** Today i finally stopped and took a step back and looked at why my best friend is dead i never really realized why people hated him so much and it drives me crazy cause i feel like i caould have done somthing...... could have told someone i did let aj move in with me and my mom until his dad came and made him go back home.......... he is dead because of his dad......gone left me and the worst part is that his dad is trying to blame the death on me tat i am a tease...... yet i have the bloody clothes when his dad hit him and broke his nose and the convos that he tellz me what his dad was doing to him i was his girlfriend it would have been 1 year today how could i just sit there and let his dad do that to him does that mean i was a bad girlfriend.... or did i do as much as i possibly could i feel as if i should have told someone but i wish aj was still here :(