i want to remember this moment forever. i know what everyone else is going to say but i also know that i was drowning and i feel like i've finally surfaced. there are things that hurt intensely and almost make me not want to do it but the truth is that everything all the drama all the anger all the throbbing pain went away today. and i'll have to hide you away and be careful not to step on you be sure that i'm okay with it and that we won't hurt again but as long as we can share words and truths, and memories, and all the hard stuff... i'll try. but as for you, jonathon safran foer: all i can do is quote you for you said it best yourself... (you have ghosts?) (of course i have ghosts.) (what are your ghosts like?) (they are on the insides of the lids of my eyes.) (this is also where my ghosts reside.) (you have ghosts?) (of course i have ghosts.) (but you are a child.) (i am not a child.) (but you have not known love.) (these are my ghosts, the spaces amid love.)