"And I heard as it were, the noise of thunder, one of the four beasts saying, come and see, and I saw, And behold, A white horse, and the name that sat on him, was death, And hell followed with him" Well you see, I'm uttery insane, I've become more depressed, and the last 3 people that I could have never saw myself doing anyharm too, has now been changed to 1. Even though, i love my thoughts of choas, I want them to stop. I keep finding harder and harder not to cut lose. I want to see a psycologist about all this, but then I'm afraid that if i do that, i'll be put away, never to see my friends again, and even if i had visiting privledges, who'd come and see me? Well that I'd really want to see, 2 people, and knowing this just makes me more depressed.I'm thinking of just checking myself into a hospital, so as i can leave when I want to. But I dont see myself doing that. How could they really help? How can they change the way someone thinks. And I have no remorse for this. I am what I am, and that is a Monster. Your gonna die young, so you better live fast -NeilyBoy