yesterday kinda sucked i was so bored and i was supposed to hang with meagan and then what....she ditched me...whatever i think that was really gay but shes probably going to make up some excuse and im gonna crawl back to her again...like i freakin do all the time...i seriously need to stop doing that if she ditches me then thats her problem not mine...but everytime its like i somehow make it my problem and make myself feel bad while shes out havin fun and what not....but whatever taylor isnt mad at me...whenever we get in a fight we get over it in like 2 seconds...so i guess that means were better friends then meagan and i will ever be...not saying that i dont want to be really close but its like when i try to get close she just totally like makes me believe that she wants to as well then when i decide to lean on her...not literally but friendship wise... she just backs away and i take yet another fall and i hate them and i dont want anymore....i just dont know what to do....help anyone....