I'm listening to Chris Brown. Not suprising lately. I'm addicted to this one song. Its hella good. So i got my phone bill Tuesday 581.00 Let me tell you my parentals weren't happy. At all. I have to work to ear the money. 3,893 text messages will do that to your phone bill though = My friend wants to do ectasy. And I wanna do it to. AND FUCK SOMEONE. That would be tight to lose your virginity to someone on ectasy. Cause it would feel so good. Cause how horny you get you know? Well i decided i'm going to. Then me and another friend [shes remaining annonymous until I that she doesn't care if I say her name] are doing shrooms for sure. When I get money. && then i wanna do acid. I feel so bad. Like not badass. But like, not good. You get it. Right? Well idkkk. Then yesterday. I got on AIM and no one was really on. So I went to go lay down. And that was about 4:30. Then i guess two boys come over to see me [Josh and Andy] Ps. This is the story I was told They came over and my grandpa answered it and let them in you know like he usually does when boys come over. And he comes upstairs and was like "two boys are downstairs for you" and I guess I told him to tell them I 'fell off the face of the earth' Lol. And so he told them that I was asleep and he couldn't wake me up. But I guess it was so loud they could hear me say that. And thought I was awake, When really i wasn't mentally awake, And I don't remember ANY of this. So this boy right. Named Josh. I used to like him. Alot. Then I finally find out he "doesn't like me" and so I got over him. Cause thats what i do when boys don't like me. Well I find out that he likes me. Know what i'm gonna say when he asks me out "You had your fucking chance. Its to late i'm over you now" Yeah right. I only wish I could say that. But I think i'm gonna say no Cause i'm just gay like that [not literally] But like he only wants sex. Even though hes a virgin. But like he's always saying "we should fuck" And I guess yesterday he came over because "he was so horny his balls were gonna fall off" Those were his exact words. Yeah idk. What should I do?