hey everyone I know it has been forever & there's no use on *completely* updating you on my life since school got out because thats just a bunch of bull. =] Alrightyy well lets see Wednesdayy Doug left to go with his dad; so I haven't talked to him since then. :-/ oh well.. whatever. I miss him so0o much;; Today I was supposed to go see Justin Hannel (( my best friend )) but no my dad because an ass and wouldn't let me go.. :-/ which i'm extremely pissed off about;; so yeah I had a pretty bad break down Thats just how thing work with me.. I become so upset about so much shit & keep it all to myself but than when I finally let it out.. its over soemthing VERy small. :-/ but oh well.. so yeahh.. I have cuts all over my hand from punching my wall =D yeahhh oh well... anywayy;; besides all that;; I have to baby (( 2 wk. old )) kittens that I have to feed every 3 hrs. all day;; & all through the night;; so there goes my freedom.. but ya know i'm sparing their lives.. & that makes me feel good they are so0o phuckin' adorable!!!! x0x Hopefully Doug will be home tonight so I can finally talk to him. :-/ you have no idea how hard it is to go to sleep every night without talkin' to him & hearing him tell me that he loves me.. Its like a heart break every time I have to shut my eyes. Doug starts work on Mondayy;; so this weekend is the last time I'm gonna get to hang out with him until nexX weekend. but OH well.. nothing I can do about it.. July 1- I start work.. which is going to be awesome.. I'm working at Dyberry Day Camp with the Mentally Handicap, Down Syndrom & Handicap kids :) I can't wait.. its going to be funN :) Yeah well thats about all for now.. So I'll stop blabbing about all this shit that no one probably reads or even gives a FLYING FUCK about.. yeahhh thats about how I feel todayy.. no one cares; no one is here; why should they care; no one knows all the shit I've been through this year; do you care? NO SO FUCK OFF! :( :( :( and the rain pours so hard out my window reminding me of the happy times until the thunder rolls in I'm reminded of how horrible life truly is

hey all. yeah today is the last day of school; i'm not to sure exactly how i feel about that.. Im so0o happy :) Todayy Jess, Matt, Doug, Kirsten, Nick, Cody, John, Cali & I are going to go (( after school )) to Elegante's for a like quadruple date.. :) yaya its going to be fun.. than i guess we are just going to hang around.. :) which sounds like even more fun.. :) than we might go to the movies if we can find a ride... :) it will really suck if we can't... :-/ I dunno what we are going to do afterwards.. I guess I'l just call my mom & she can take me home.. :) workds for me.. I'm so0o phuckin' tired.. last night I stayed up to Ten wiating for doug to call so than i called him at like 10 and left a message.. than around like 10:30 or 10:45 he finally got home and called me.. but he could only talk till 11 cause he was :-/ tired... (( grr )) whatever I stayed up to tak to you but no0o.. oh well I love him to death.. well the periods almost over.. good bye to all the freshman of 2005

hey everyone.. today is the first day of Finals... :-/ I just got done with my first period final.. so yeah its all good. oh my gosh, Mr. Morgan is so stupid!!! :( grr... he yelled at me & Doug because Doug hugged me, and told me he loved me than gave me the tiniest kiss on the cheek!! :( okayy just for an update.. ...:* Thursday_- after school; I rode the bus home with Regina & Tom.. and of course the lovely Megan! Me, Regina & Megan talked about sex, and sexual activities all the way to Regina's hehe* it was funN.. felt good to be with a group of girls again. :) Than after we got to Regina's and her mom came & dropped off pizza. we hung out for a while.. and talked.. ate pizza ((of course)) and just hung out. :) Than Doug got home from football.. (( he's started coughing again.. which is NOT a good sign )) and me & him hung out for a little while.. but than he had to go. (( BSA )) & he got pissy, and than we had a little fight kinda thing.. but he said he was sorry.. :) he's such a sweetie. :) well anywayy.. after he & Tom left.. me & Regina & Mommy Cahill went to get headphones from Regina's friend Becca's house.. :) and we kinda saw Regina's boyfriend.. Curtis.. but she refused to sayy hi to him. :) haha* so me & her mom were picking on her... :) good fun.. than me & Regina went into Blockbuster and we kept seeing all these *dirty* movies.. :D lmfao*!! Than we went back to her house and watched a movie.. until the boys got back.. :) than Doug was still appologizing.. :) aww yeah;; so we just hung out the rest of the night.. ;) than we went to sleep;; around like 12:30 :) after he went into the bathroom he came in my room as kissed my cheek and said " i love you baby" :) awww !!! ...:* Friday_- well we woke up around 5:30.. because we had to leave.. :) Doug's mommy left, so we took a shower.. & than she was home.. we hung out & ate breakfast & got ready to go and that was about it;; than we got in the car;; and the dayy truly started. Doug & I slept half the wayy there.. than just sat & talked ;) the rest of the time.. :) When we got to Six Flags is was just sprinkling.. but by the time we got into the park it was raining.. It was okayy though.. because we both had a blast.. I never really had been on a roller coaster so Doug was determined to drag me on every single one.. :) gosh i love him! So yeah;; we rode quite a few roller coasters & than we went out to the car to eat.. than when we came back we rode the rest of them.. and saw these HUGE turtles.. we had the time of our lives.. :) I dont think the day could have gone n e better.. :) than we left the park after it closed probably around 9 or so..:) than when we all got to the car we had to change.. which was interesting.. than we stopped at the WAWA and ate foods.. in the car.. than we got home and passed out.. :) ...:* Saturday_- woke up at Doug's house than just layed around for quite a while.. than went home around 3 and just did Algebra notes the rest of the night ...:* Sunday_- went to church.. than came home, helped Malinda clean part of her closet.. than came back to my house & did nothing.. than at like 8 I asked mommyy to take me to get ice cream so she did.. but Rileyville wasn't open so we went all the way to HOnesdale to get Ice Cream.. & so we picked Doug up s0o we could see each other.. which was very nice.. than me & doug got locked out of his house.. than I left than came home.. ..:* Today_- finals, regular classes, & more finals.. nothin' else planned ...:* another Great Weekend That Has Come to A Close.. & summer is Just Around The Corner

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hey there. everyone.. whats goin' on??? Yeah, I'm in club right now.. went to the wrong club.. (( again )) :-/ oh welll... :) We had a *future* tennis meeting todayy.. kinda boring.. but i have to get in contact with my sister so she can show me what the freak i'm doing.. *its all good * Last night i got my cell phone.. its spiffyy!!! yaya 229-0013 :) its be au tiful!!! umm... let see Friday I'm going with Doug & his mom to Six Flags or whatever you wanna call it.. I can't wait.. no school!!!! :) & I get to spend Thursday & Friday night at his house.. ** yay** :) ahh.. hmm.. I don't really know what to type.. things have been pretty boring.. besides me & Doug. OH LAST NIGHT.. JUSTIN CALLED ME!!! yaay* I was so0o phuckin' happy to see him.. I haven't seen him in forever..:( ((tears)) but oh well.. This morning I hugged Jamie.. & she got all like " grr.. " it made me sad.. cause I LOVE JAMIE!!!! :) hehe.. well there's really nothing else to sayy so i'm just gonna leave some stuff on here.. like icons & stuff.. take 'em if ya want..

well lets see its been forever since I have written on here. So I might as well fill you guyzZ in on my weekend.. ..:*-- Friday_ well yeah, school, than Frankie & Doug came over.. & we hung out & went on the trampoline & stuff. had farting & burping contests.. just some quality good fun. ..:*-- Saturday_ Doug's mommy invited me to go with them to her mom's house. So they picked me up around like 10:00 than we went back to Doug's & hung out for a little bit. Got in the van & headed out for Jim Thorpe. Me & Doug slept all the wayy there :) I got to meet all his cousins.. even though they are much older than me.. it was still fun, we ate, watched tv, ;), we went out for ice cream.. than we left there around like.. 9 or 10. Me & Doug slept all the wayy home I got to stayy at his house for the night; so when we got home.. we just kinda hung out in his room till like 12:30.. we were dead tired so it wasn't a big deal that we weren't together to awefully long.. :-/ :) ..:*-- Sunday_ well lets see I woke up at like 9:30.. my mom had called.. so after she got done yelling at me.. I got up & went into Doug's room to get my toothbrush & stuff.. & when I came back he was awake-laying there.. smiling at me :) like a kid.. --on easter;)-- so we just kinda hung out & played around.. than his mommyy went to get food ;) than she came back & I got in the shower.. we ate than.. just hung out somemore.. :) Than his Daddy left to go get a lawmower.. Doug got in the shower.. & than his mommmy left to go get Thomas (( AKA- the killer )) so we were alone.. ;) but yea know.. us being good ppl.. we didn't do n e thing uncalled for. :) Than later we went to Frankie's for his birthdayy!!! :) I love that kid to death.. he's the coolest best guy friend ever! :) We just kinda hung out & played football & smear the queer.. ((lmfao)) Doug & I had a fight about something stupid.. :-/ but we worked it out.. because our love is stronger than any bullshit!!! :) well yeah; so than we left Frankie's around like 11 or so.. & that was the end of the night.. cause I had to go home. ..:*-- Monday_ I woke up, called Doug, went & picked him up.. than we went to the parade.. I was in it.. & he just walked around to find ppl to hang out with.. when I saw him he was with Johnson. which was cool.. :) cause John is one of my friends.. :) of course. Than after that we went back to my house.. & hung out for a little bit.. than my parents left so we had to go to my aunts.. we went over there & hung out.. than we went back to my house b.c. "i had to get something" ;) than we went back to my aunt's & helped move stuff around in my cousin's room.. :) cause we are just that good. well nothing really good happened after that except.. we walked out my road. & i watched doug pee.. lmao*:) than I asked him to marry me.. & he said he would.. but he wants to buy me a ring first.. wow how sweet!!! ..thats it for now.. I LOVE JESS. JAMZYY. DOUG. BRITT & ALL THE REST OF YOU x0x

hey everyone.. hmm.. i know i did quite a few quizes yesterdayy;; :) mucho loves.. :) but right now I'm not going to talk very long cause i have homework to do.. :-/ sry to sayy.. haha.. well n e wwayyy.. I LOVE JESSICA BARTON B.C. SHE IS THE MOTHER OF MY BABIES!!! lmfao* :) well i gotta be goin' homework is callin'... x0x doug is the best thing in my life i don't know what the hell i would do without him.. & if n e one ever tries to take him away from me i will give you balls and than chop them. off.. i love doug so0oo much alwayys & forever!!!!

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hmm.. yeah well lets see I'll update you on my weekend ---Friday--- Doug came back to my house after school & we just kinda hung out & listened to music & talked to my cousin.. played with the puppy & went on the trampoline.. :) Than my mom got home and was really bitchyY cause she didn't think that he should have come over.. than she realized he was spending the night & spazzed out at me even more.. :-/ you have no0o idea.. (( oh well she dealt with it)) so we watched a movie until like 1:30. :) it was fun.. I love that boyyy to00o death ---Saturday--- well I went in to wake him up & he was just like sitting on my bed.. so we just decided to sit there and talk.. than I got in the shower & than we went to Honesdale for a little bit & than off to Scranton.. I bought him.. two RocaWear shirts.. another shirt. a pair of pants.. 2 hats & a cd. :) total of $115 & some odd change.. haha* the most I've ever spent on a single person :) hehe* It made me feel speciall.. yeahh than after that we went out to eat.. & than we went home.. he fell alseep on our wayy home so I just sat there & watched him sleep.. how ((cute)) :) wow. I'm so0 freakin' luckyy to have that boyy.. :) ---Sunday--- well went to church.. came home.. that was about it.. went online for like 5 hrs. & that was it... ---Yesterday--- well yeah there was school;; I dunno I've got to be sick because I've just been **out of it** n e wayys;; school was boring.. nothing really funny happened that I can remember.. than after school Doug's mom picked us up & we went to tryy to sell space on the back of the BSA t-shirts.. but the 2 places we went to the peopless weren't there.. so than his mom took me to my T.A.F.T.Y. meeting at the Chamber of Commerce.. yeah fun. Than after that we went back to Doug's house & did our homework & ate dinner & just kinda hung out.. :) ((I LOVE DOUGLAS CAHILL)) yeahh.. than my dad came & picked me.. up ((the worst part of the day)) than I came home.. & went to sleep ---Today--- BORED AS HELL!!! well i'm going to go.. attempt some stuff witht he computer.. :) *hehe* mucho loves..

haha.. well I just randomly selectd a mood.. & it came out psychotic.. so I guess that works.. cause i basically am. :) yay** anywayyss;; we are in the computer lab ((we being Erin & myself)) yeahh.. :) we are so0o cool. cause we can go to the computer lab.. during 5B!!! x0x Alrighty well let me update you on what has been going on-today.. .:*1st- well yeah I came on here & did some of my math homework.. .:*2nd- had math class.. & got kinda confused but its all good.. than I finished my quiz;; I think I did okayy.. :) ((i hope)) .:*3rd- well we had a sub. for History.. & yeahh.. it was interesting.. I got quite a bit of my homework done.. & gave my answers to Douglas (my babyy) & Kenny ((kenizzle for-shizzle)) :) .:*Lunch- well nothing really exciting happened at lunch todayy;; actually it was quite boring.. :) but I tried to finish my English homework & than I started to do some extra-- credit for Algebra.. while Doug started making my Book-cover look b e a ut i ful :) I love that kid to death. .:*4th- hmm.. nothing interesting.. we arm-wrestled again.. & that was about it.. I beat, Matt Ellis & Ivy.. & I attempted to Arm-wrestle Ron.. but he's to big for me.. :-/ oh well it was fun n e wayyss.. .:*5th- well we kinda just ditched study hall and came to the computer lab & we are just like hanging out.. & thats about how my dayy has been so far.. but seriously I'm psycotic.. todayy ppl are like "are you okayy"... DUH M I OKAYY?? WHAT KINDA EEFFFIN' QUESTION IS THAT?!?! =] my foot hurts really bad because of these stupid flip flopss.. yeahh they are EATING my foot alive.. :( oh well.. I can take it.. ((MUHAHAHA)) :) hmm.. I don't really know what else to write.. but I'm sure I can find something :) ..(( cause i'm just that good )) :) Tonight DouglASs is comin' overr :) yay* & he's spending the night.. my parents don't really know yett.. but well they do but they don't.. i asked them.. i think they just forgot.. oh well ** suprise suprise ** Lastnight I got a phone call at like 10:30-- it was my cousin Marykate. & she was crying that her parents were fighting so I had to go rescue her from that and bring her home with me.. and she spent the night.. it was kinda cool except that we both attempted to fit on my bed.. :) lmfao* we just like hung out and watched PowerPuff Girls.. **rock on** Hopefully everything will be okayy tonight.. I hate seein' the poor girl cryy.. :( she's only FUCKING 11 she doesn't need to go throught this bullshit. :( anyayyss-- I wrote Doug this bea utiful letter the other night its very long.. but its also very sweet. I love him so0o much!!! x0x well yeahh.. just think 3 days after we get out of school is going to be mine & his 6 MONTHS anniversary.. :) i'm so0o phuckin' happy.. :) I never thought that i could love someone as much as I love him. yeahh;; so I heard yesterdayy that my sister might be heading the way of a *second* divorce. :( Its quite depressing.. but Jeff is such an [[asshole]] :) he really is.. the wayy he treats my sister's daughter is bull shit.. & me& my sister to0o.. I just hope she gets out of the situation before it turns really bad.. :( she deserves so0o much better than that.. :( well yeah I'm probably being quite annoyin' to some of you.. but thats ok.. (( suck my balls..)) hehe** i don't have n e.. so your out of luck.. well i'm gonna go.. mucho loves.. & one last thing

hey everyone i'm bored & in Keyboarding ((yaya))) :) Jenna i just wanted to sayy i love you mucho!!! x0x! :) & i gues i'm just gonna leave some little picture thingyy's

heyy everyone I know it has been forever.. but oh well you guyz all still love me.. so everything is w o n d e r f u l!!! x0 well lets see if I can update you on n e thing;; hmm.. well Tuesdayy after school I went to Tutoring with Douglas & than went back to his house we just hung out & stuff;; but I was so0oo0o0o overdosed x*shh*x on Tylenol that I don't remember n e thing past Dinner. YestErdaYy- I was still kinda messed up from Tuesdayy, so I stayed home.. & now I have like major back pains & my tighs hurt.. (odd) and yeahh;; thats about all I did yesterday just sit around & watch friends. Today- unfortunately I'm back in school;; *yuck* only to see my Baby-- who I love so0o0o dearly!!! x0x & than tonight I'm helping Malinda clean her room.. since she just got back from college... (( lotza neww clothess for meee :))) Tomorrow- well hopefully my baby will be able to come to my house & spend the night.. & than on Saturdayy we are going shopping.. :) yay* & of course possibly going to ArianA's partyyy.. ((happy birthdayy my darlin')) well as of now.. i'm outtie. cause i'm sleepy

Statement of Love: The Kiss 1. Kiss on the hand.... I adore you 2. Kiss on the cheek... I just want to be friends 3. Kiss on the neck... I want you 4. Kiss on the lips... I love you 5. Kiss on the ears... I am just playing 6. Kiss anywhere else ... lets not get carried away 7. Look in your eyes ... kiss me 8. Playing with your hair... I can't live without you 9. Hand on your waist... I love you to much to let you GO You know you're in love when all you can think about is that one special person and you can't stand to be away from them for more then one second. You miss then even though they're standing right next to you. You fall asleep thinking about them, and dream about them every night. Give me a kiss, give me the world, give me your heart, I'll be your girl, give me your smile, give me your time, give me your love, I'll give you mine to the world you might mean one person... ...but to one person you might mean the world!

You hate not to love but you hate to fall in love.You can't help but sigh when you see to peoplekiss in the park and all. You don't like to goover board and believe in a small steadyrelationship at first so that it can grow. Youalso like to think that you can have that kissthat puts you into a portal and you can't getback until he/she stops. How much do you love? GOOD PICS brought to you by Quizilla

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