This day started out good but now it is horrible.... In P.O.T i was talking to Jen but then i decided to move next to Stan. Stan was one of my good friends for the past 2 years. He has been acting weird around me since he got a new girlfriend on monday. I was trying to talk to him and i also tried joking with him but he wouldnt talk to me. So i wrote him a note and asked what was wrong and why he wouldnt talk to me. He said nothing was wrong and he was to busy. I then asked him why he was not to busy to talk to everyone else and why was it any different when he talks to me. He just said wrote it is and turned away from me....I cried after that the whole period...and it was weird because i couldnt stop myself...no matter how hard i tried...I hate fucking crying in front of people, and when Stan knew i was crying he didnt care...is there something wrong with me? I dont know what is wrong or anything...and i am really upset because of it...he wouldnt tell me why... I hardly have any friends to begin with so it hurts twice as much to me if i lose a good friend... Im fucking sick of this...i need something to make me forget, even if it is just for a little while... I just need to have fun.... Im going now...