"I wish there was a pill you could take to make love go away..."

"But why.. Love is hard enough to find, why would you want to make it go away?"/

WHY?

Beacuse if the other person doesn't love you back, it doesn't work. That's why. I wish I could take everything back. I wish I could turn back time, and I wish it had never begun. I wish I had never met you Mark.

It would be so much easier. It would take away hours of endless hope wondering if you cared. The pathetic tears, and wondering when I would get to see you. It would take away the pain of knowing you choose to be with someone else on those nights. It would take away the betrayal and the guilt, the sadness and the pain. How fucking pathetic is this right now? It would take away the damn self pity I have for myself for you not wanting me.

It would take away the damn misery you put me through those nights I waited for you. Those days, those hours, those minutes, those seconds. It would take away the fact I care about you. It makes me angry that I do.

Because you treat me like dirt, like you just don't care. I try to make excuses for you. That mayeb you are pushing me away, but really you don't give a damn about me at all.