Well i haven't wrote in this thing for over a year and i dont like this anymore, so byebye dudddded

yep, i got myself a 66' mustang, yep, it needs work, but its gonnga look bitchin when its done. mmhmmm

Fade to Black Life, it seems, will fade away Drifting further every day Getting lost within myself Nothing matters, no one else I have lost the will to live Simply nothing more to give There is nothing more for me Need the end to set me free Things not what they used to be Missing one inside of me Deathly lost, this can't be real Cannot stand this hell I feel Emptiness is filling me To the point of agony Growing darkness taking dawn I was me, but now he's gone No one but me can save myself, but it's too late Now I can't think, think why I should even try Yesterday seems as though it never existed Death greets me warm, now I will just say goodbye

well christmas is almost here, i might get enough money to get a new amp, or guitar, maybe if im lucky both. school is boring, nothing new is going on. i had a substitute in my life science class, which was boring. PE was fun cuz i did nothing. this kid in my pe class always smells like shit,he needs to take a shower and bathe in some AXE, he smells i had a quiz in auto shop which i didnt do so swell on, that was my day, im tired. im going to bed.

Yeah i might get a job at Snapper Jacks. I will be workin' weekends if i get the job if any of you people wanna stop bye to say howdy. I need a job to pay for my car parts, guitar, and amp. so yeah, thats all thats been goin on lately, been workin on my car and playin guitar ħ§

yeah im back. ive been keepin busy. mostly practicing the guitar. learned to play a few new songs. i think i missed the crazy jennette show. i finally decided on what guitar im going to get, its a jackson, a "dinky" series. ahha. i just had some K.F.C. yeah that stuff is the shiznit. everyone one should listen to dimmu borgir cuz they kick Aass

Im not writing in here anymore.

i'm getting sick of writing in this, i think im not gonna write in it anymore, i never have anything to write about.I need to get a life, and a job, i better start saving, i need $900. ive got a long ways to go for that wiener dog. o well, i dont think ill be writing anymore. o well.if you people wanna chat with me. my screen name thingy is maiden881 well, laterz

i stayed home from school today cuz my whole body hurt extremely bad.i also didnt sleep at all last night. im glad i didnt go to school though cuz i hate school and i hate mrs.graham and ms.de wit. today was somewhat relaxing, i woke up, my dad came home for lunch and made me some soup, which was nice, he left then later came home sick, he also didnt feel to good. i played my video games for awhile those things piss me off, i just wanna throw them out the window, i can never beat them. i got some guitar playng time in finally, its felt like years since ive played my guitar. im gonna get a new guitar, its a schecter, its called an omen 6, its pretty cool.i cant wait, im sick of my piece of crap guitar.we moved some crap out of the studio yesterday,thers a crap load of crap in there. we walked down to the 99 cent store and i got soem mike and ikes. i felt weak yesterday, not tired or anything, i just couldnt move. it sucked.i spent the night at my cousins on saturday i think it was, which was pretty boring.well, im out.

i went to redlands today, got some new dirt bike stuff.there was so many freakin people there, all these guys rubbin' up against me, eww ugh.im spending the night at my cousins and me aaron josh and drew finally get to jam tomorrow.

Hopefully we can have band practice this weekend. We have our own little cozy little studio, and it has a freakin kitchen too! o yeah, all we'll need is a microwave and some toaster strudels, hells yeah biznatch. I dont have to go to redlands this weekend it got cancelled, so i got all weekend to chill with my broskis, maybe i might go to redlands and spend the night and LeAnnes and then chill with them on sunday and whatnot and whatever, that would be awesome, but unlikely.

This week has been so boring and has gone by so freakin slow.. Yesterday i got to see LeAnne woohOO!!! wel i gotta do homework,.

I havent written in a long time because Ive been real busy focusing on school and stuff.But this past weekend I went to Buena Vista.I had a pretty good time.Im getting better wakeboarding I did some new stuff.Im almost pro.I had a good time with my girlfriend we hung out and slept in the tent and went swimming.And she beat me up.She gave me a cut on my eye where she socked me.Then I have a few bruises on my chest where she pinched me.But I was kinda sad because we couldnt go on the innertubes alot together because her cousin came and they went together.But Leannes cousin was being a big buttfart to me and I have no clue why.I couldnt take my guitar camping and I miss playing it but now that Im home I can play it all I want.I dont think I have anything else to write but if I do I will write.

Me Aaron josh and drew are gonna jam, i have no room at my place, maybe at drews maybe at joshes, we dont know, we just need to jam. We jam, and if everything works out as smooth as...bettter not say it, if everything turns out "smooth" we'd be a band, and that means, band practice, and that means, i get to get outta my house and not have to listen to my parents, once a week, or wait, maybe more. we'll see how everything works out. Im still here babysiting and im happy i got to bring my guitar and i came up with some kick ass riffs that would make people horney. theyd listen to it and go, yes, yes, oh yes. i cant type, ill need to act it out for you. That be pretty bitchin if we got everything going with the jamming, im antsy to get started, im sick of playing to myself, i need some drums and bass in that shiznit. I just got down the intros and shit to Powerslave and Transylvania, yes devin, i got transylvania down now. yes. now i can play it. yep. pretty damn easy. im trying to get invaders down, but i think the person that tabbed it on the internet did it wrong, it sounds crappy. but my guitar sucks monkey balls too, its prolly that, i need 9000 dollars pronto.

well this weekend im have to go to these peoples house with my mom so we can help babysit their child, its gona suck, but atleast im making money. i want money. Im gonna go on a field trip today for english and we have to go to this stupid play well bye

Well ive been trying to play master of puppets and that song is crazy, i got down the beginning down, but the part where you go ---------2-------3--------4-------3------2---2 --0--1----0--1----0--1----0--1-----0--1----- it's awesome, but freakin kirk plays it so damn fast, ugh. haha but anyways i need a new guitar, so someone give me money. i wanna get an Ibanez Artcore Hollowbody, or maybe one of those other ones im thinking of that i cant think of the name. Thursday im probably going to the show at the loft at 4, the bands that are playing are i think, Contra A Dying Dream Suburban Crisis The Linden Murder Fly by Night My Life story The Assault Stillborn James and the Mexicans American Conflict Second hand Scars Its only 5 bucks too, awesome. Plus on Friday at the ventura theatre Wretch and Contra are playing, gotta see that. Well you people have to go.

Well i have spare time this morning, its 6:58 right now and i usually dont need to leave till like 7:15, so i thought id write one of these thingies. my family bbq yesterday was alright, i brought my guitar, and my cousin plays guitar, and we played and stuff, that was pretty cool, there was nothing else to do, so we just played guitar for like 4 hours straight. for dinner, we had tacos, but they couldnt of been just normal tacos, they had to have something disgusting about them, old people cant cook. The meat was like all fat, the only thing you could see when you looked at the meat was the fat. ugh and it was freakin disgusting. We didnt have desert either, boohoo. i dont feel like going back to school today cuz, you have to use your mind too much. my P.E. clothes are probably gonna be all moldy cuz we went swimming in PE on friday and i had to swim in my PE shorts cuz i didnt have swimming trunks, and i didnt have a towel so i had to use my shirt to dry off. well, later.

hmm if im not mistaken today is labor day, and today im going to a barbeque, hmm, im confused, it is a.... .. ...monday, is it labor day, if it is, its gonna suck cuz my family barbeques are usually boring. hmm...i didnt get my Venom shirt cuz my mom was to lazy to get up and drive me to the store. hmm..well..hmm...tomorrow i have to wake up early again...i cant sleep in..hmm..that sucks..yes,,indeed. hmm. well hmm... theres really nothing else to say... .... ... my...hmm my life is boring... hmmm... yep.

well i woke up this morning and my mom was freakin out cuz she saw my picture of carmen electra naked. yeahp, pretty funny. who cares though, shes just my dumbass mom,i dont know what the fuck shes complaining about, i think shes a lesbian, she shouldve been happy to see that picture...fuckin' dike. i would like to kill her sometimes KilL kiLlLLkil KIll kIlL KiLl!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i would also like to Kill KILl KilL KiLLLkIlKILLKILLL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Leanne's father cuz he never lets us hang out with each other, KillKILLKILKILLLKILLKilLL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i'm gonnna go make myself some serial or however the hell you spell it, cereal, yeah thats it.

Well the day is over, im getting ready to go to bed, finally my boring day is over. i havent done anything today but sit down, eat, play guitar, play the xbox, and watch TV. Tomorrow's not gonna be any funner than today. Ive decided that im gonna get the Venom shirt because too many people have iron maiden shirts at my school, you could blindly point in any direction and there would be at least three people wearing that shirt. Leanne's parents suck cuz they wont let us hang out. so im pissed at them,im pissed at them real bad. real bad. bad. My bird wouldnt shut up today, he kept squawking and i wanted to rip his face off.i am watching this show thats like showing everything that happened when the world trade centers fell down and stuff, people freak out too much. Starting tomorrow im gonna try and save my money for a new guitar, i think im gonna get a job, i dont know where, somewhere easy like skating plus. i dont know, i just want a new guitar.