things are much better than they were the other day. MUCH better. Evan and I weren't doing so good, but now we're better than ever. He's so wonderful. I'm excited to partyyyy this weekend! I'm hopefully getting my tongue done, too. I got asked to be in national honor society today, cool. I'm so glad taylor and blake are together. I'm failing japanese, fuck it. :)I wanna do apprenticeship with Kelley. I'm sick of Kyrstin, she's such a whore. Yuck! KEEP YOUR PANTS ON AND STOP CHEATING ON THESE BOYS! THEY DON'T FUCKING DESERVE IT. I HATE YOU. I miss outdoor soccer, indoor isn't as fun. I love my life. all i want is you, will you stay with me? ♥

car accident today. guess i'm lucky to be alive. things are getting bad.

2010 so far has been ten times better than 2009 and it's only the forth day. :) Friday Schuyler & Dayton came over for a couple hours! That was really fun, I miss Schuyler so mch. He's moving back in June, but i'm not supposed to tell anyone, I can't wait! he says he's going to start selling weed when he moves back, whatever. After they left, Taylor picked me up and I went to Bub & Mason's surprise party, it was a blast! I loved having everyone together and partying, oh I missed it. I stayed at yetti's after the party w/the babiigurls, that was the first time that the five of us had hung out all break, so that was really fun. We went to the dandy at 1AM to get food and almost got raped by a creeper. I wanted to get drunk, but AJ couldn't get our alcohol, so we had sober fun instead. Saturday Meredith texted me and wanted to hang out, so she came over and hung out with me while I finished yetti's christmas presents, then we went to subway and went driving around. We discovered a new road and almost died on it from all the ice. We also almost killed a kitty, it was tragic! After she dropped me off I went to Riley's for the secret santa party. That was also really, really wonderful. It's the first time we had all our girls, and just our girls, together in foreverrr. Everyone had a really good time and yed really liked her present:). We watched paranormal activity and it was pretty scary. I got in a really big fight with Terra over the phone, i'm sick of her. She is way too attached to graham, it's actually unhealthy.. so ridiculous. Everyone fell asleep except for Riley, TaylorCoo, Ashey, Tiffany, TaylorWilms, and I. We stayed up until 8AM.. it was such a good time. I laughed the hardest I had laughed in a looong time. Once again, we were supposed to get alcohol and never did. Fuck people, no one is reliable. I can't wait til i'm 21. Yed and I wanted to leave and go smoke, but I wouldn't do that 'cause people might get pissed. Whatever, it was a good night. Yesterday was uneventful. I skipped practice and slept all day. Today was pretty lame as well, I hate school and I hate Mr.Henty.I'm going to fail his class for the year, but I quite honestly do not give a fuck. Fuck school. Fuck homework. Fuck failing classes. I wanna get drunk. I'm on the phone with Evan, he's so cute. He shaved his beard and sideburns and he's so upset. He's still cute though. :) He makes me so happy. I'm fighting with Devon. I hate him. He's a heartless, lying asshole. I can't believe I wasted so much time on him to be treated like shit. I can't believe I lost my virginity to him. I hated it. I never wanted to do it. I'm so upset that it happened like that. But I don't care. Go do some more coke, play some girls, and stay the fuck out of my life.. seriously. Fuck you and your BBJC. -shoutout to yegg:). bahaha. I miss cheerleading, I should have done it. I want my tongue pierced. Our first indoor game is next week- soo pumped! I'm done ranting. ppppeace:). I can't live, I can't breathe, unless you do this with me.♥

Wow, I haven't written on this in forever, I can't believe it's a new year. I hope 2010 is MUCH better than 2009 was. I just feel like ranting about some things I'll never forget from 2009- the good things anyway. So .... the lil' wayne concert, seeing my sister graduate high school, our ridiculously crazy new jersey trip, rodney atkins concert, smoking for the first time, michigan!, starting to talk to evan and beginning a relationship with him:), ball!, WEEKENDERS<3, my drunken nights with my bestfriends:), KANAE- i miss you! :(, GOING ALMOST UNDEFEATED THIS SOCCER SEASON<333, starting every varsity game in soccer:), lettering in my first sport ever, my sister's grad party<3333333 ohh boy, lexy&the cliffs:(<3, and all the bonfires, parties, and crazyy nights in between. :) I'm so happy with my life right now. I have a wonderful, supportive family. I have the most amazing best friends I could even imagine having. And I have a boyfriend who cares about me and loves me. What more could I need in my life? My new years resolution is to go further this soccer season than we have gone the past two years, I definitely believe we can do it. I'm such a happy person, life couldn't be better right now. :) Hopefully i'll keep updating this every once in awhile. Tonight is the secret santa party and I have to go get ready for thatt, seeeeeyuh! :) i hadn't told you yet, but i thought i loved you then. ♥

Today was quite a good day. I had school which sucked, but Lexii and Ashley came home with me because we had soccer practice at five. Tammy stopped by for a minute and i got to see gavin! :) Then we had soccer which was fun cause all we did was warm up, then scrimmage with the boys. After soccer Ashley and I went running. It wasn't really a long run, only about two miles, but with how out of shape I am it like killed me, but i feel really good now:) I really am excited to start getting in shape. I shall not die in preseason (or at least not as bad as last year, lol) But I don't think i'm going to Michigan anymore, cause i dont think i'll be able to get enough money in timee. I'm so excited for schoool to get out! :) I started my japanese final today and out of 123 questions I didn't know 18. Which if i left it like that it would be like an 85 if I didn't get to fill in the rest, but I do tomorrow:) I'm just really nervous about the rest of the finalsss ah! Especially history, but whatever. I hate finallls. I can't help it if you look like an angel ♥

Wow, I need to stop skipping like entire weeks at a time :p Although last week really was uneventful. We had a baseball game on Thursday and won that so we were in the district finals on saturday and we lost :( But at both of those games I had a super lot of fun with the other managers, aha. I love being a baseball manager, it's so much fun! :) Friday night I went to Colton's sister's game and hung out with him, Nolyn, and Jaz. It was really fun. We took a nice walk and just chilled:) I love hanging out with them. Me and Jaz decided we're gonna start double-dating, ahah. How exciting! But after that we went to the ice cream place and I got mac and cheeese:) Then Colton and I went back to his house. It was quite fun. We watched bedtime storiesss:) Which was good from what I watched, but most of the time I drew Colton a picture :p Then on Saturday I had that baseball game to go to and after that my sister picked me up and we went up to my mom's. I wanted lyss to come over and my sister was even going to give her a ride, but her mom was being shitty:( Whatever, aha. It was still quite decent. And I got to babysit Pierce for a lil bit:) I loove him! aha. Then on Sunday my sister came up to my mom's to pick me up and nothing eventful happened on Sunday. There's only like a week of school left and I'm so stressed about finals, I just want summer to come! I'm absolutley stoked. I guess on June 22nd-29th I may be going to Michigan with my sister because her boyfriend's mom lives there. I just need to get like three hundred dollars by then :p I'm hoping I can get it! 'Cause I really want a vacation, plus I get to do tons of neat stuff. Aha neat is a great word:) Colton and I have been great:) We haven't really argued lately which is great. I really wish I could hang out with him and his friends more and get to know them more and just have fun with them, but he thinks I wouldn't enjoy it so he doesn't even want me to comee, whatever. I'll deal with it, I reallly love him! In three days it'll be our 2 years & 2 months, wowww. Butttt, I need to go study for my Japanese final :( So i'll try to stop slacking on this! I just feel complete when you're by my side ♥

So Saturday I went to my cousin's garage sale and hung out there. I was pretty upset because Chenay wasn't there so it was just Melinda, Breanna, and I, but Melinda had to go to a party a couple hours after I got there so Breanna and I hung out. We went to some pond to catch tadpoles and it was really fun, but we saw a watersnake, so we left. Then we went back to her house and tried to watch a movie and fell asleep for like three hours. After that I just hung out with the drunk adults and laughed at how ridiculous they are. After I got home, I went to Tammy's with Ashley and stayed there for the night. We babysat Gavin, and Tammy made us really good stuffed shells:) Gavin has gotten soo much bigger and he's soo adorable, i love babysitting him:) Plus he was being really good and he barely cried. On Sunday, we woke up and watched A Cinderella Story, Matilda, Little Man, then Matilda again, ahah. Then Ashley brought me home and I hung out here til like 5, then I went to Colton's. We didn't really do anything too relevant, but I had a lot of fun, I always have fun with him:) Things have been getting better and I hope they stay like that. I just am the most jealous person ever. Like, I even get upset when he's just texting another girl, I'm just seriously soo paranoid he's going to leave me for another girl. It worries me soo bad! But anyway, I got home at like 11 and Lexy was here when I got here so we hung out all night and she stayed here, I had a lot of fun:) Then on Monday (yesterday), Lexy and I got up and got ready and went to some Memorial service with my grandma. It was really quite boring, but there were a lot of cute old people:) and Jon Purdy! ahah he's great. Then we went back to my house and Lexy left. Then I got ready and went to Colton's. We jumped on his trampoline with his sister's which was pretty fun :p Then we left and went to Wyalusing for his sisters' game, that was also fun. Colton's so cute, I love him soo much :) I wish we spent more time together, but I'll live! Aha. Today I was supposed to get out at 1 for baseball, but the stupid game got postponed until Thursday, which blows big dick. It's whatever, I'm kind of excited/nervous. I hope we win:) School sucked today and I'm really stressed because: 1. I have two projects due on Thursday. 2. I'm really stressin' about my art final because i'm nervous that i'm doing it wrong. 3. finals are really soon and i'm going to absolutely bomb all of them besides japanese and algebra two. And finallly! I get to go to the doctors tomorrow to see what the test results from my uppper GI scan were. I'm extremely nervous. :/ Hopefully they can fix me now, and I won't be so unhealthy all the time. if you leave, I hope you need to come back ♥

So, I kinda slacked on writing kinda bad this past week =p and the worst part is I wasn't even busy, so I should have been writing, but oh well. Ah.. So Colton and I have been arguing a lot. I start too much with him, and I know most of our arguments are my fault, but I just like to let him know how I feel when I feel that way, but anyway. He went and stayed up at states with Melinda and Cassie for two nights at Melinda's aunt's house. Now I know I shouldn't tell him what he can and can't do.. but that's a little bit far. I know he's just friends with them and he loves me and blahblah whatever, but still. He really doesn't understand how awful that makes me feel, I know if I went and stayed with some of my guy friends he really wouldn't be too impressed. So, I am really quite pissed about that even though he's on his way home right now. I think it's quite ridiculous. And he told me that he'll be doing such things over the summer. He better not make a habit of it. I really wish he understood how this made me feel, maybe then he wouldn't be so for it... whatever So last night was quite fun, Terra Tifany and I went out to eat then we came back here and hung out. Then we decided to go down to the dandy. So i call kody to see where he is and he was at the dandy which was quite exciting so we ran in and hung out with him and casey for awhile. then kody left, eventually casey left. Then we found Kyle Reider, Evan Schoonover, and Tyler Corder.. and Tifany and Terra wanted to buy some weed off them. And I was like ya'll are crazy, I absolutely can't get caught doing that stuff again, so then they were going to buy some and smoke it sometime without me..which i was completely ok with (even though it kinda sucks, but its for the better) and so kyle's like text me in a little bit. So then Matt Silvers came and Him and I had a nice long talk, I've missed him quite a bit :) I really hope him and Kyrstin get back together. Then my grandma came down to pick us up which sucked cause tif and ter couldn't get there stuff, but oh well:) then we just hung out for awhile. I'm loving how nice the weather has been lately! I hate how ridiculous the dress codes at school are getting, people with long legs/arms can't really allways buy shorts long enough that their finger tips are shorter. Being short I have quite the advantage, but still. Mrs.Olsen was being a cunt yesterday and was giving taylor madden and I hell about it... I was like.. you're a school nurse, this is not your concern, go to the nurses office and take care of ill children and mind your business:) I'm really worried about my sister, she hooks up with too many guys. I honestly am soo afraid she's going to either get pregnant or get an STD. A lot of the guys she's been hanging out with she doesn't even really know. One of the guys she's been hanging out with already has a kid.. and he drinks beer more than he breathes air.. I'm extremely worried. When I told her this she basically blew me off likeI was an idiot for worrying. She thinks it won't happen to her. I wish she'd be a little more intelligent when it comes to that kind of stuff. So basically, I absolutely cannot wait until summer. It's alllmost here! :) Less than three weeks 'til we're out of school :D life with you makes perfect sense, you're my best friend ♥

Well this weekend was actually quite fun. Friday night me lex and terra went down to get my nails done after school and colton came with us :) then he left and me lex and terra went to my house. Then we went to chinese and met up with ashley, tiffany, nate, and mike and ate there. then tiffany terra lex and I went to terra's and we had a fun night. we played ddr, made mac and cheese, chilled outside for a bit, watched some fcked up video, and yeah. it was fun. then on saturday i went home and got a shower and napped then my sister came to pick me up and we went up to my mom's. then sister and i went to vestal and bought apples to apples (now i dont have to borrow everyone elses :D) and went to pizza hut. my sister tried to give her number to this hottie that worked there. the wrong guy got it. he was forty. he's a creep and he's been texting her. ahaha it's hilarious. but then we went back to the house and mother,sister, and i played apples to apples for a couple hours then me and my sister just chilled til like four in the morning. i didn't really do anything worth mentioning today. i'm glad colton's back in serrvice. i don't want to go to school tomorrow. :( but if i don't have a game then i'm going with colton to his sisters' game. :) which is exciting cause i really want to chill with him. I really want to finish Ashley's scrapbook within the next week but both of my printers are being nazis and it's making me reallly mad. Cj's birthday is tomorrrow, he'll be seventeeen. Wow :) aha, happpy birthday dear! In biology on Friday we dissected crawfish. they smelled absolutely repulsive. It was quite disgusting. Me and mackenzie didn't even follow the lab, we basically just destroyed it. :) My teeth are still sore from the orthodontist on Thursday. I just wish I could get my damn braces offff, ugh. and afteralll, you're my wonderwall ♥

My orthodontist appointment went well, but the bitch pinched my lip and made it bleed. It really hurtt. KRIS ALLEN MADE IT INTO THE AMERICAN IDOL FINALE (loveeee) :D I had so much fun with Alysssa! We sucked helium out of balloons and sang and recorded it :p It was absolutely hilarious. I loved it. I am really excited for this weekend! Even though I don't get to see or talk to Colton at all I'm going to have a great weekend. Tomorrow after school Terra and Lexy are coming with me to get my nails done, then we're going to come up here for a bit, then go to chinese with ashley and tiffany, then we're going to terra's for the night. It should be a crazyy fkn night. :) Ah! Then saturday morning Graham is coming to visit. I'm really excited, I miss him quite bad. This weekend is supposed to be my mom's weekend, but i'm going to lie to my grandma and tell her i have tag day on saturday so i can hang out with graham. Then i'll go to my mom's late saturday evening :) and alyssa is hopefully staying there too. It should be a good time :) I miss Schuyler a lot, He needs to move back here. I miss hanging out with him and stuff. It sucks a lot. So, my jealousy is pretty much gone for now. I guess I was just lacking sleep and was in a very irritable mood yesterday and that didn't help at all, but I guess it's better now. Although i'm not feeling so good about our relationship. Idk like, I am absolutely in love with him, but honestly, I feel like I'm not making him happy at all, ever. He really doesn't act happy when he's around me. He only acts happy usually when he's with his friends. It seems he'd rather be around them than me. I feel horrible. Like, i'm glad that he's happy when he's with his friends, but I never used to feel like this. And if I try to talk to him about this he insists that I make him happy, he just doesn't understand. He has changed a lot and he doesn't really act like he's in love with me anymore, I'm really scared.. I absolutely do not want to loose him, ever.. you're the closest to heaven that i'll ever be, and i don't want to go home right now. ♥

I'm probably going to have a lot to vent about in this entry, so bear with me :p So the field trip was really fun yesterday. We met a lot of random people and idk it was just a really good time. :) Except at the baseball game I was pretty much the only one out of my friends that actually wanted to pay attention. We met these random guys but they were boring so I left the people I was with and went inside and sat with jaz, nolyn, taylor madden, nick, mike, taylor, adam, trevor, and taylor shay and it was such a good time. we screamed and sang and danced the entire time. and i had a really amazing foam finger :D aha. we had such a good time. I loved it. Today was really boring and I was soo tired. I seriously woke up like 15 minutes before I had to leave for school. Keith Urban's music is deeeep :) I got really upset today because idk. I get really jealous too easily. Like, the first year and a half Colton and I were together my jealousy was really bad. But after that it got better I basically got used to it and it didn't bother me at all, but for some reason today I got really upset and like.. he was with Melinda and i wanted to like, die. I felt completely horrible, but I didn't talk to him about it because I feel really bad. Like, I don't want him to think he can't hang out with her or something. It's his life.. he can do what he wants. I just don't want to lose him at all, I really do love him a lot.. The worst part about that though is the fact that I feel like I need someone to talk to about it, but literally none of my close friends have experienced it. None of them have even had relationships more than like 3 months and it was nothing serious. So I don't really know who to go to, so I went to Sarah. I think it was a good idea because she made me feel a lot better. And she's really good friends with Colton and Melinda. And at first I was really scared she'd tell Melinda or something, but I don't think she's going to. I was very glad i went to her about it :) On a better note, I am missing school tomorrow to go to the orthodontist and I get to spend my entire day with Lyss. I'm really excited, I've missed her soo much! But i'm not excited to sit in the car forever. I get car sick soo easily. :( I absolutely hate it. I reaally want to go camping. Like, super bad. I haven't been camping in like three years. I want to go! :( Anyway, when Kyrstin and Ashley stayed with me two nights ago or whatever (the night before the trip) Kyrstin was being completely normal, and we had a good time and shit. But the next day on the field trip she was a complete asshole to me and Ashley. She completely ignored us and hung out with the guys the entire day. Then today I believe she said a total of 10 words to me within the 5 periods we have together, what the fuck? And she has been being really bitchy to Dean as well, she like didn't talk to him at all today either. I'm like really confused and pissed. Only seventeen more days of school! HELLLL YES :) I'm really sad that I'm not going to be able to talk to Colton at all the entire weekend, I'm going to like.. die. Fuck no service. :( Ah! I'm excited to get my nails done, I think tiffany and terra are going with me, then we'll probably do something that night. and I think i'll invite Lexy to hang out with us too, because it's been like two weeks since we hung out :( It really sucks! Oh, unless she's still grounded :/ I'm really excited for soccer. And cheerleading. I miss both of them a lot. I'm going to miss the seniors in soccer though. And we're definitely going to suck this year, but it's whatever. We'llll have fun. :) I'm really excited for american idol tonight. I actually think Kris has a chance of making it to the final two. I kinda think Danny is going home. Which is sad, but he should of performed better the past two weeks. Adam is definitely going to win, but I'll be sooo ecstatic if Kris makes it to the top two :D ah! Well I think I made this long enough now :P you are the earth beneath my feet, you are my gravity. ♥

We dissected grasshoppers today. It smelled really bad. I hope I get to hang out with Alyssa this weekend, I really miss her. We have a field trip tomorrow and I'm quite excited. Ashley and Kyrstin are coming over tonight. I wish they'd hurry up and get here. I'm sad that I have to miss American Idol tomorrow night. Colton isn't feeling well and I feel really bad. It's to the point where he can't even text, poor kid. I hope he feels better. Fish sticks are disgusting. Matt Silvers was randomly texting me today. It was super weird. And what made it most weird is that he gave me this huge speech about how he thinks Colton and I have true love and how everytime he's around us all he sees is nothing but smiles. Haa, he's a freak. 'cause you are the brightest star, and i'm in love with who you are. ♥

It's mother's day! I'm very sad I can't go see my mom. I wanted to reall bad and I made her a kick ass card but my sister won't take me up. I'm excited for Tuesday! It's the semi-finals of American Idol. Theres three left- Danny, Adam, and Kris. I'm in love with Kris. he's gorgeous as hell. But adam and danny are both better singers than him. I'm so stoked :) I'm supposed to be with Colton right now at a basketball tournament, I really really wish I was there. Instead I'm stuck here. And I have to go out to eat with my grandma, uncle paul,and his woman today. Laaame! Doreen is doing my nails on Friday and I'm excited. But i'm quite sad because I don't get to hang out with Colton at all this weekend cause he's going camping, the worst part of all is that he doesnt have fcking service. At all. Holy hell, somebody kill me. We have a field trip on Tuesday andd I'm quite excited. I'm getting so sick of school. 30 days til schools out, hallelujah. EDIT! i went out to eat with my grandma, uncle paul, and his woman. it wasn't nearly as bad as expected. i actually had a nice time. and i saw two people that i was extremely excited to see! I saw schuyler whom I haven't seen in nearly two months. and I saw Dustin Linaberry that I haven't seen in probly at least five months. I had a nice talk with both of them and it was nice to see them, ha. When i got home I worked on ashley's scrapbook a bit. i'm really excited to finish it! also, Lyss called me alittle bit ago. I was glad to hear from her. I miss her a lot. we're probably gonnna hang out soon. plus we have an orthodontist appt on thursday together. so i'll see her then, fcking stoked! Well that's all for today. I'm gonna go work on stuff for ashley's scrapbook and take a shower 'n stufff. this heart, it beats, beats for only you. ♥

Wow, I completely forgot about this thing! There is so much I need to update on. Colton and I are still together. It's been two years, one month, and a couple days. I am happier than ever. We have so much fun together and we're so freaking close, I love him :) Back in February I got myself into some trouble. Which, yeah I'm really stupid for doing it, but I don't think I regret it.. because I definitely learned my lesson! As for school, I have exactly one more month of my freshman year. It went by super fast. And it's kinda scary thinking that I only have three more years. I don't want to grow up! Anywayyy, back in August I had some health problems and I had to go to the doctors. Well they found out I was anemic and gave me some stomach pills and protein supplements. Well things started to get better so I never went back. Well a couple weeks ago suddenly things got reallly bad and I didn't consume anything other than water for four days. I had to get a bunch of tests and stuff at the hospital and they still haven't given me results. I'm nervous, but these pills I'm on have been helping my appetite. I'm tooo young to have all of these health problems :( I'm really excited for soccer! I miss it a lot. I also miss cheerleading. I'm not really doing a sport right now. I'm a baseball manager, it's not really a sport, but it is fun. I love hanging out with the other managers, it's a goood time :) I've been spending every other weekend at my mom's and I really do miss her more than I realized. She's so chill and easy to talk to. I honestly tell her like everything now, we've gotten really close. She apologized for abondoning me and she allways is telling me how much she wished i lived there. I swear i'll move in if anything ever happens to Colton and I. He's the only reason I enjoy this stupid town. I guess the last thing I have to talk about is my sister. I honestly can't stand her anymore. She's dating this kid named Dustin that she has been with for over a year, but she's slept with two other guys. One of which she's been staying with every weekend. Let me add, she barely knows either of these kids. And the one she's been staying with has a kid with some girl and he drinks a lot of alcohol. I'm so concerned about her. She's going to get pregnant or get an STD or just really fuck her life up. Plus, I've been having money go missing lately. I'm ninety-nine percent sure she stole it, but there's not way to proove it. I mean, I had to keep it in my grandma's purse and it turns up missing from there. Who else coulda taken it? It doesn't just walk away. It's bullshit, I'm worried. I guesss that's all for now. After not updating for over a year theres quite a bit to talk about. I could probably think of more but i'll just start writing more often :) you make me smiiile ♥

Tomorrow needs to get here. Lauren is coming over and i think we're going to Kody's house with him and Colton. wooooooot. im so excited :) yeah so, we had our eleven months. we didn't hang out or anything. but i did get a new phone :D yeahhhh! terra came over on Tuesday. she stayed from after school til around 7. we made youtube videos. one is hxc screamo the other is bowling for soup. they're entertaining :D! we also made a dance one to some playlist i made, and it was amazing, but youtube said it was too long to upload :( yesterday i went to colton's sister's game and we hung out for like an hour. it was fun. it's always fun when i'm with him :) he's super. todaay was extremely boring. i was tired all day. when i got home i watched transformers then fell asleep. i woke up took a shower. ate. did my book project. now im watching american idol. wow. my feet are cold. my side itches. happy birthday kaitlin ! happy birthady lyss! you make me smile when you're not trying♥.

So, today i woke up at like twelve thirty in the afternoon 'cause i stayed up 'til like two this morning =P. i got a shower and stuff then kerstian, g, and i went to a bridal show. i came home and chilled then went to walmart with Kerstian and Cody and bought scrapbooking stuff :D! Lauren mightcome up on friday and go to Colton's with me :) that would be super tightttttt. i miss her incredibly way lots. we're going to start dieting together :D so after today im gonna start writing what i eat on here everytime i update. kerstian and cody have been talking about getting a house and stuff since cody is twenty and kerstian only has one more year of school. when they get a house i might move in with them even though i'll still be in school. i'm kindof excited. i want kerstian to have a baby :D you make everything better♥.

sorry i haven't been updating. nothing has reallly happened too good. the only things really worth mentioning are well me and colton's mom are going to sit down and have a serious talk sometime. i'm pretty excited at the same time i'm really nervous. i guesss a good word would be anxious. thursday-i went to kaitlin's (colton's sister) basketball game. kody came. we all hung out. i got mad at colton and sat in the bathroom with his sister taylor for like twenty minutes. she's fun=). but we made up, thank goodness. Yesterday- after school i went to colton's house. on the way we got pizza. we attempted watching juno, but only watched one-third. we played dogs :) and hung out. i love him! today- i was pretty bummed most of the day with no plans, but then colton's mom won fifty dollars on a lottery ticket. so they picked me up and we went to Bonanza and the movies. We saw The Spiderwick Chronicles, i thought i was like not going to understand it, but it was a really good movie :) wow. colton and i are a lot better lately :) he always cheers me up, and he's so wonderful to me! in three days it'll be eleven months! i have to make us new bracelets :D! holy smokes, our one yr is coming up quickly. we're making eachother a list of 100 memories in the past year. i started mine tonight, i've got thirty-two so far. :) i'm excited. you're the reason i wake up every morning ♥.

Valentines Day =) i wore pigtails today. everyone thought they were hot. woot! well. tuesday we had pssas which were lame. then we had an early dismissal because of snow. then yesterday we had a snow day. i layed in bed with my sister all day watching shows about having babies on tlc, twas fun =) then around five thirty i went to the YMCA with tiffany and ashley. Taylor Finlan and Marrisa were there. Riley showed up too. it was pretty fun, although i suck at basketball. but mr.brown owned me in knockout haha. then we colored pictures for mr.brown. :D today was a prettty decent day actually. tomorrow we finish pssas. mr.lentz has the smartest brain ever. he's my hero. i can't wait for this weekend. my boyfriend is a cool person =). and afterall, you're my wonderwall♥.

wow, my weekend was good. Friday i went to colton's. we had a blast like usual ;]. haha. saturday was wonderful as well. i went to a basketball game with my ladies. i saw devon chaffe..which i haven't seen in forever :)! he asked for a hug and gave me his number, it made my night, ahaaaa. then my bestests, tiffany and terra came home and stayed with me. the stuff that happened is not to leave my house. it was exotic, and they are definitely my bestfriends! VAJAYJAYWAVE :D! how do you like my pussy? :P we stayed up 'til four in the morning, it was a party :P. sunday was pretty good as well.. terra and tiff stayed all day. we we're kittens. lmao. we took a lot of insane pictures.haha wow. they are the best. after they left i did pretty much nothing. this weekend should be good. friday colton and i are hopefully going to see meet the spartans. other kids might go, too. saturday i'm going to the mall/olive garden with colton's family for his dad's birthday/valentine's day. =) i'm very excited. depending on what time we go maybe i'll have someone stay with me on friday. who knows =)! goodness school was a drag today. the only good thing was seeing my loser boyfriend, whom got detention, lmao. anyway, PSSA's tomorrow which completely ruins my weeeek. colton and i are swell. things haven't been the same, but i just don't want to lose him. we can get through this, we always do! 'cause i built you a home in my heart♥.

today was good! colton wasn't in school again today, but he's going tomorrow! and guess what? im not going to be there. i have an orthodontist appointment. (gay) i think im just going to get silver braces again, but i'm not sure. hm. so. i love lauren. and i cannot wait until march, but as for corey.. he needs to stop treating her like garbage! I'm not going to watch american idol tonight. im just going to read a little bit, and eat coooookie crisp! but i am definitely not missing the moment of truth =). i lovelovelove that show. aaha. i got a ninety-seven on a science test and an eighty-three on a history test..when usuallly i get like hundreds and ninetys..but it was gay because the shit wasn't on the studyguide. ohh well it's just one bad grade i guess. supa excited for friday, come now! my heart is yours♥.