haha yeahp i broke up with matt. he lived 40 mins away and i couldnt deal with it. buttt on another positvie note were still kinda friends. and now me and matt benjamin( dereck davis ) bestfriend are talking about dating. =) idk how dereck is gonna feel about it because when dereck and matt came up and stayed at lexys w. me he would like freak if matt even looked at me but oh well he will deal. but everythings looking better for now.

soo everythings sucking at this moment. except for matt bc hes an amazing guy and even better boyfriend.. but for some reason.. things still dont feel right my mimi found out i was dating him she said it was fine she knows hes 18 i can pretty much go see him every weekend.. idk i hope it all works out. I dont understand why she would ever do that to me. yeah we arent friends. yeah we dont talk. but who goes that low? w/e i talked to him about it and he said it was nothing and he loved me and everything but idc. so.. me and him arent really talking anymore sucks bc i loved the kid to death.. buttttt...oh well

Wether we were friends or not i NEVER went after any of yer ex'. how low can one girl go? just when i start to miss a friend. i find something new out. well on a positive note me and matt are dating =) 12.29.07 i guess i owe that to one boy. if i wouldnt have saw all the comments. we would have gotten back together that night.12.28 but thanks to them. im w. matt and i couldnt be happier.

Well so much has happend lately i dont even know where to start... Well lets start w. rachel.. i got so sick of her thinking i "replaced" her and i completly lost it on her. She called my sister a pensylvannia skank.. sorry shes my sister you cant say that and actually think im not going to say anything about it? Just b.c they dont get along doesnt mean it should affect our friendship. but it did so w/e. But ya know when matt said her sister was a whore at lunch one day she compl. freeked out.. but ya know its a comp. different story when its my sister? She doesnt even know my sister and she still says shes a slut? yeah way to go! But w.e were sooo not friends anymore. cant handle all the b.s. its pretty sad when im about 600 miles away and we still fight.. tells you what good of friend we were. But soo.. w. the boys. Dennis is mad at me, wont talk to me bc his bestfriend kissed me.. he kissed me i dont get why hes freaking out on me for it but ya know its w.e g. is great cant say too much b/c his g.f will lose it lol =) yo...tu haha<3 umm.. theres not really anythign left to talk about we had a snow day monday and one today and one tomorrow and we arent supposed to have school monday either. yayyy =) but i guess i might go down to my sisters bc ya know shes a pensyvannia skank like that.. ahh that makes me so mad she doesnt even know my sister!! but yeah might go down there.. doubt it cant even get out of the drive way theres so much snow.. and its still snwoing so.. depends on if the mother will come get me peace<3

Ughhh so tired, Just got back from my brothers last football game.. so happy im sick of going to all of his games.. they're sooooooo boring... it would be fine if he was older but its pop warner.. well schools been good i guess. nothing too new...justin and ally are over...=)..... im talking to matt again Me and rachel are talking again too... Were friends i guess you could say but i dont trust her im not going to tell her any of my secrets and we arent really hangingout soo... idk.... Me and kay whit hung out this weekend like the first time weve talked in like 3 weeks.. weird b/c we use to be inseperable... but now thats me and jenna... i tell her and kay whit everythingggg... their my bf<333 i love them to death so much drama in school and @ home i hate it so much its like life is drama.... i was jut talking to my cousin... i miss her to death but shes so rapped up in her boyfriend...so i just told her i wanted to talk to my aunt heather... we were talking and my real mom gets out of jail in like 10 days... i called my mimi when i was done talking to her and told her that and she was just like micah shes gonna hurt you again so i dont know why you even get yourseslf involved with her shes hurt you before thats all she does drugs are more important then you and shes going to go back and all of that good stuff she feels the need to remind me off... i mean i already know this stuff. she said that she just doesnt want me to get hurt and that it breaks her heart when she sees my all upset... well i told her i'm hurt by this everyday so it has to break her heart everday..... i relaly dont know what to do im sick of being hurt by her shes my mother for gods sake shes supposed to be there...but ik she never will... i dont want to give her another chance but ik i probably will.. i just cant say no to her.. but i think that after this time i might just give up.. i cant handle being turned down by my own mom again... but im going to go watch my brother... and aol crappp but good news get my permit in like 29 days =) peace.

Well school sucked.. usuall fight with rachel thats nothing new though that seems to be all we do lately we arent friends anymore. but thats pretty much because of me she cant reall yexpect me to deal with all the drama, and have a friend who doesnt trust me? i cant do that. im done it sucks i mean i love the girl to death but.. idk out of everyone i should have been someone she trusted.. but i guess i wasnt so i dont know what was really going on during our friendship.. maybe i missed something in those 3 years.. but its all said and done now theres no returning i cant do it anymore, i wont, im sick of argueing sick of fighting.. its all stupid and as much as i love her to death.. i feel like i gave up on her but idk i guess its the truth but it hurts more fighting with her than being without her... but i move in a year... so wont have to deal with hf drama much longer... but i have to get ready, go to my brothers football practice maybe.. if not get back on the comp. peace.