tonight. > > > Don't make a sound! > > > I just heard a car > > > > My daddy is back > > > From Charlie's Bar. > > > I hear him curse > > > My name he calls > > > > I press myself > > > Against the wall > > > I try and hide > > > From his evil eyes > > > > I'm so afraid now > > > I'm starting to cry > > > He finds me weeping > > > He shouts ugly words, > > > > He says its my fault > > > That he suffers at work. > > > He slaps me and hits me > > > And yells at me more, > > > > I finally get free > > > And I run for the door. > > > He's already locked it > > > And I start to bawl, > > > > He takes me and throws me > > > Against the hard wall. > > > I fall to the floor > > > With my bones nearly broken, > > > And my daddy continues > > > With more bad words spoken. > > > "I'm sorry!", I scream > > > But its now much too late > > > His face has been twisted > > > > Into unimaginable hate > > > The hurt and the pain > > > Again and again > > > Oh please God, have mercy! > > > > Oh please let it end! > > > And he finally stops > > > And heads for the door, > > > While I lay there motionless > > > > Sprawled on the floor > > > > > > My name is Sarah > > > And I am but three, > > > Tonight my daddy > > > > Murdered me. > > > > > > There are thousands of kids out there just like Sarah. > > > And you can help. > > > > > > Sickens me to my soul, and if you just read this and > > > don't pass it on I pray for your forgiveness, cause you > > > > would have to be one heartless person to not be > > > effected by this story. And because you are effected, do > > > something about it!! So all I am asking you to do, is take > > > some time to send this on and acknowledge that this > > >stuff does happen, and that people like her dad do live in our > > >society, > > > and I pray for child abuse to wither out and die, > > > but also pray for the safety of our youth. > > > > > > Please pass this poem on because as crazy as it might > > >sound, it might just indirectly change a life. Hey, you NEVER know. > > >Please put this on your site if you are *~*~*AGAINST CHILD > > >ABUSE *~*~* > > >
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[fifteen] whered my friends go?
what happened to my friends list now....heyy ....does anyone know how to help me out with my myspace and make it fancy.? mine is sooo boring and i hate going to it b/c i dont like how it looks ya know? if you can help me out let me know.... AIM---c0ncReteXo aNgeL >>>>you can alwayyyys catch me there!
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[fourteen] nada goin on...

Feeling: lucky
well i talk to allie on the internet last night and she swears that she never said she hated me to begin with...ha-give me a break bitch! but ive letting it all go...everything is fine with her now...now its on to JESS PACHUTA...gag me! but it has to be done.ahhh!!!lol. dana BBB--this should be good!lol.haha..whos good? you know it baby! yes! well i dont really have anything to talk about...but if you can think of anyone else that i have shit with please let me know...i would greatly appreciate it...wait til school starts guys! i cant wait...your jaws are gonna drop haha yeah...i guess im out... oh yeah--and does anyone have jess pachutas sn? i dotn really feel like calling her! lol. ttyl ladiessss [and gents] nicole michelle xoxo those damn germans!haha...love ya hun
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[thirteen] aww baby

Listening to: you and me-j kwon
Feeling: flabbergasted
well i went to scranton with george yesterdayy and towards 3 or 4 we headed to the mall...well-we were fine for a little while then it came time to eat and we got into a fight b/c i didnt wanna eat...well anyway-we didnt talk for a while and when we did there was obvious tension..but then out of no where we decided to go to JC penny and wow..everything changed..we picked out clothes that we liked for each other and we went and tried them on and he told me what he thought looked good on me and then when it was his turn..he tried on the pants that i picked out-[which he would never in a million years try on]-well he tried them on anyway and man did he look amazingly hot in them!so he got them! yayyyyy...wow did he look good.well anyway when we were picking the pants out he was looking at the guys pants and he knelt down and i was standing next to him and he grabbed my waist and pulled me down by him and put his arm around me and kissed me and ahhh...it was soo perfect...i just melted. we had such a fun day! it was nice to spend time with him like that and just fool around and have fun-so we decided that we're gonna do most of our school shopping together.which will be nice b/c he was really fun to shop with and SOO patient! it was a blast.cant wait til after the fair-so i can go with him!yayy yea-the fair starts friday!but i cant go til sunday b/c of work. ugh... but hopefully george and i will get to spend a lot of time togerther then too... then its OKTOBERFEST at work...YAYY-man am i gonna walk out with a lot of money then! and then school shopping in Maryland with the family..[hopefully george can come with me] so i get to go school shopping twice! yes! thats all i can think of for now-- but my foot feels better!finally!have a great day everyone... i have fallen in love with you all over again...
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[nine] bored outta my mind
Listening to: still tippin
Feeling: blah
oh man...im sOoOoOo bored...george was supposed to call me at 9:00-he still hadnt called.i woke up at 10 and checked the caller ID too-no call from him...hmm...hope he has a good excuse-maybe the pool was busy and he had to watch it carefully? who knows? well one thing that i do know is that even though our relationship has been busy-i still love him more than the world-and if u ask either one of us-we'll both tell u that we're still going strong and we can see a long future for us...ahh....i love him! i have absolutely nothing else to say. sorry-i just woke up and im too tired to think
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tasia lynne wentzell-my best friend! do you remember that time in fourth grade when we all liked jake and we were on the heritage trip.we had to square dance and we all killed ourselves to get to jake first and i won and you danced wit tom, and teka danced wit trevor...you guys were so mad at me-but you forgave me. or that time that me, you and kate and daina were at your house and we were playing wit the kittens and i sat in the dog crap and then sat on your bed.wow-that was HYSTERICAL! and the time when we called dan and asked him to walk to see us and him and Lj came and scared the living crap out of us when they finally came into view b/c it was so cold out and i had the big crush on him still so i was sooo excited to see him and then greg showed up like 4 minutes later and i had to leave!lol.that was soooo funny.i was pissed! or when we went swimming in my pool as soon as it was opened!that was cold and GREEN!lol.we were messed up!haha. but...besides that... then there was the year when we started to drift apart...you made new friends as did i-i became caught up in a serious relationship and we no longer had time for each other.we exchanged hurtful words and stopped talking. but then i woke up...it was all a dream and my best friend was still there for me... i love you girl!and ill always be there for you!!! Take A Minute Girl Come Sit Down And Tell Me What's Been Happening In Your Face I Can See The Pain Don't You Try To Convince Me That You're Happy We've Seen This All Before But He's Taking Advantage Of Your Passion Because We've Come Too Far For You To Feel Alone You Don't Let Him Walk Over Your Heart I'm Telling You Girl, I Can Tell You've Been Crying And You Needing Somebody To Talk To Girl, I Can Tell He's Been Lying And Pretending That He's Faithful And He Loves You Girl, You Don't Have To Be Hiding Don't You Be Ashamed To Say He Hurt You I'm Your Girl, You're My Girl, We're Your Girls Don't You To Know That I Love You? See What You All Don't Know About Him Is I Can't Let Him Go Because He Needs Me It Ain't Really Him It's Stress From His Job And I Ain't Making It Easy I Know You See Him Bugging On Me Sometimes But I Know Deep Inside He Don't Mean It It Gets Hard Sometimes But I Need My Man I Don't Think Ya'll Understand I'm Telling You Girl, Take A Good Look At Yourself He Got You Going Through Hell I Ain't Never Seen You Down Like This What You Mean You Don't Need Me To Help? We Known Each Other Too Well Girl I've been knowin' you since you were ten, you cannot hide from your best friend I love you and im here for you It's been too long and I'm lost without u What am I gonna do Said I been needin' you, Wonderin' if ur the same and who's been with you Is your trust still mine I wanna cry sometimes I miss you Off to highschool Yes you went away Straight from middle school You up and left me We were close friends Of the other Did everything For one another Now ur gone and I'm lost without you here now But I know I gotta live and make it somehow Come back...to me Can you...feel me (Callin') Hear me...callin' (For you) For you...'Cuz it's It's been too long and I'm lost without you What am I gonna do Said I been needin' you, Wonderin' if ur the same and who's been with you Is ur trust still mine I wanna cry sometimes I miss you Now I'm sittin' here Thinkin' 'bout you And the days we used to share It's drivin' me crazy I don't know what to do I'm just wonderin' if you still care I don't wanna let you know That it's killin' me I know you got another life you gotta concentrate lady Come back...to me Can you...feel me (Callin') Hear me...callin' (For you) For you...'Cuz it's It's been too long and I'm lost without you What am I gonna do Said I been needin' you, Wonderin' if ur the same and who's been with you Is ur trust still mine I wanna cry sometimes I miss you I...can't...breathe...no...more Since you went away I Don't really feel like talkin' No one here to love me Lady do you understand me I can't do a thing without you It's been too long and I'm lost without you (Tell me what I'm gonna do) What am I gonna do Said I been needin' you, Wonderin' if ur the same and who's been with you Is ur trust still mine I wanna cry sometimes I miss you "Believe In Yourself" Oh you can be what you wanna be See what you wanna see Believe in yourself, just believe in yourself You can go where you wanna go Do what you wanna do Believe in yourself, just believe in yourself Some folks try to tell you there are things you shouldn't do But you're not strong enough, or smart enough at all But what seems right to them ,quite often might be wrong for you So be sure you try to climb before you get to scare you'll fall You can be what you wanna be Learn what you wanna learn Believe in yourself, just believe in yourself You can try what you need to try No one should question why Believe in yourself, just belive in yourself Folks may say you're different That you've gone and lost your senses But the world is your to walk Go ahead and leave the fences And you'll see( and you'll see) Belive in yourself And the world belongs to you You and me And the world belongs to you and me
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[six] live like you were dying
life is too short, so kiss slowly, laugh insanely, love truly, and forgive quickly!
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