it's been about a week now. i'm talking about me having a b/f. yay for me! there's been a lot of shit said about him and why he's going out with me. but you know what, fuck those people who say shit. just because your relationships are fucked up doesn't give you the right to talk shit about other people's. and these people know who they are...anyways, i'm happy i got that outta the way.

i'm just soo bored, tired, and pissed. my whole fucking family is getting on my nerves. every fucking day my brother wants to play my video games, and no matter what i'm doing, i'm kicked outta my room so he can play. my sister's a total smart ass who needs to be slaped down until she reaches China. my step-dad is picking up the habit of yelling at me for no fucking reason again. and my mom now is never satified with what i do. i feel soo unexcepted in that fucking family. and i'm not gonna even start with my dad.

oo you know you like my word, halloweeny. it's soo kool. lol. i'm bored. well last night i got loaded with candy b/c i had to go trick or treating with my bro and sis. my bro went as batman (he looked soo cute), my sister went as a gothic cheerleader (i'm soo proud of her), and i went as goth ann dead doll (pretty much raggedy ann's evil sister). i think scared a lot of kids. i had total black makeup all around my eyes, black lipstick, and then i used black eyeliner to make stiches for my mouth. it was awesum! my brother saw me and started to cry. o well... then i went to that house that goes all out for halloween, and this guy dressed in a black robe came up behind me and scared the living shit outta me. then the guy with the chainsaw was acting like he was gonna chop off my legs, so i thought to myself "if i stand still, he won't touch me" well he started puting the chainsaw between me and my friend, then between my legs. i then thought "I'M GOING TO FUCKING DIE!!!" it was fun though. i can't wait til next year, maybe then i'll be able to hang out with my friends instead of family.

my weekend totally fucking sucked! i had to go to my dad's house and all we did was watch stupid horror movies and he played this stupid ass hunting game on his o soo special hand me down ps2! then i found out something that'll fuck up my whole life. some people know what i'm talking about. yep guys it's true. isnt' that great? also it looks like i'll never hook up with the guy i like. i swear man, this was the "best" weekend ever!...i hope this week and next weekend will be better than last, other wise i'll be in a bitchy ass mood.

Dude today is fucked up! i'm totally sick, but i get to go home at 10. i'm soo happy i get to go home while you loser hafta stay at school. i get to sleep, while you loser hafta do work. sucks for you! lol i'm just playin. and today also sucks b/c i want a certain answer from a certain person about a certain something. lol that's a lot of certains. well gtg take a test, then go home. i'll probly be on when i get home.

i hang out with such bitches and backstabbers! these are people i call friends...riiiiggghhht! only a few i can actually call friends and not be ashamed of them (ya'll know who you are, love ya guys). last night 2 of my "friends" ,who for only god knows why, go out, started bitching b/c he wanted to change his name to his middle name. she started freaking out, "omg this is a test, i'm failing it, he's killing me with this, i'm going to cut myself..." blah blah blah. then he decided that he was gonna cut himself. i have just lost a friend 2 suicide 2 nights ago...i couldn't lost 2 more. so i got pissed, but them into a chat room and made the settle things. then this morning her sister him to talk 2 him, but his g/f didn't want him to. so the sister tried to get her into trouble for cigarettes, she didn't have them, so now she's pissed looking for her sister and planning on killing her! like i said i hang out with such bitches and backstabbers.

O MY GOD! this was the best i dance i ever went to! totally flippin awesum. i danced with like sooo many people i lost count. lol. the only part i didn't like, was that they played a song that me and my ex-b/f dance to. and almost all my friends that i was hanging out with had a boyfriend. and i felt really left out, alone, and hated. then i told my ex-g/f that i had a g/f and she got pissed. but then i threw a chair and she calmed down. then i got home and got drunk! lol. THEY DIDN'T SPIKE THE PUNCH! i was pissed, i needed something to drink! lol