i havent felt this way in a long while i know im hurting when i cant even give an honest smile no matter how private or discreet and it sucks to know you meant enough to do this to me you meant enough to me to make me feel so low but you did it anyways and theres one thing i know someone that important should never make that turn because that 'one time' turn sent me spinning around clinging to the next nice person trying to regain ground trying to find something new to lean on now yeah you hurt me pretty fucking bad youll probably ask me if im upset or mad well no shit im upset and fuck yeah im pissed but i know i have to accept the truth and the truth is this you arent a true friend like ive always been ive always 'had your back' but youve forgotten to cover mine over and over again but this time you hit dead center with your own fucking hand i didnt know that you were such a shitty friend you havent been helpful for a second so far and i dont think you ever will be i guess i shouldve known but i didnt know itd be like this with this shit i cant even win no matter how upset or angry you are you only have to feel fucking guilt guilt is when you know what the fuck went wrong guilt is when you fucking spit deceit into a good persons face swallow it up sweetheart this stuffs hard to get out