Holy shit is been a really long time since iv been on this. hahah what the fuck is up?!?! well hmmm whats happend to me since my last post. ohhh good shit. Soo im still single, im living home, and lost my job. Kinda sucks.. but it happend around uhh June?? yeah sounds right. But im thinking about joining the Army, so thats going to interesting. Well im 22 now, will be 23 in july, im getting old fuck.. hahah And i was reading all my past posts omg.. so much drama and i was such an emotional bastard hahaha. All that shit is done and over with a few things still on my mind after reading them but thats another post ;) haha well im out later.

So there is like nothing new with my life really, still single, still living with the ex, still living in Vestal, still working at Verizon, still driving the same piece of shit car haha people moved in the other day its cool, so now i wont be broke all the time. it will be nice to have money for a change. Blah i dont know what else to say really, kinda not in a great mood but same shit.. different day.

Yeah well today, July 14th, is my 20th bday.. and me and the GF have broken up today... what a great beday for me.. Well nothing is new but im single thats about it.. dont even wanna talk about what happend it was just not good... she didnt trust me, she would log onto my myspace and shes just immature.. that somes it up for the most part. Still working at Verizon Wireless.. and now i live on my own in Vestal... well the gf is still living here for now. Other then that nothing else has happened in the last few months.. Im 20, still working, living on my own and now single after 10 1/2 months.

Its been a while since i have written in this. haha nothing new has happened, still dating Kara, my car is stil la piece of shit, Verizon is good still, Hmm what else.. no drama that i can think about right now. Hmm i think im going to PA tomarrow with Kara and Ryan, but im not sure cuz i dont think my car will make it since there is a whole in my radiator, i mean its not huge but what ever. Uhhh yeah well this has been fun but im out haha. Later.

After Dark Films Presents 8 Movies To Die For. 3 nights ONLY, TONIGHT, Saturday Night, and Sunday Night. So i wont be home until LATE Sunday night. Syracuse/DeWitt NY this is where is going down. Horror Fest 2006, And it starts Tonight at 6:10PM. So i most likly wont be online at all until Monday after work. But for now i need to finish getting ready and packing, waiting for Kara to get here so we can leave hehe im so fucking stoked i cant wait. Peace out everyone.

Well yeah its November now, and me and Kara are still together, our 2 months was on the 1st of this month even though we started dating on August 31st. Yeah its been pretty interesting hehe but im loving every min. of it. hmm.. well on the 17th-19th i will be in Syracuse/DeWitt NY because of HorrorFest 2006, im so fucking excited i cant wait. After Dark Productions showing 9 movies that they cant show in General Public, oh man this is going to be SICK. I still work at Verizon my 2 month there was on the 11th. Im glad that i have a job that i finally like, and its not a bad job at all. I mean sometimes it can be bad becuase some people just piss you off but thats fine you can just tell them that they are Shit Out Of Luck muahha but the people i work with are awesome starting to get along with everyone. Yeah i hope i can stay working for Verizon for a while. Well i guess ill be writing later like in December haha cuz it looks like i can only get to this once a month haha but ill try to keep up with everything. Later everyone. have a good night.

Yeah since this is like a every month thing were i write en entry let me some it all up hahaa Working full time at Verizon, hanging out with friends and Kara hehe and yes were are still together, Uhhh what else.. my car is still a piece of shit i wanna drive it over a cliff or somthing hahaha Uhhh lets see... yeah i went to cuse today for training and it was so boring haha but yeah driving up there was crazy, snowing and shit and almost getting hit by a few cars, but on my way back fucking almost getting hit but a mac truck didnt see me next to him, and a ambulence almost rearended me.. bastards haha but im okay.. but im going to break my car soon... well uhh thats all i guess hahha ill write again sometime later hehe byee.

Yeah i havnt writen anything in this cuz i havnt been home, working full time job, chilling with my girl friend and friends so i have no time to be on my computer any more, its kinda sad. Well my new job is amazing, Verizon Wireless being a Tech for Solectron, hell yeah its amazing. Me and Kara are awesome, we shared our one month yesterday, it was pretty sweet. i took her to dinner at 12am Oct 1st, we changed the date to the 1st of every month cuz there are only a few 31 day months soo.. haha well i took her to Applebee's mmm so good. hahaha it was awesome. She gave me this card and chocolate hehe it was cute. Hmm what else can i talk about.. i dont think anything... but yeah im out peace kids.

Yeah so this Sunday, Sept 10th, i leave for NJ, for my new job, at Verizon Wireless, being a tech. Making $10/hour just starting, and raises go up really fast in this company so im really excited. Uh yeah i cant wait, the money will finally be coming back to me for not having a job for like 3 weeks now. Well now im waiting for my baby girl to get her so im leaving for now, ill be writing an entry before i leave soo. later.

As of today, Kara Ann Kristek, is now my girlfriend, and yes, those kisses got me this far, so many more to come. I Heart You Kara.

So sat around for most of the day, ryan came over for a little, and we chilled, then around like 5 somthing he left.. then around 630 i showered. After that i left to go hang out with Kara K and hecktor. just to the mall and t-bell, B&N, walmart were i bought Saw 2 and The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus (love this band), uhh and then took Hecktor home and me and kara hung out at her house. We went for a walk, holding hands, holding each other once again, hehe loved every min. of it. Got back to her house and hung out listening to my cell phone and the awesome music i have on it ahah. I'm going to get her to like the stuff i listen to. Well we kept hugging and holding each other i kissed her cheek a few times, then i kissed her on her lips, not just once, a few times, but didnt make out. I'm so glad that i did it, and i hope she was happy with it also. I havnt stop smiling since i got home, which was around like 230am and its now 4am. I like Kara so much, its an amazing feeling, ahh just want her to feel the same soon. But thats all for now, good night everyone hehe. :)

Yeah so today I went to Syracuse with Ryan and Cody, very interesting day I must add. Had a great time going up there, going like 90-100mph there and back, not bad I guess. Then like we were in Syracuse, and kinda took the wrong exit. So we ended up taking like a 20 min. detour around Syracuse almost near the fair grounds haha, yeah deff. took a wrong turn. Got back onto the highway and got to the mall, but as I was turning into the parking lot, I was going to go straight but uhh, kinda couldn’t. So I made a sharp turn and I almost hit a car coming at us. Stopped and had to reverse cause I almost hit them. Opps. Well walking around and bought two shirts one for me and one for Kara K. Then walked around some more and we found out that these two girls were like following us.. and I knew they weren’t following because of me, Ryan and Cody, the good looking kids haha. So they follows us to outside were I was smoking a cigarette, Ryan and Cody were out side with me chilling, and so did they. Ryan and Cody both decided to like gang up on me so we were all just like horsing around outside for a while. So then all of us hung out and what not, then me and Ryan left Cody and one of the other girls alone so they could talk and what not, so me and Ryan are walking around, and we were talking about kicking people. So I went to like kick and my shoe goes flying off and almost hits a lady in the back of the head, seriously like 3 inches from her head, it was so funny, but I felt so bad. So we kept walking around and I was Texting Kara K, and so I thought about buying her something as a surprise, there’s more to it but I don’t wanna go into detail right now haha. So I bought her a silver ring with a butterfly on it with like pink gem things, and since pink is her favorite color and she likes butterflies, its perfect. So yeah got done doing that and meet up with Cody and the 2 girls, and we talked for a little while then left, after I bought Ryan a shirt cause his birthday is soon, and I bought another shirt for me. So were leaving the mall and I’m texting Kara K once again and walking threw the parking lot, while I was in the middle of texting her something, I ran into a Handicapped Parking Sign… yeah I’m a moron. Like I was walking normal speed and Bam, my face meets this sign, hurray for me. Yeah kinda felt like getting punched in the face, it was funny and all, Ryan and Cody got a huge laugh out of it so it’s all good I guess. So driving home and dropping them off at my house so Ryan can take Cody home. I went over to Kara’s house for a little to give her the shirt and the ring I bought her. She liked the ring a lot, and she was very happy with it. We hung out on her steps for a little while talking and laughing like always, holding each other, and just having a good time. But since she has class in the morning I had to leave her, but right now I’m talking to her online so she needs to go to bed soon. It’s 2am just so everyone’s knows haha. So we hugged each other good bye, and I didn’t wanna let her go. I just wanna stay in her arms for ever. I love this feeling, and I wanted to give her a good night kiss, but I didn’t have enough balls to do it. I don’t want her to get un-comfortable ya know. So we said our good byes and now I’m sitting at home typing this and talking to people on AIM. But that that was my exciting day, so I’m going to bed soon, so good night everyone.

Yeah so a few days ago i was driving my friend home and i decided to see how fast i could get my car up to, and so far its 120mph. Thats not the highest though cuz i had to slow down cuz there were cars in front of me hahah it was kinda lame.. But maybe next time i can get higher. Well recently i have been thinking about one girl and one girl only. Kara K. I cant stop thinking about her. But i know she doesnt feel the same as i do, roar, its kinda lame, but if she needs time, that i will give to her. Just hope maybe something can become out of all this, hanging out all the time, and what not, just i want her to give me a chance, but its all up to her honestly. Ill be the one to ask her out of course, but not yet, Not Yet. I wanna be the one that makes her happy when shes feeling down, i wanna be the one always by her side, i wanna be that one guy thats right for her. Just need a chance to prove myself, thats all. Im waiting patiently for her, just hope i dont have to wait forever.

Yeah today i just got my first car, and im very happy with what i got. a Red, 89' Honda Prelude. Its pretty sweet. ahha im excited about itt. But yeah since i spent almost all of my grad. money today, i think its time for some sleep haha i have been gone all day haha and i had to work soo whats new. Well im out good night kids.

Yeah so today was the last day of summer school, and i deff. passed with flying colors. An 84 on my final, and a 80 on my final project. Ohh and tomorrow morning im going car shopping. Eeeeee im so happyyy omg hahaha this has been the best day in so long. Woooo and i bought the new A Change Of Pace CD, its pretty good i think. Well worth the money haha. Uhh well i dont know what else to talk about soo im outtt peace kids hhehehe.

This is going to take a while to write, and for those who are going to read this, I’m sorry. Everything is hidden; no reason to explain myself, because people wouldn't listen to me anyways. Every possible way I can express myself, people turn away, or they just blow me off, nothing new I guess. Its’ like I’m Unfaithful or something, I wont know until I’m able to find the reason or the person to show/explain who I really am. For every pathetic pick up line I say, every little action I do, people jump on me like everything I do is wrong. Its like, were did everybody go? Leaving me alone, drowning, once again. But now I guess I can explain my self, in terms where everyone should be able to comprehend… Was this a mistake; for me to be such a nice person, or do I deserve all this, that’s why I get fucked over so many times, or why I get treated like shit for sticking up for myself, or getting stuck with all the bullshit lies from the people who I thought cared about me!? Who knows…? I Think I should start putting the act back into session, the “act” of being happy. That fake, that bullshit smile I can show the world, so they can just leave me the fuck alone. But if I do that, then how the fuck am I going to be able to find that girl, the girl to make me smile, the girl I can trust with my life, the girl I can cuddle with for hours on end, the girl of my dreams, that girl, she needs to appear before my eyes, instead of teasing me, from what kind of world I could be living in, instead of this fake hypocritical society of back stabbing bastards, and protect me from being so emotional… Yes I said it, Emotional. Not that fucking “Emo” shit, I mean Emotional. For example, that it’s really easy for me to get hurt emotionally. But when people are in my face, talking shit, ill laugh at them, because they wont do shit, even though they say they will do something, ill just laugh in there face, until they walk away. People need to understand that I’m not afraid of them, because I have no reason to be afraid. The past means everything to me, even all the shit that tears me down, and makes me feel like I’m worthless. There is nothing I can do now for my faults, my mistakes, all I can do now is stand up and make sure nothing happens like that again, be the bigger person instead of stooping down to the level of the bastards that think there better then me/everyone else. All of my responsibilities are up to me to take care of, no one else’s. If there is currently a rumor that is said about me, come to me first before assuming anything. I’m the kind of person that will tell my friends anything, I have no reason to lie, its stupid, a waste of time, not something I can do to my friends, same if I had a girl friend, I couldn’t lie to her, like I have in the past… I don’t know why I’m typing all of this; it’s almost a full page on Microsoft Word, wow almost 570 words. But I guess I’m done for now, maybe ill type more later… 580 Words..

Well its been awhile since i have been on this, so lets get updated. Still dont have a car... damn it all. Uhh summer school is going alright i have an 80. soo its all good. Hmmm still single, damn it. Drama of course, but nothing major haha. Yeah soo thats about it i guess... oh me and kara k havnt talked in like 3 days soo i guess shes out of the picture for right now. On monday i went to Under the Gun with Britt from work, and she got her tounge pierced, it was sweet haha. Uhh well i guess thats it for now.. nothing else is new. still smoking, still working at burlington, but i am trying to find a better job, and uhh thats about it i guess hahha. later.

Well a few things have happend in the past few days, new cell of course oh and its amazing, me and bridgette aint getting together ask me about details, and i guess ill be getting a car asap. A 96' volkswagen golf, dont know what color it is but its in great condition and im getting it for like $800 not bad if you ask me, haha who cares if its a hatchback, its my first actuall car, hurray. Hmm well summer school is halk way over already, and lets just hope i pass, hahaha. Hmm what else is new, uhhh well talking to this girl and her name is Kara K, shes really nice and shes funny, and im getting interested in her. Hmmm what else, Ohh i got my credit card a few days ago. haha Uhh damn i dont know what else to say, but i guess im done for now, peace out kids.

Yeah got the newest LG from Verizon, LG VX8300, its sickk. hahaha and still have the same number. sooo call or txt me anytime hehe.

TODAY IS MY MOTHER FUCKING BIRTHDAY!!! WOOO 19 years old and still pissing everyone the fuck off hahahaha.