OMG it's been a while since I last wrote on this GLORIOUS website! Well I finished uni ages ago, so I can't blame it on that, basically Sitdiary you just didn't do enough to stay in my memory! There's room for improvement - maybe surprise your partner with a sexy bath ;) ANYWAY, since the last time I wrote on this blog, I've finished my first year of uni and am waiting for my results! As long as I pass, all is good :D ... Also me and Dakky totally merked job finder statistics and found a job at Nandos, like after a week and a bit of being back home! Ow YEaAaAhHHh we have skillz!!! I'm in my second week now and she's in her third! She works an awful lot of hours bless her, but she's enjoying it just like I am. I mean SERIOUSLY, compared to Sainsburys (where you get treated like a robot) Nandos is just a really nice place to work, and people there are really nice! I kinda thought at first that I just didn't like working, but now I've realised it was just Sainsburys...so yeah, deal with that Sainsburys! People, people, if you read this you should tell your friends how they treat people like robots! :P naa to be fair they gave me a jobby job, but it just wasn't the right job for moi. Ahh Dakky, I wonder when you'll read this. Hmm I don't think I'm gonna tell you about it and just see how long it takes :P get a few bets going and such; like it's wimp picking in Shawshank Redemption or something xD ... Me and you are about to hit 78 weeks, on the same day we'll hit 18 months :) think we should have a rave or something :D ... Just wanted to say how much you mean to me and how much I love you. It's hard to though, I just love you so SO so SO so SO so SO much :3 and I will spend the rest of my life proving it to you (: But yeah here's to you Dakky, because you're just the full package. You're super sweet and gorgeous and the greatest person I've ever met. Just thought you needed to know... I love you :)!!! Bambi out! xXxXxXxXxXOoOoOoOo

University of Cumbria! By far the best university in England! Our English class just finished our first year's worth of lectures and it really has gone by quite fast! I've really enjoyed uni life and making new friends throughout this year, as well as being with Dakky throughout all of it as well. It's like I've been at two campuses! We had a great send off last night and I'm still recovering from it now to be honest: all I'm saying is that peppermint tea has some sort of revival kit inside it... Almost got kissed by Danny, but I jolted outta the way because I have a sexy girlfriend, otherwise I think I'd have turned gay by the time the night was over (including the fact Adan was there!). Including that question of straitness, we were right next to the speakers, beer and alcohol was swishing everywhere, a drag queen was up DJing, and my cheeseburger had no salad (:() but was delicious (:D). Loving the weather and it feels like summer is getting closer and closer! For the summer I'm gonna have to break the barrier of not working for two years and try to find a summer job, whooop! Just saying, this old chessnut might work at Sainsbury's because they loooove me! But all of that work is going to be worth it if it means I get a car, as I've missed driving since my last motor; easily identified by a HUGE dent in the side and loosing £1500 of it's value by the time I sold it...yeah, I bought it for £1600 :P ... It's fine because my next car might well be a Mercedes :o But looking forward now to heading back home for Easter holidays! It's been the longest amount of time away from home, and it's just nice having loads of food, Virgin (the TV, not a pimp's gift) and seeing family and friends! Hearing about rowing is not so muchly anticipated :P Daaaaaaaaaaaakky, our Orange Wednesday date is on the 20th! Can't wait to see you in those fit jeans! Lots of love, Bambi!! xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox

Dakky is a punk. Plain and simple! I'm talking them good punks, not those twatty ones... ...she's also a rockchick and a soulful diva, and a funky monk, and if my text message is correct... ...SMOOTH AS FECK :D Dakkybabe for the win! xX

Okay so, because I haven't given up alcohol for lent, I've now been dropped from this pedestal that I had going on, and now just lowered down to average guy - it seems.. I know you love me but why would say "you're a bit too hesitant for me". I was thinking about it and yes I was hesitant but I'm not always. And it sounded like you'd made a mistake with me. You know me more than anyone else, and I know you more than anyone else. I love what I see and what I know, I just hope that you do too and you were just tired yesterday, or bummed about me not giving up alcohol as a whole. Anyway, rant over, gonna get some breakfast and then work on the rest of my essay. xX

Hey Bambi In light of the last post, I thought I should update, because I don't like what it says, it makes you look like a bad boyfriend, and you're anything but. I just want to say that I absolutely loved the past two weeks and spending time with you has been great, it is always great. You're the most amazing person I know Ant, and even though we had a bit of a rough patch, we're only human, you need to know that there is nothing I wouldn't do for you. You make me feel so special, and I can't explain proud I am to have you as my boyfriend, because you're not like all the other guys, you're like anyone at all actually, you see the world like nobody else and you continue to amaze me, you have such a beautiful soul... I loved you a year ago, I love you now and I will love you for always... with all my brain :)! You're my everything <3

I hope you're reading this, because there are a lot of things I need to say to you... First of all I feel like such a prick for what I said and did earlier, and I cannot believe the way I behaved and acted: it was shocking, childish, and 100% shit of me. Seriously, I'm being totally honest when I say it was all my doings, and I know you weren't the cause of any of it, and replaying the events in my mind make me sick. I have been the worst boyfriend and totally let you down. I can't deny that. The way I've acted has just simply been plain childish, and I seriously need to grow up.. You deserve the best, you really do. I haven't been that lately, but I truly believe we can be happy together, and share what has been so special since 01/01/2010. I forget sometimes just how amazing and wonderful you are, and you are so special that that should never occur to you in any instance: you are the best person I've ever met, let alone girl. You make me happy beyond anything I've ever experienced before, and I'm a twat for taking that very thing for granted. When we talked about fantasies yesterday, I never mentioned how you were and are my biggest fantasy of all time: You are the most beautiful girl these goofy eyes have ever laid eyes on. Don't ever forget that is the case. I'm going to let you know how truly lucky I am to know you, let alone have you. It's going to be like that from now on. I've learnt my lesson the hard way. You're kind, sweet, thoughtful, playful, lovely, gorgeous, smart, funny, fun, amazing, nommy, cute, sexy gorgeous, and I feel like the biggest loser for taking all those things for granted. I have been taking those things for granted, but no longer now: I've had horrible terrible thoughts about not being with you, and being able to hug you, and talk to you, and share our lives together - it's been unbearable. I need to see you again, I need to talk to you in person. At 3:00pm onwards I am going to be waiting at the pond that froze over last term, between your house and the bridge. I will be waiting there for as long as it takes, and if I don't see you there Monday, I'll be there on Tuesday from 3:00pm, and so on. Being in this situation, I realised how I take you for granted, and how I've been a jerk, and how you deserve much better than what I've been like. I just hope more than anything that you meet me tomorrow. I love you more than anything in the world, and I can't bare my life without you in it. Anthony Vaccaro xX

Dear Dakky This is just to say nighty night to you and hope you're currently having a super nommy sleep filled with coziness! I was and still am in two minds about whether to phone you, but I wouldn't want to wake you, so this is my other option. CONGRATULATIONS about hitting a great goal yesterday; I knew you could do it, and will pull it off for many weeks to come. Really proud of what you're doing, and I'll be supporting you all the way. I love you loads and loads Dakkybabe, and can't wait to see you on the weekend: just a matter of counting down the days now, and crossing them off with o so lovely pink highlighter marker :P ... To be able to spend Valentine's Day with you is a dream come true this year, seeing as it was difficult last year, even though I'll always cherish our indie Valentine's Day :) I love how we are only 45 minutes away from each other and will be for a long time! You're always near, and I'm always near, and we're always there for each other. The reason why I chose this uni was because of you, my soulmate Sleep tight my lovely Love Bambi xXoOxXoOxXXxOoXxOoXx xoOXxoOXxoOXxoOXxoOXxoOXxoOXxoOXxoOX OXxoOXxoOXxoOXxoOXxoOXxoOXxoOXxoOXxoOX

This is my electronic note to you, your room seems absent of one I should have placed, Just to say that I love you, I need you, and I love being with you, My life now has great meaning, which will keep going forever And ever. You're my lobster, my soulmate, my life; Many variations, applicable to only one person; Ana Filipa Guerra de Almeida. xX - Had to eat some cereal and drink some coffee before I phoned the taxi to take me back. I got sidetracked, but I left you a note in your room as long as you read this in your room! :D See Bambi never forgets! Just like an elephant who keeps ritual sequences when (s)he plays Dr Kowashima's Brain Training! - But yeah, managed to get my dead body back to my flat (this is SERIOUSLY a joke, I won't even steal muffins..) and unpacked everything. Kitchen has a musty beer smell, but that might actually just be someone's colone: it's likely my flatmates would use gravy as aftershave...just saying... :P ... But yeah, been banging tunes out on my epic bass Mercutio, while Romeo looks on...LY Romeo! - About to get some canteen food for the first time this year, and then sort out my house for next year (probably)... Peace out!! Ow, and love ya Damiie ;) xX

Ow yes, I've managed to write one Sitdiary entry before Damiie. It's a mighty achievement; simply me using her name will help me get some more views, what can I say it's all good :P And I'm now feeling changed, as I now really just couldn't be fagged to do an English essay by Friday... UoC is a bit simple sometimes by cramming essays all at the end of a term, but ho hum, I guess I'll be doing some more cramming tomorrow: makes me smile as to how I'm leaving work later and later with every essay, after all I've said about cracking it out early... BAHHH! BE GONE STOOPID ESSAY!!! And yes, you eyes do not deceive you, I really am part of the emo-tit-wank crowd... Music anyone?!?! xD Going to Tania's later! Should be a funky gathering, and just what I need after my house being the scene of a horror film: dark and empty, with a zombie dog staggering around weirdly..! But did receive an amazing bass yesterday! Fender Precision Bass, but more importantly he's called Mercutio, and is a sexy cherry red colour. Mmm... :D Recording for the first time ever tomorrow, and I must say I'm really looking forward to it! Definitely made better with Mercutio! Ahh, recording our first song!.. Going back to Lancaster/Carlisle on Saturday, but really just looking forward to being together up there with Dakkybabe :] It's been a really nice Christmas - one of my favourites ever - but it'll be nice going back with Dakky and hanging out with the coolest and funkiest girl alive! She's my family and when I'm with her it feels like home. Might even surprise the family with some tattoos eventually! AFGA<3 :D!!! Nawwh will miss everyone here, but I'll be back down for Easter. Bring on the next term!! But the greatest memory this holiday was me and Ana Almeida having our one year anniversary together, and it was amazing :] Just remember how for most of the day it wasn't gonna happen, but in the end we had it together, just me and her, and I loved every minute of it! We even kissed for 2 minutes (that's NOT our record by the way!) so that we ended the year with a kiss, and started with a kiss too!! We cooked a killer-ass meal together, and it was just like how it would be when we're living together. That was the greatest thought. I love you AFGdA <3 xX Right, gonna get ready for this evening, and I'll focus more on this essay tomorrow... DEFFO have the fear by then :P Peace! xX

Firstly, the box isn't actually lying. I've managed to find some of their songs, and am now their biggest fan from outta Scotland! My most unknown band! Anyhoo, as I'm writing this, I'm talking to Dakkybabe on Skype, and we're discussing facebook revival. Just for the record, I can quit it, and live without it; the only reason I'll get it back is because of Ana Almeida... Right, lets talk about her now: she's tall, got gorgeous brown hair (red currently), and the most sparkly brown eyes ever - which I can gaze at for ages and get lost in them. When I look into them, I remember all the great times we've had together, and all the great times we're gonna have together still. What can I say, she's my soulmate; the one person I'll share everything and anything with. I love her to bits. Just looking back at all the episodes we've had as well, and the month anniversaries we've shared, makes me smile! We had a 10 hour conversation on the phone one time (normally averaging 2-3 hours), and I've never heard a longer one mentioned. We text like mad to each other; sending punctuated essays, and pissing off our networks :P ... Nawwh, we both use to be awkward around each other when we started going out: I didn't change in front of her for ages, and even slept in my clothes. On our third date, I pushed her to the ground in the snow...helped her up though ;P She's my favourite person. We just click when we're together. I wouldn't wanna spend my time with anyone else but her... Did I mention she's really, REALLY beautiful? Well, she is, and she's got a gorgeous smile, and gives the best huuuuuugs ever!! We both really love and trust each other: there will be arguments, but never an argument we don't work through. We know our love is intense, but we both wouldn't change it for the world :) ... I dare you to find a cuter couple! Just can't be done! Hah! Love you Ana Filipa Guerra de Almeida HAPPY 11 MONTHS!!! When you find someone as good as this, you keep them forever xX

Whoop!!! Just simply whoop! Hopefully if all goes well, I'll be spending Christmas with my lovely girlfriend :) ... I was also pushing Boxing day as well...time will tell! Hmm, my lappy's keys won't light up! What is going on with this beautiful machine :S Anyhoo, can't wait to see Dakkybabe again - it'll be on the Thursday, and I'm so gonna rush, pack the night before - so I can get there SO fast that time will go back and I'll have longer there! If not, I still have 4 days :P You're currently in your lecture now, lecturing it up no doubt, and this is lighter reading material for ya! Daaaaaaaakky, I just wanted to remind you how awesome you are, and how special you are to me. It's no exaggeration when I say you're my everything. I really look forward to seeing three people: best friend, girlfriend & soulmate - where others people would only see one. Happy 44 weeks (I counted and it's not 45; I thought that was you testing me :P) HAPPY 44 WEEKS!!! :) Every single one has been memorable, and I just wanted you to know this... ... I see you for you, and I'll never look away xxXxx xXx

Just written my first poem analysis on the blog, and I must now do at least one every week. It was hella cool seeing my name as the last person who wrote anything; and it wasn't as late as the other person who posted at 11...such a shame...I wanted to be the cool kid who did that! :P I think I was inspired to write on it after this guys comments about bondage and knifes in the bedroom. Yup, that would inspire anyone. Can't wait for our Halloween party, and I'm going as a mental patient/the Wheetos professor methinks! The combed back hair and strait jacket will deffo make me the talk of the party, and I get paid by Wheetos for advertising... Gonna make some spooky vodka jelly - which is basically black vodka. I might spare the idea of dead flies for now.. But yeah, can't wait to see Damiie as always :) And I miss her!! Knowing I've got a GREAT taste of rings makes me rest assured though...hmm, when to propose... (: xX

Nighty night Dakkybabe, sleep tight, love you :) ... Love staying on the phone until one of us falls asleep. I'd be lying if I said I didn't wish for me to be at the same uni as you.. Started university at Lancaster, and it's a pretty funky place: the weather is horrendous, and it's weird how the locals don't react - as if they'd get shunned from their society if they did..! But the campus is nice, and the SU, and my room-mates are alright. I'm gonna hopefully gain loads of experiences from this, and will definitely make the most out of it. There is just one thing... I miss Dakky!! She lights up my world, and I feel like half a person when I'm not with her. I'm gonna settle in here, and gain the most from work and social activities, but I've also gotta spend as much time as possible with my girlfriend! All the experiences I grasp, will never compare to the one I've been living in and loving for 37 weeks and 3 days <3 Love you loads Ana (: xXxOoOxXx

Finally got rid of the pressure that was camping in my skull! Such a relief, I can now hear the wonderful sounds the world pumps out; like that bird that just goes "Jodiete-ho, how ho hooo". Ahh yes, good times indeed! But this pressure came because I was ill on a plane flying home from Portugal, to England. Now I don't know about anyone else, but if you're ill on a plane, pressure is almost certain to make you feel like your head is gonna explode or something :P ... Ow yes, this happened to me: my forehead throbbed under the pressure, and I was seconds away from having my head explode, and eyes squelch out of my sockets like that playdough toy... ... If you don't believe me, your ghay but also correct! I'm telling you it felt like that - Dakky will verify! But yeah, just a week now until uni, and my Birthday is coming up, so must think of something funky and cool to do :D Finally, best luck Dakky with the workload, and I'm sure you'll make it!! :] xX

Portugal is certain now for at least 2 weeks! I seriously can't wait :) ... It's gonna be amazing; the weather is gonna give me that tan I'm always banging on about, but no one's been lucky enough to see yet :P , plus the scenery and beaches, and swimming, and just awesomeness! But all of this is made a thousand times better because I'm gonna spend it with Ana. It's like our first holiday abroad together (we have many holidays in the form of episodes), and the first of many more to come :) ... Looking forward to meeting the rest of her family, and seeing the places she grew up in. A wonderful way to spend the end of summer!! Love you loads Dakky (: xXx

Just something I thought I'd let you know: I LOOOOOOVE YOU XXXXXOOOOOXXXXX XXXXOOOOXXXX XXXOOOXXX XXOOXX XOX I know you like kisses in random order much more, so this is for you: xoXOoxoxOXoXOXOOXOXoxoXoXoOxXxxOoxOOXoxxOX XOOOXOXxoXoxOXOXOXxoXOXOxxOXOxoxoXOoxo XOoXOOXOoxXooXoOXOOXOXOxoOXoXooxoXOoXOOXoOXo

Typical dead relaxing Sunday afternoon. Ow how I much rather prefer Monday (you all might be shocked, but Monday is much more groovy and action-esque). Damn, this song is really good! :P But yeah, update on Uni; everything is pretty much sorted apart from silly Student Finance. Gonna feel good to study a subject I'm properly interested in. Ow yeah, and Training Day is such an awesome film, you should all watch it!.. Loving this Fat Les spoof of Bittersweet Symphony as well!.. Just chillin' here alone with the dog - even though she just acts snipered all the time. Ooo, and killed a giant spider earlier: if I filmed it, it would have been mistaken for Shiela's layer, or Aragog's forest (chosing both references because I just simply can't loose if I do!) I do appreciate there might be some spelling errors for the names. Damn fiction, and their surreal naming choices..! One last thing; Damiie has a MEGA painful tooth predicament, and that's not cool! If the tooth fairy exists, he/she (could well be gay) should comfortably take that tooth out later. But yeah Dakkybabe, you're a trooper, and so hope it gets better (: Can't wait to see ya on Tuesday! Vaccaro-Senna out! xX

I still feel the same way about you; just like I always have. Two days - even though they were great for me - would not change this all of a sudden. However if I look back, I can see why you feel the way you do... I never meant any of this. On Saturday, I wanted to be there. Of course I wanted to be there! I just couldn't stay. I love being with you, and it's just alarming as to how you sometimes don't think this is the case. And then in the night I was shaken as to how you wouldn't tell me what was wrong, as I'm there to help you out. I care about you much too much to just stand by! And I was silly to be disappointed that you weren't coming to see me on Sunday, because you were very busy. I was just looking forward to seeing you, that's all. Because of this, I thought that I should prepare myself not to see you for a while, and take care of things that needed to be done. Then you changed your mind, which is fair enough, but it was too late for me to see you, and then come back home... Instead, I could have spent the night around yours. It would have been amazing as always, and the last time until September. I simply didn't. I feel shit, as I'm sat here on my own, and you're not here with me - and it's my fault as to why I'm not with you. You said come over, but I thought it didn't seem serious. You said yes yesterday, then don't get your hopes up, then finally no, and then yes in the late afternoon. I just thought you needed some time alone, and was suggesting that I come over because you feel bad about not seeing me today. I still thought you were busy, and I would have been a distraction. That's why I chose to get the lift back - as I was driven up to Tilehurst, and stayed here. Plus, you were told to do more work around the house, and I would have slowed you down. For the record, I do care, and I can be bothered. You are still my everything, and this will never change. All I want for my birthday is you xX

Woah, it's been a while Sitdiary, so hello...how're you?? A few things have changed regarding my summer, which is really cool. Firstly, I FINALLY have a job - and yeah, you can call leafleting a job.. It gives me enough money to tie me over, but I'll still look for another one anyway. Now because of this job search, me and Dakkybabe are going to Portugal towards the end of August; so we can properly enjoy that glorious climate together! (: Me and Dakkybabe, aka Damiie (pronounced dam-i) have been together for a whole 5 months!! I can say easily, without no hesitation, that it's been the best 5 months of my life. She's something really special (NOT in a retarded way!). We've come along way; from the nice awkwardness of Episode 5, to the secret omelette making of this Episode 9 ;) In fact, if this entry was sent to me last year, I would have literally jaw-dropped! - not in a bad way though; it would have been kinda hard to believe - what with the whole hating/weird factor! Anyway :) Thorpe park in 6 days! Dakky's birthday in 7, and BBQ in 8! Already getting the prezzies :D Plus gotta choose a uni...I'm thinking...Cumbria is the most likely at the moment, but who knows... Gotta run, still helping Ray-man with his H/W Vaccaro-Senna out! xxXooOxxXooOxxX

I did get this from you, my lovely, but I thought it was a perfect metaphor! :) I just wanted to tell you how awesome Episode 8 was; so good, I missed you after being away for two hours... You are my everything, and I love you SO muuch... Gotta try and brave it and sleep in that single bed, like I did for 19 years... Here's to the fastest 20 weeks ever!! <3 See you real soon PS: hope you enjoyed your preferred format :P xXxOoOxXxOoOxXxOoO