Ughhh so tired, Just got back from my brothers last football game.. so happy im sick of going to all of his games.. they're sooooooo boring... it would be fine if he was older but its pop warner.. well schools been good i guess. nothing too new...justin and ally are over...=)..... im talking to matt again Me and rachel are talking again too... Were friends i guess you could say but i dont trust her im not going to tell her any of my secrets and we arent really hangingout soo... idk.... Me and kay whit hung out this weekend like the first time weve talked in like 3 weeks.. weird b/c we use to be inseperable... but now thats me and jenna... i tell her and kay whit everythingggg... their my bf<333 i love them to death so much drama in school and @ home i hate it so much its like life is drama.... i was jut talking to my cousin... i miss her to death but shes so rapped up in her boyfriend...so i just told her i wanted to talk to my aunt heather... we were talking and my real mom gets out of jail in like 10 days... i called my mimi when i was done talking to her and told her that and she was just like micah shes gonna hurt you again so i dont know why you even get yourseslf involved with her shes hurt you before thats all she does drugs are more important then you and shes going to go back and all of that good stuff she feels the need to remind me off... i mean i already know this stuff. she said that she just doesnt want me to get hurt and that it breaks her heart when she sees my all upset... well i told her i'm hurt by this everyday so it has to break her heart everday..... i relaly dont know what to do im sick of being hurt by her shes my mother for gods sake shes supposed to be there...but ik she never will... i dont want to give her another chance but ik i probably will.. i just cant say no to her.. but i think that after this time i might just give up.. i cant handle being turned down by my own mom again... but im going to go watch my brother... and aol crappp but good news get my permit in like 29 days =) peace.