I don't write in here anymore.

Well, today makes me not want to ever drive my car to school. Some girl's boyfriend drove the girl's dad's car to school, and it somehow caught fire. A few other cars got fucked up in that mess, too. Blahblah, there's a whole area in the lot that's black. Also, some kid in my Psychology class flipped his jeep with three or four other kids in it. I heard they were all sent to the hospital. Some kid's also going around and keying everyone's cars. I'm cool with him, but I still don't trust him. Sucks. I was a bit skeptical about getting in the car with Ryan today. There have been too many close calls already, and today didn't seem like a day that would go our way.

For the past few months, this anonymous person has been bothering my boyfriend and me. They've made fake screen names and bothered us, fake livejournal and My Space accounts with only the two of us added as friends, and they call my boyfriend from a private number. Today I got in IM. The screen name was my boyfriend's full name. The profile was my boyfriend's name, followed by "kathy big= my fly grl ♥". Kathy Biggerton is their alias on My Space. After that it said "jenn ur ok too". Jenn = me. Anyway, this time it was different. They were saying things about how my boyfriend likes me a lot, and that he's a good guy. Tha we're cute together. Made for each other. They said they'd leave us alone now, but they just want us to be "together foreva". I'm curious to find out if all of this really does stop. It's pretty creepy, because they know so much about the two of us.

I'm always relieved to get my period. And though cramps are pretty terrible, they're much better than being pregnant.

My boyfriend is a stud.

I tore and crumpled the picture I drew in an immature, but successful, attempt to keep my boyfriend from seeing it. We laughed lots today, and I like that. However, I do not like facial hair. & if he does decide to grow it out, I will stand by my word and not kiss him. How pathetic. :) He decided against it, and that makes me a happy girl.

Sean Penn is a hunk.

I can honestly say that Elvis Costello is one of my favorite artists. & there are so many albums of his that I've had and lost, and now I need to go out and buy them again. Rockpile is also goodie. I made mysef dinner, and it turned out real bad.

I've never been able to beat even one round of PacMan. I did, however, get close this morning. MOCHA ALERT IN JUST A FEW MINUTES.

I don't care how stupid or immature it sounds, because I'm still going to say that my boyfriend is better than any of yours.

No one likes being lied to.

I want to marry Elvis Costello. ♥

I've got the house to myself for about a week. Mom says, "No sex." She wouldn't say that if she knew how good he was.

I'd like to know what you think of this: It's supposed to be me. Now, no one knows what I look like, but I'd still like to know if you think it's good or not. I haven't drawn in years. p.s. I love Sean Penn.

I wonder how I had so many friends on my last journal. It seems as though no one even knows that I exist. Not that I necessarily care. I'd just like to know how I gained such popularity on this two years ago. I wonder if everyone still cuts themselves like they all wrote about two years ago. There's this extremely fat boy in my school, and he likes to make fun of people. He made fun of my boyfriend last year, and he made fun of my best friend yesterday. He really shouldn't be making fun of anyone. Someone might cut off his grunge ponytail. I think it'll happen sometime next week. & this time I mean it. tdl eog: He messed up with his belly. He made it go out instead of in. That's why my boyfriend is amazing.

You may think I'm young. You may think I'm stupid. But I'm in love. And I want to spend the rest of my life with him. I want a new car.

Lately I've felt like a waste. I'm not involved in anything. The highlight of my day is watching TV with my boyfriend... not that I don't enjoy it, but I wish I actually did something every day. I've got a band, but it's obviously not going anywhere. I've been doing schoolwork. I'm doing a hell of a lot better this year than I have in my entire school career, and I'm glad. I know what I want to do with my life. I've changed my mind about not going to college. I think it's safe to say that I've turned my life around. No more smoking, drinking, or drugs. I'm not depressed. I've been happy with my life lately. I just wish I was involved in any kind of activity. I used to be in orchestras. I used to play sports. I don't do any of that anymore. I've figured my life out, though, and I know what I want. I want to graduate high school. I want to attend college for law. I want to get married. I want to have kids. I want a big house on the water, and a 37' Egg Harbor to go with it. I haven't done well in school at all until this year, and it's going to be hard to obtain most of that. I'm confident, though, that I can make it work.

I had a sD way back. A few, actually. I decided to start one up again. I've got a Live Journal, also, and I do most of my updating there. My Space, too, if anyone's interested. I'm a little upset that I'm not going to be able to see Fear Before next month as I had planned, but at least I'm going to see Bright Eyes in November. Third time's a charm. :)

IS THERE ANYONE WHO IS OVER 21, LIVES IN NEW YORK, AND WANTS TO SEE A SHOW?!