I feel so different each day. It usually starts out excited and ready to take on the day, and I usually feel pretty decent and content around 12 to 2. However in the evenings I realize the horrible loneliness that consumes my thoughts more than any other thing. I was so happy many months ago, happy with my friendships and relationship. Now I am happy with school, I'm doing well there, but I have such a void within me. I want to go back about 2 years or maybe more and be a better person like I know I could have been. Everything would still be great.