they tell me i can't do anything if i don't get my grades up. what did the rest of the year mean? nothing? They won't take me to look at colleges. no NY, no Halifax, no Chicago, no FUCKING Quebec. No place i would ever want to go. Why? because "I would never get in" who would take the girl with the 3.3 overall? no one. never. they would hate me. And when i try to tell them that art school would never care that i had a few 70s in science, they tell me that I DON'T KNOW. I am obviously mistaken. I never know who to talk to. I... hate this world. none of it matters. and no one can see We can survive without it all. all the shit. When did people stop seeing that? WHEN? It seems like this entire world was made up by some man and the rest of us went along with it. I don't want to Fucking go along. I refuse to live someone elses dream to dream. I refuse to sit around in an office taking orders from a sweaty fat guy who can't even keep his marriage together. and oh why can't we talk? Why do we have to keep everything inside to save face. Keep everything inside until we die. There is no need for secrets. We are all human here. We all have regrets, mistakes, love, lust, and everything. We all have dreams. I don't fit in here. I just want one person i can really love. That's all. Just one. So that we can be selfish together. And terrorize other people's sad existances. [with our love] Meet me at the bus station July 2nd. I've got some money. We'll roll away into the night and never look back.