This is making my life insane. How the hell am I going to handel 3 more years of high school if I'm flipping out now and we are only 2 weeks into the new year. I hate most of my classes, I don't even give a shit about half of them and guard is fucking stressing me out. Today in guard Amikra was waiting for her dad to pick her up so she came in the room we were practicing in and was watching and tension was high and I couldn't get something so I asked Jaime to help me with something then Megan starts yelling at me telling me I was doing it wrong(while Jaime was still teaching me it) and I flipped out and everyone got pissed at me and took Megan's side as usual so I asked Amikra to leave and I think she took offence to it(sorry, I didn't mean for you to get involed) but in the end it turned out that Megan was fucking doing it wrong and that I had it right. Damn. I cannot wait until color guard is over or until I'm preforming or something. My hands are bruised so badly and I'm always upset, but then when I get to do the show it makes everything better. I can't wait 'til half time tomorrow. Sympathy, please?