HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!!! alright well im doing alot better. it was good to get out of the house on Friday with jenna. mission impossible III was pretty good. Saturday I had tech, it was so long and tidious. later that afternoon, rob called me to let me know he was coming around 7:30 to take me to emily's house. he came at 7:47 and dropped off food from the bakery for my parents. I gave him back his OLD NAVY hoodie and a gave him a mother's day card for his mom. the car ride was really funny, he told me about jeff's house the other night and we were singing along to Blink 182. He kept missing Emily's street and wouldnt let me tell him where it was casue he said he remembered. Not he didnt. We finally got there. The party was fun, i was kinda out of it. Rob was nice and everything, he kicked Brad for hurting my knee. He whispered to me while we were on the couch, "ill always still care about you, remember that." that was very reassuring and then we went in the hot tub, my knee felt funny so i got out and hung out with meg. shortly afterwards me and rob went home. he opened the door for me, i asked him if he wanted to come in and talk but he said that he had to be heading home. I teared up a little bit and i basically said that i still love you and dont understand how he can be so ok with this. He said it was because he was the one who made this decision, not me. I asked him if he thought we would ever go back out, he started to shake his head no and said i just dont know. I breathed and asked if i could give him a hug good bye. he accepted. I looked at him and backed away saying "i still think of you as...never mind" he shook his head as if he understand and said that he would call me tomorrow. i didnt go to mass today because my throat was really bugging me, mom understood and asked if i wanted any chocolate. I declined. I just finished writing my community service paper. I think that once I get through this week I will be better. I havent cried today, i only teared up yesterday. it'll get better. *But you cant's jump the track, we're like cars on a cable, And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table No one can find the rewind button now Sing it if you understand. and breathe, just breathe woah breathe, just breathe, Oh breathe, just breathe, Oh breathe, just breahte*