tell me what the fuck is it doing for you does it really help does it cure the pain to me its just a sick and twisted game fuck you all, are you even worth it i cant believe the shit thats happened to me can my life go right for just one day or is god just wanting me to pay? what the fuck did i do to you? sick and tired of the shit thats played new hand, forced it out in a second cause im done with your sick and twisted games no more was it ever worth it? no less can i say ive gained? no more im so tired of purpose no less i dont need a reason now i ask you what does it do? does it make you feel special? can you move on with this without any friends anyone to help you when your miserable

remember the GOOD TIMES? THE golden DAYS? like when you were 8 and 9?....me neither. but if i did im sure itd be great. i dont even remember yesterday. its crazy. Ya know parades? GEATEsT THINGS EvER. like the disney parade! man thats a sweet show. and the new power rangers arnt that good. NOT LIKE IVE WATCHED A COUPLE EPISODES OR ANYTHING bu if i did.....and thats a BIG IF im sure they wouldnt be as great. migght i add, my night lights still in tact..hasnt burnt out yet. if only i had a charmander to sleep with.....haha gotta love it though. haha. Peace bryan ryan yan an n .....whoa THATS LIKE ECHOEY

so i was downtown today and it was pretty much a wild goose chase. mark pointed out some girl that was hot and im like LETS GO GET HGER FOR You, so i ran after her, mark trailing close behind. i jumped over one parking meter, which could have turned out in a disaster but lets not talk about that, so the woman started to hop in her car, i waved to her to gether attention. she didnt see me, she started driving off i ran after her, she stopped at a red light which soon turned green, but by the time i got there it was too late. she was gone. nothing but the silent streets whispering in my ear of the misery i shall face few minutes later in letting mark down. i will not live down this moment

I dont know why but i feel kinda depressed. it just kinda hit me. its strange. i mean nothing bothers me its almost like its just here. But oh well itll go away. so i came out to my dads today which is nice. i havnt seen him in awhile. but yea i gotta work all week this week so thats gonna kill me. not only that but i got ten chapters of the Scarlet Letter to read in one day. why i waited till the last minute i don't know. well i screwed that up. My leg has been itching like fucking crazy for the past day and its driving me insane. i dont know what the hell is wrong with it. well i probably need sleep itll be better tommarrow thanks for listening Bryan

ohh man am i bored. and i have become pretty addicted to this thing again. i dont know if i can part with it. were like BFF's!. im pretty sure im addicted to Hardcore Gangster Rap when im in the car. i pulled up next to the crossing guard once with the windows down well playing it. he looked at me like i was insane. but i think he was impressed. i looked into his eyes and he looked into mine.....then i drove off never to see him again. the things we do for love. well this white boy is out of HeRE peace Bryan

so hard so numb i cant believe its done so lie to me you seem to think it makes it better dont believe you never wanted to before you never wanted to its all make believe your just a see through image im so fucking sorry i couldnt give you the world you want and you want and you take it all you never left anything for me so dont come asking me for more when you know what the answer will be so scared afraid i cant escape the screams so real so fake i now know where reality lays shut up its done you cant relive the past again you cant relive the past you said no games but you went and played them anyways you thought i wouldnt notice thought that id never see how much you lie and how much you decieve GAME OVER

so hard so numb i cant believe its done so lie to me you seem to think it makes it better dont believe you never wanted to before you never wanted to its all make believe your just a see through image im so fucking sorry i couldnt give you the world you want and you want and you take it all you never left anything for me so dont come asking me for more when you know what the answer will be so scared afraid i cant escape the screams so real so fake i now know where reality lays shut up its done you cant relive the past again you cant relive the past you said no games but you went and played them anyways you played the games over me you lied and i couldnt help but believe now i see your eyes and see the evil that lies inside GAME OVER

you said i couldnt do it you tried to take away my dream wanted me to be someone who i could never be everything i am today is everything ill be yet your so blind to it and you may never see that words mean so much yet yours meant nothing wanted me to be more than something well im not perfect and will never be i will not be sorry for only being me you gave up on your faith you didnt think itd matter to me what you seem to forget is all you gotta do is believe you think my lifes a joke well look whos laughing now all you can do is sit there and wonder how

pretty sure that was the best flick i have seen. makes it so much better when your next to me. i dont know what chipper means....therefore i picked it. so i like everything about you and i wouldnt change ONE thing. everything about you is perfect to me. i think your beautiful and amazing and you always know what to say. i can talk to you about anything and you listen. and the same for you too. theres noone like you and i love it. and to top it off your name is just fantastic...Jordan. Bryan

BRYANNNN i hope you don't get to mad that i changed your diary :( i was kinda boredddd buti had fun.. hope you like it :) XOXO LOVESSSSS <3 jordan

i keep thinking that piture is trying to kiss me.....MAYBE IT IS. i could look like a complete retard and kiss the screen...but i can find just about 30 things that can go wrong with that. i dont think i can top what you did today. Hot guys never come over to my house. i just moved stuff all day at our new house. AlMOsT DONE FINALLY. and when it is oh you must come check out the PAD. And i coould come help you clean! that way we get to finding nemo quicker. i dont think ive looked forward to ANYTHING MORE. BEsT ThiNG EvEr. epecially cause youll be there Alright well im OUT of HERE gonna go play some el guitaro....im pretty sure thats how they say it in spanish

gave it all away just to get away from here alone and afraid i stand here drowning in fear ill find another way you dont have to worry for me when comes another day where i can see straight everytime i get a grip someone steps on my hands falling though the wind i hear the screams gettign louder i wish i could save the world but i only have to hands everyone wishes i was perfect well im only human

so there i was...just walking down the street....singin doo wa ditty ditty down diddy doo.....i WISH so hmmm. i laid on the roof today! simple as that. it was great. and the roof was hot. but i was really lazy and was like screw it. so liek half my body is a lil redder than the other. oh yea i found a nightlight! and it DOES have a teddy bear on it. so score! now your not the only one. i had it when iw as three it turns out. oh yea...your still beautiful without make-up sitting in a chair holding a charmander.

ok so today. TURNS OUT WE HAvE THE BIG n RICh CD.n so i put it in, and went straight to..SAve a HORSE RIDE A CoWBOY. i had ioit on repeat. so it never really quit until my mom got home and was like turn it down. and its just not the same when its all quiet and such. oh yea i BOOSTED a bag of marshmellows. my mom got home with the groceries so i was like. nice lookin marshmellows ya got there. and shes like. your weird. im like yea so. and then she turned around to put something away and i RAN WITH THEM. their hidden in my room right now JUST IN CAsE. alright thats about IT. BrYaN with a B

gOal Number One: Learn a bellydance and show Jordan Goal 2:...okay so i onyl have one GOAL

sticky notes. smooth on the front..sticky on the upper part of the back. jsut the way i like em. whoa...www.thisisacryforhelp.com freaskiest site ive been to. sends a chill up you when your sitting here all alone in the dark. haha. makes you paranoid. i keep lookign behind me. so i geu8ss i could type ra6ndom nonsense an4d see if anyo6ne sees anything odd abo3ut this. i geuss only one person wou7ld notice cause i dont think anybody else reads my no3nsense. haha alright and that explains how bored i am. now moving on to how im going to sleep cause im tired as ever. Peace BrYaN

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Right now im talking to the most amzing girl Ever named Jordan. thought id start this off like that. makes my day talking to her. Have you ever had it when you have the Urge to grab a stick pony, pretend your a midget, and ride it? if not you need to. i swear its the best. alright well i must be out now Peace BrYaN

hmm im sitting hee. doing pretty much nothing. and wearing black silk pajamas Just cause im bored. ok yea thats about it. Peace bryan

im eating a cnady cane.