i think there is oviously something wrong with me because im oviously not normal. i just wish i knew exactly what it was and i wish someone would do something about it. shannon told my mom that im mean to boys. funny thing is that i've always know that. i think im mean bc im afraid if im nice they'll make fun me or call me fat. im afraid of boys not like omg they're so scary i'm in second grade. im afraid of someone actually caring for me bc i know if they do ill just think there lying and making a joke with there friends :( im going to do my best to change that.. i had more to say, but i forget what it was. oh and i think i should start looking for a new job. since i hate target i need to go to something smaller i like it smaller, and besides i have a feeling thats shannon and denise arn't going to last and she knows it so that way i wont be left alone at target.