@%@$@!@^%&%^* ugh sports are dumb.. reallly ive had like no time for myself anymore and i think im starting to need it.when you come homee all the time and just break downnn and get mad i dont think its goood.like my ONLY free day with NOTHINGGGG on it is on the 18th..ugh but anywayss so volleyballs going good..sorta..okay not really..well it is but its not its getting really frustrating i dont think my coaches reallyy like me that much.and i think its just because i correct them on what i think is right and i know they hate that but whatevs.its just stupid cause they sit me.and i cant say anything and i dont want to go to them cause no coach likes people coming to them talking a about play time.and ive been counting how much ive sat and its stupid cause i really need this season to be good so i can get better for club..bad cause im shooting for a scholarship..and it wont happen if this is happening but i talked to jessiee which was so nice i really miss her i do and its been nice to hang around with her..OH SHITTT..its meagosss birthdayy AGH her present isnt donee oh fuckk ohhh fuckk.. im suchhh a bad friend..gosh.. well maybee she will be okay if i give it to her on friday or on thursdayyy oh gosh i hope soo.. welll lately ive been on the phone quite a bit with tyler..or danny.gosh i love them bothh..but tylerr i just cant figure that kid out ..but anyways i wont get into that.. ugh we had stupid dinner this weekend..im not going to say it was good.just causee of family stuff.my family is so disfunctional its almost getting pithetic like when you cant even get one dinner right you knoww youve got problems but anyways i better get goingg.whyy..cause its 630 amm and i got practice yo'