hey everyone I know it has been forever & there's no use on *completely* updating you on my life since school got out because thats just a bunch of bull. =] Alrightyy well lets see Wednesdayy Doug left to go with his dad; so I haven't talked to him since then. :-/ oh well.. whatever. I miss him so0o much;; Today I was supposed to go see Justin Hannel (( my best friend )) but no my dad because an ass and wouldn't let me go.. :-/ which i'm extremely pissed off about;; so yeah I had a pretty bad break down Thats just how thing work with me.. I become so upset about so much shit & keep it all to myself but than when I finally let it out.. its over soemthing VERy small. :-/ but oh well.. so yeahh.. I have cuts all over my hand from punching my wall =D yeahhh oh well... anywayy;; besides all that;; I have to baby (( 2 wk. old )) kittens that I have to feed every 3 hrs. all day;; & all through the night;; so there goes my freedom.. but ya know i'm sparing their lives.. & that makes me feel good they are so0o phuckin' adorable!!!! x0x Hopefully Doug will be home tonight so I can finally talk to him. :-/ you have no idea how hard it is to go to sleep every night without talkin' to him & hearing him tell me that he loves me.. Its like a heart break every time I have to shut my eyes. Doug starts work on Mondayy;; so this weekend is the last time I'm gonna get to hang out with him until nexX weekend. but OH well.. nothing I can do about it.. July 1- I start work.. which is going to be awesome.. I'm working at Dyberry Day Camp with the Mentally Handicap, Down Syndrom & Handicap kids :) I can't wait.. its going to be funN :) Yeah well thats about all for now.. So I'll stop blabbing about all this shit that no one probably reads or even gives a FLYING FUCK about.. yeahhh thats about how I feel todayy.. no one cares; no one is here; why should they care; no one knows all the shit I've been through this year; do you care? NO SO FUCK OFF! :( :( :( and the rain pours so hard out my window reminding me of the happy times until the thunder rolls in I'm reminded of how horrible life truly is