hah what a great word...cantakerous...thats sexy...i like it...im drunk anf im updating for the first time in forever...me anf stef are fucking over for good...she wont stop and see all the thigns SHES done to lead us up to where we are...its still my fault...of course...its always been my fault...i was their little fucking pet...theyd say jump and id say how high...but no...i dont get any thanks for dick all...because im SOOOO sick...because im a normal teenager =)...yeah how lucky of me...eh?...eyah...what garbage this all is...what a waste of my life...jesus...i tried to show her...i tried to make us work...but no...its still me...its still she needed to help me be better...no she needed to have COMPLETE control of my life...thats the only way we would have worked...*rolls eyes* i cant deal with that shit...its retarded...i wanted to go to gay pride with her...but whatever...shes right...she HAS to be right...you know...cuz theres SO much proof of her being right...except EVERYONE agrees that shes mental and i did the right thing...so whatever stef...i hope youre happy...but you prolly went qand killed yourself or something stupid cuz yeah your life is over now isnt it...god...how fucking ridiculous...*shakes head*...