Why is feeling safe so important? What makes us safe? Reveal nothing. Keep quiet, they might hear you. Or rather, its devastating if they dont. What happens when you lose yourself inside yourself? Questions without answers. Or rather, i know the answer, i just avoid it to feel safe. When someone destroys your safe world, you will put up walls to wrap yourself in, like a blanket you never want to unravel from. Putting the blanket aside and leaving the warmth is so hard. Id rather drown in myself than leave. Or actually...would i? I let myself out sometimes. Usually i wish i didnt. You leave a bad taste in my mouth. I dont understand you or your thoughts. I cant see through you and it scares me. WHY CANT I FIX MYSELF. God it seems so easy in words and in thought but in action its a fucking 200 foot canyon i cant jump across. Im so scared of life but i want to dive in so badly. Everyone says be smart about it. how can you be when you dont have the means to? SOMEONE FIX ME. i cant do it. i just cant. im trying so hard. oh god am i trying. The blood calls but im ignoring the sirens. but oh god does it turn from a call to a craving. i cant turn off this tv running my life. I need to see the ocean. I need that rise of hope again the sun warming and the waves crashing endless possibilities and the sand full of touch and fufillment.