You Make Me Sick (Draft)

The panic reminds me of sick dizzy confusion,

Old migraine vomit and pain

The fear holds me tight as my eyes widen in horror

And I realise I cannot refrain

From recalling the times when everything turned to hate

It's all coming back to me now

The cuts and the scars, your caring abuse

The bullshit I somehow allowed

I knew it was coming, as my body fell over

Sick from the smell of stale piss

My stomach screaming at me, I wish to be numb

And hate my continued weakness

Those old metal bowls, in the public toilets

They're the places i hate to see most

Through tear soaked eyes there's a face wretching bile

Puke pouring all over my clothes

And i'm wishing to stop, let go of this life

That you beat into shape just for me

End this right now, pick off the old scabs

Start with a new memory

But the endless stream flows and my back's buckling now

I can't hold myself up for much longer

Thank you so fucking much for the twisted disease

You never knew you were feeding your daughter

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