0112am Monday 2nd August, 2004

Some 50 minute after the prvious entry, i have decided to write this also. This will be an attempt to explain what happened on friday (with the freaky claustraphobia thing; detailed breifly in previous entry).

It was before work, and i had some spare time on my hands. I didn't want this spare time, but i'd taken the bus early to ensure my promptness (since the bus has, when i've been expecting it, not arrived at the correct time, and made me late for work). So, i trotted around my usual places -- a book store, music stores, video stores -- growing more and more bored, and for some reason upset, as i went along. I felt the need to keep moving, and insisted that visiting these places i common frequented would cheer me up, as i remember them to have done so with previous visits to them. I think i grew frustrated over the fact that, despite going to these stores, i only felt worse and worse, and i was beginning to feel disassociated from myself; withdrawn into my mind. I felt as though i was hovering inside a vessel over which i had no control. My legs carried me to these places, as though a pet may tug it's "owner" to the park, or a driver may insincively head in a familiar direction with minimal consciousness over the actual path taken.

By the time i'd arrived at this particular store, wearing work trousers and a black t-shirt, i was hot and clammy, and my mind seemsed to be racing to nowhere. On second thought, i think this occured AFTER work, when i was past my grinning overly-hyper mood phase.

I was walking down the aisle of this particular music store, and stopped to pick up a certain CD. I spotted, out of the corner of my eye, a figure who resembled the focus of this unnecessary story. Suddenyl, i felt as though i was being pressured to become attentive, and my heart seemed to stop. As they crossed my path, i departed in hope that they would not notice me, hence saving them from rejection.

I believe it was unsuccesful, but i am now bored of writing this. If you're reading this, i congratulate you on digesting all of this information.