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i find peace when im confused i find hope when im let down not in me but in you summers over...it was a good one and im sad its over!! =( im also not too excited about school since its so diff but oh well! went white water rafting with conner rachael lauren and jeremy on sunday! it was so much fun!! so glad we got to go! i love them SO SCHOOL...yeah my sced doesnt suck but isnt that great! my lunch sucks but at least i have a few friends. yeahh but tomorrows friday so i wanna go see SKELETON KEY or do something really fun!! its supposed to rain like crazy which sucks. today was a pretty good day i guess! woke up, went to school, my feet killed in my darn boat shoes, went to my classes, did that crap. jeremys not in my lunch class anymore which sucks! but whatever, now i sit with alex w alex b weslsey carrie c and hannah b. i already have a lot of crap to do for school which is dumb but i gotta work hard this year!!! im gonna go sleep or watch tv!

i gotta shake it off cause my loving aint the same and you keep on playing games like you know im here to stay heeyyy diary. hey look, ive been busy. so i couldnt write. pshh soph year is cool. diff school, diff classes, diff ppl, diff yearbook pics, diff freshman, diff teachers, diff all in the areas cept how bad i do in school. still horible. lets see here. met a new kid wes...ended up being close friends. likes rachael. rachaels not sure. could happen. could be cute. lauren and jeremy are good after kinda being "rough". which is very good! lets see here...thats all my friends me and conner broke up...but we stil pretty much the same. but...not sure...the end cause i dunno what to say cuzzz i am lost right now hmmmhmmmm since i dont have anymore friends, i guess ill talk about my family my brothers bday was yesterday. woo.hoo? sister went off to college and we visited her and clemson is growing on me. i have to go to a few more games. but whatever i dont care. michael and her are doing good i suppose. wabamm. dads still, dad. mom still, up my butt. my cousin jessica is 16 and pregnant. getting married on nov 5. k i dont like my family ... next im planning on printing this out one very very boring day. to read when im like 48 and read just how freakin sweet my life was while i was like 14-16ish. omg that reminds me, i turn 16 soon! =) =) =) =) =) DUUUUDE! yay! i wanna go to NY or PARIS. but i told my dad those plans and he laughed. so i guess im staying in borin GA. i wanna have one of those blowout parties like on SUPER SWEET SIXTEEN SHOW. but once again, my dad would laugh. plus, im missing something to have a blowout. acually A LOT of things. called PEOPLE walton football sucks this year. like incredibly. lost last night 28-0. im going to gala with connncon. i want a pretty dress =) mk love yall THE NEW LOVE OF MY LIFE b-e-auuuutiful =)

bored?...yeah maybe a litttle bit went to panama city last thursday. left at 5 am. then was totally bored for 2 days. plus my sister was driving me crazy!! hm then i met pretty much the coolest girl ever haily. shes prolly the most southern person ive ever talked to in my life! came home...then luckily made it to a movie with conner rachael april christy ko caleb phil and patrick. pretty stoked about that bc i wanted to see conner before he left for camp! yesterday he left and me and rachael sat around and watched a movie and then went to the pool and then walked to kyles for about 15 minutes then got bored and left. then today its my moms birthday so i cleaned the house and made her a cake =) bc im thhhat nice. now im myspacein it bc there is nothing better to do! only ppl i ever hang out with are gone. so looks like im gonna be hanging in my pjs today. cant complain...thats the bomb! woke up the past two mornings wanting to call conner but he is at stupid camp! acually yesterday i started calling but then i didnt want to get him in trouble. bc i know they are gay about phones. i miss him. he comes home in forrrevvverr though. ughh! ill live. so thats my life. my best friends and boyfriend are gone right now. plans for the week: uh. getting my hair cut which im totally stoked for. i wanna go water rafting still. im dreading school. not to mention i havent started two books yet. sawweettt! ppl. help me. i wanna put music on here. how do you do it! EDIT hm today was fun? woke up. read like 2 pages. thenn went to the mall with my sister and then did buncha crap errands with her and michael. who drove me crazy. then came home and then went to petsmart to get my brother more fish so he can kill those. then my mom and mrs weis went for dessert for my moms birthday. then we walked to kyles and watched the saddest episode of real world. ko even cried. =( so sad. thenn came home. and did squat. soo last week of summer and its fucked. my mom is being retarded. but my dad is being so cool about it. he just laughed. and he was like "did u seriously not think ud get caught" i was like er no. whatever IT WAS FUN!! and id do it again! haha sunday a group of us is going white water rafting! and im so excited!! itll be so fun!! conners at camp =( ive been bored as shit and miss him but he comes back saturday i think! im not gonna be to mushy. cuz if he comes back with a story to tell ill be pissed! ok...thats it! im gonna go upstairs bc i have nothing better to do. succckkkksss

summer is a hardcore load of funn cousins got here wednesday. thursday we went to IKEA that new furniture store. then to lennox mall for a while and then watched movies all night and conner came over. friday we uh went to a movie and had to park BFE-beyond fn egypt...who knew it would be so crowded. then went to conners house then to walmart. today i woke up at 8:45 to read. yeahyeah. thennnn we went to church and i saw kristin and austin! so that was really awesome talking to them! last night at the movies i saw trenton alex and kyle from the england trip and after they called to see if i wanted to go driving with them. and i was like "errr no i have family in town" and then today i found out they were drunk. soo thats pretty good i didnt go! today i went to the mall and did some awesome shopping at forever 21 and places like that! now im just-a-sitting here watching joe dirt and eating canddy =) miss max. grrr he comes home august 3. im talking to him now. he is loved...by me mrwflmkr28: i miss you emily its mutual conner left today for his backpacking trip with travis =( im going to miss him! went to ko's bday party on monday night then ko conner and patrick came over. conner is so perfect that it kinda scares me. he is too perfect! i love him my sister is ruining my life. we have done jack this whole week bC her plans are so freaking annoying. she is always working so we cant go white water rafting or six flags. gr i miss lauren and rachael so much. i never knew i would miss them so much! i also miss jenna. its been so long since ive hung out with her! =( today i woke up. took the boys to see charlie and the chocolate factory. then me and amanda went to funky monkey and the uh beaded lizard. then walmart. then blah i dunno. it was boring. i shoplift at walmarttee-hee

hmm. where to begin. me and amanda watched 13 movies while she was here. pathetic i know. the list is in my room. conners back and im sooo happpy!!!! i missed him and im glad hes home! last night he came over! ive been with him a lot lately and its amazing! i love him soo so much! i love being with him! alksjdsla i miss him now...! when im with him, its like i dont ever want him to leave my side =) he is the best!!! i leave for TN tomorrow. i hope i dont stay there long. normally i love being there. but i wanna hang out with conner before he leaves and all my other friends too! so0o yeahh. then on tuesday brent is coming back out and im SOO excited for that!! brent and conner and me and rachael have the best times and im soooo excited for him to come back!!! its gonna be so much fun!! then thursday i am going somewhere with my sister and mom! beach maybe. not sure! today i um. woke up at 2. straightened amandas hair and it looks soo soso good. went to see the perfect man. got yelled at there for having a coke in the theatre that wasnt from there. gay. then um went to dinner. now im about to go take pics with mannnda! yay! then im going to a movie with buncha people! not really excited about that tho. older ppl...ugh i love having my cousins here bC i love them more than anything...but im ready for it to be normal again. the whole hanging out with my friends. even tho those kids are my best friends...im ready for them to leave! rachael and lauren are back :] laurens leaving for NY though =( but im glad they are back and that they had fun! i missed them so much and i realized how much i love those girls bC this week has been HELL WITHOUT THEM i love those girls more than anything!! PS I MISS MAX MORE THAN ANYTHING!!!! WHEN HES HOME WE ARE HANGING OUT EVERYDAY!!!!!!! MAX I LOVE YOU AND YOU BETTER BE READY FOR A LONG PHONE CALL TELLING ME EVERYTHING ABOUT UR TRIP!!! MY BEST FRIEND IS GONE..THATS HALF OF ME MISSING!! AH! yeah saturday we left for TN. dropped the kids off. hung with amandas friends. visited my hilareous relatives. i drove home =). scary yess. then conner came over! love him. the end i want this car more than anything in the world! its my dream car!!!!!!! get it...you die --ME AND AMANDA-- we were supposed to go to stone mtn. but ended up doing this instead... would you look at those white teeth of mandas and the q-t-pa-too-tee behind us pucker up look at my skinny lips. tee hee blowing a bubble. gaw we were bored. last one. camera messed up. but i like it. with the colorsss eMsWeeTie 89: im gaining weight like a german pig tho eMsWeeTie 89: acually...im really not. i just feel like i am luc see 42: oh got it.as long as you poop ur fine hahahaha she is too funny.

youre the closest to heaven that ill ever be and i dont want to go home right now got back from cali on wednesday =( then me and rachael went to chilis with some people and then to a movie! kinda forgot all that ive done since then but this weekend i went to the clemson house and did a ton of work! wasnt bad tho. bout a trillion bugs. these nasty critters that are black with red legs. other than that, i learned a lot. found out my uncle had been having another affair with a different lady for 7 years. he is a good man. wednesday my cousins come out. totally stoked about that. should be funn. pics from cali prolly the coolest thing ever. me and gooosey hahah look at lucys face. god i love and miss her me and luc us again =) us three at disney. the old crew now thats a bear hug if ive ever seen one

i need you here tonight just like the ocean needs the wave. fall around me now,like stars that shine and brighten the way so me and rachael wake up really early and get at the airport. we board the plane and of course we get seated next to the most annoying kids. the plane ride was fun. we jammed the music, sang, danced, gave makeovers, made fun of the little kids. then we get off the plane and we are waiting by baggage claim and lucy is not there. but when she comes running in we SCREAM and we run to each other and everyone was watching us. pretty much amazing. then we went to in-n-out burger..then we came here! then wednesday the first day there we met up with lucys friends keely and lindsey and went to salt creek beach. they are really nice! thennn we met lucys friend cooper who is gay and he was really cool lol! then went outside and talking with lucys weird frosh neighbors. thursday we went to the mission viejo mall and tryed on like literally 100 things. very fun! friday we went to disneyland. it was SOOO MUCH FUN!! disneyland was like a reunion of our chorus trip. it was stellar. lol. thennn we left that around like 11:30. then slept and ate nancys brownies =). right now lucy is at voice lessons and then sophia is coming over and we are watching movies! ill write more later! sunday we went to the swap meet and i got a purse wallet and two lacoste shirts!! exciting. then we came home and slept and hung around! and her aunt has been here. she is really cool. never hung out with sophia yesterday but i think we are tuesday. it is really different here. so many mexicans and asians. everyone is punk. every girl has really short hair (shorter than most the guys hair) and it is like jet black. guys wear girl pants. and im talking stylish pants. everyone hates the oc and laguna beach and are so against it. im now obsessed with MAE prolly the best band ever! yesterday was the fourth and we went to laguna beach. very pretty but insanely crowded. we buried each other in sand castles. then shopped around a little but it was SO crowded. then went to these ppls house and swam and went in the hot tub. then went to mission viejo lake to watch fireworks. then walked FOREVER to meet with sophia and kendall and they were so pretty and nice! so yesterday was fun! today we are going back to laguna beach to shop more. then tonight it is our last night so we are planning on going out to a nice dinner and then meeting sophia and kendall to do something! then wednesday our plane lands at 7 i think! bEaChiN iT

...aNd hE fIt PErFeCtlY iNtO hEr CaTaStRoPhE... been very fun lately!! sarah beth slept over the other day then we went to clemson. prolly the funniest drive up there. i like sarah beth now she is hilareous! then once we got there i helped my dad dig up this pipe and connect it to a drain to make a sidewalk while the rest of the fam slept. then me and sarah beth and my brother walked downtown and went into all the stores. then walked across to the gas station and bought slushies. lol then the best part was superwalmart and the rest of that trip was filled with sleeping and ... napping. ok then i came home and was bored. went to rachaels house. then i kinda forgot what happened. max got home yesterday so me and rachael stopped by his house and said hey bC we missed him so darn much! then today went to the pool and layout out a crap loud. and saw our "sister" isabella. cutest thing ever. then we went to the mall and found the most amazing stuff!!! oh dear god. awesome part of the day was when me and rachael stole my moms car and drove it around, blaring music... yesssss my life will be awesome with a liscence. i can not wait until december 12. so then we got back and surprisingly i did not get into trouble. then we met up with ppl at the movies but didnt stay long bC rachaels mom was pissssed off now im talking to conner =) i miss him so much!! i leave wednesday for california for the best week of my life! i will miss all yall so much! i prolly wont write tomorrow so love yall in advance!!! gaw i cant wait to see the wonderful lucy!! ok if you dont think those are funny...get the heck away from me. edit well. today i woke up and went to the mall with my sister to get some shoes. then i packed for california and talked to lucy for 1 hour on the phone. bad idea but anyways. then i went to alex's bday celebration at chilis! happy birthday alex!!!! then some ppl came back to my pool. which sucked. well i didnt have fun ahha but the rest did i think. just bC john made it pretty much horrible when he told everyone i think austin quadrochi is the hottest guy in our school. and he would not let me deny it. which is totally not true...bC i never ever said that! not worth fighting for tho. then i packed more and im SO FREAKIN EXCITED!!!i almost forgot...my hair is now black. oh yay. lauren im gonna miss you so much!! im gonna call you there though! and i cant wait to see you when we get back!! i love you so much! conner i am going to miss you soososososo much!!! i cant wait to come see you when i get home and give you a big hug and kiss!! i loooove youuu with all my heart! max i will miss you so much while you are gone for 5 weeks =( have fun and take lots of pics i lovee ya best friend. im gonna miss everyone else too so much!! its only a week tho haha what am i doing?! but whatever i love yall! and happy birthday alex!!!!!!!!

other day me rachael michael and laura played tennis and michael wacked a fast fall smack dab in the middle of rachaels leg. pretty funny but sad lol. then we hopped in the pool and did the mexican thing and rode in the back of michaels truck. then watched the real world. best season EVER! babysat this morning for 4 hours--made $50. not bad. right when i walked outside rachael was standing there and it was like a sign that we were meant to hang out...so we went to the pool. and then went back to rachaels after lauren met us there and we got bored. then we went to conners swim meet for a little while and lauren ditched us with john soo me rachael and conner played tennis! hmm...we went back to the meet and then we went to DQ to eattt ice cream. duh. now im back at rachaels and she is talking on the phone with my boyfriend. so sarah beth is spending the night tomorrow and then im spending the weekend in clemson with them! wont be that bad...kinda need to hang out with my family. even my dad said he wanted to see me. now thats weird. probably gonna do yardwork or help with the trimming. heck i dunno, something labor wise. so then monday i am hopefully hanging out with friends...tuesday ya know...major ordeal. the hair. ahg. then wednesday i leave! =) so max gets home sunday and i miss the kid SO MUCH. me and conner are amazing. i really miss alex and taylor and them. hoping to hang out with them soon! we are gonna go watch a movie or something! -peace- --lOve yOu.

baby you're the right kind of wrong the other day i went to kts with max alex phil taylor katie me rachael and nicole! we took about a million pictures...and then walked to the pool! me and phil stayed outside and talked while kt rach and tay snuck in the pool and swam! then i slept at rachaels. then we woke up and watched big daddy and then went to the pool and met up with jeremy (verrrry tan) kyle and conner! then after a while max conner and rachael came over and we watched ladder 49! today me and rachael are going to the pool to get tan for CALIFORNIA!! max leaves tomorrow...im gonna miss you! have fun and call me when you get back! today me and rachael woke up and rode bikes to her house just for a freakin cell phone charger. then we went to the pool for four hours and roasted and then max and conner came! then we just hung out..had those good times we always have! then we went to moes and ate and then max left us to go home and then we walked to the dollar store and got tatoos! we put those on and then my dad picked me and rachael up...and we sat in the parking lot and watched ppl...and it was freakin hilareous! we watched the slowest g-ma i had ever seen! and then my dads (old) friend was like "having fun hanging out in parking lots?" dad said "cheap way of entertainment" haha i love my family when they are funny! thenn me and rachael went back to my house took pics and now im here at her house!! so me and rachael talked to nancy on the phone for almost 2 hours! made me really excited to see lucy! i cant wait to pop off that plane and get our stupid luggage...and then hop on lucy when we see her!!!! =) i can just hear her laughing! dude im gonna be crying like a baby! i CANT NOT WAIT! also april will be there at the same time which is cool so we might be able to do something! i wanna learn how to surf!! lOve yOu lOts me and rachael me and rachael again me and max hanging out! me and my long lost bff nicole me and tayla! me ya know...what can i say crying bC max is leaving us my comfy pahamas hot mtf

hope is an anchor and love is a ship, time is the ocean and life is a trip so lets see here...this past week i have done a ton of time hanging out with rachael b/c she is grounded and i am her only option of hanging out!movies...pool...sleeping...yep what could be better? last night went to the movies with conner katie rachael and max. was very fun seeing everyone! i have missed them so much! especially awesome seeing my best friend max, he is leaving soon on a backpacking trip in which is backpack is 20 lbs...goooo max! ill miss ya kiddo! alex and shelli are together which is about time and very cute! so today is friday and rachael is finally ungrounded but sadly what sucks is my loving sisters boyfriends family is coming over for dinner! so today is filled with cleaning and yelling =) hm hm hm! brother has been pissing me off lately with his continuous 7 hour computer games. im on a hunt for a bathing suit before cali so tell me if ya see one :) gee thanks. um cali is in 19 days and i could not be more excited to see lucy and finally be in awesome weather! 7 days with the two funniest people in the world...yeah be jealous! cept i wish lauren could come :[! i am addicted to keith urban...give me $75 to go to music midtown and you'd be my hero. i need $40 more to buy a new cell phone. i really need and want to dye my hair. i really am in the mood to go to 6 flags! i miss lauren and jenna! i am REALLY wanting to go out on a boat! i love conner so so so much! ...that is my life right now! `' life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass * * it's about learning how to dance in the rain`' xOx enjoy summah y`all

these are the days we will remember these are the times that wont come again the highest of flames become an ember and you gotta live em while you can england...had its moments! the first few days were really boring bC everyone was tired! but then london was amazing! prettiest city ever, but so expensive! i dont wanna bore you with what i did everyday so i wont! i missed everyone so much! it was so great coming home even though london was fun! im at rachaels. today we tanned FOREVER but yet i did not get any sun! suckkks life is about trusting your feelings & taking chances ; losing and finding h a p p i n e s s ; appreciating the memories & learning from the pain and realizing that people always change x

i love you always forever near or far, closer together everywhere i will be with you everything i will do for you me and conner are back together couldnt be happier =) took a while for me to realize im retarded... i love him! short and sweet. england tomorrow... im really gonna miss everyone! if i get ANY chance to talk then ill DEFF call! i should get a calling card but i dont think that they work there! gaw i dont wanna leave for 10 days but whatev! i love everyone and ill miss yall like crazy this summer has been kinda boring for me just bC of all this graduation crap! but its over now...now its getting my sister off to college! so i really have gotten myself into the biggest mess in which im deff gonna loose a friend... but thats part of life i guess! win some...loose some. i hope it all works out b/c i really do love all my friends! strangly...i refreshed this and then looked up and read this (on one of their pillows lol) "truely great ffriends are hard to find, difficult to leave, and impossible to forget" deeeyyeyuh(if you dont get that...you have not heard me say it) lOve yaLl eMiLy

cause ive been housing all this doubt and insecurity and ive been locked inside that house all the while you hold the key went to the lake with kt and rachael the other day! been to kts a lot lately...its been fun! lauren and jenna come home tomorrow =) thank goodness! i cant wait to see them! went to the mall and got some stuff yesterday! getting my hair done soon which is kinda scary...bC it always looks like shit! my burn is peeling and it hurts...badly! mom was a bitch today...but whats new really? yess. i want to burn a cd. but my burner is broken. :[. im in a really bad mood today. that mood where everything pisses me off! soo thats cool?! so cali is in 11 days and i just want to go now. i want to be there so bad!! argg. tomorrow is fathers day...and i find it funny my dad wont be home. im gonna go talk to my loves who got home today lauren and jenna! songs i want on my cd...=) My Chemical Romance - Helena Papa Roach - Scars Relient K - Be My Escape Hawthorne Heights - Ohio Is For Lovers The Killers - Mr. Brightside Weezer - Beverly Hills Lifehouse - You And Me The Used - All That I've Got Oasis - Champagne Supernova 3 Doors Down - Let Me Go Lifehouse - Spin Lifehouse - Hanging By A Moment Audioslave - Be Yourself Rob Thomas - Lonely No More Fall Out Boy - Sugar, We're Going Down A Static Lullaby - Stand Up The Postal Service - Such Great Heights Taking Back Sunday - Cute Without the E Something Corporate - Space Dashboard Confessional - Hands Down Wakefield - C'mon Baby Over It - Siren on the 101 Foo Fighters - Best of You Three Days Grace - I HateEverything About You you know in case you get bored and wanna make this for me ya know...as a goodbye present since ill be leaving for 1 week..cough cough so i know ur just so jealous of my new phone. yeah shut up dont tell me ur grandma has it. it has been called "big bertha". welcome to the world of being broke i got that bad boy free. the ppl at verizon were sick of my complaining and lo-en-be-hold gave me that piece of echeem. well i think its cute...so shove it =) if you dont like it...me and my bigass phone will kick ur ass. tee-hee me and katie on her boat...goood times couldnt make it smaller. sorry, not gifted.

this past week has been a lot of fun!! tuesday was TEB and jenna came over and we went to the clubhouse and met up with kyle brad and austin. prolly the funniest thing chucking rocks at snakes! they just kept coming up!! scariest thing! then jenna spent the night and we stayed up talking forever! then we went to school and i took my math final! then wednesday we went to laurens house with some people and just hung around east hampton! then today i went to school for spanish and webpage design..and sadly in webpage i had no idea what i was doing and i cheated on it the whole time! =) then on thursday i went to johns house with john april rachael and brad! and then later i went to kyles with rachael! haha we found the funniest pics of him "hidden" in his room! it feels like summer and its freakin amazing!! i love summer LAST DAY OF SCHOOL! I AM GOING TO MISS EVERYONE!

last day of school normal school! its been the best school year of my life and i really truely love every single one of my friends! i cant imagine anything without them im gonna miss seeing everyone over the summer tho! i know i wont see them everyday and its sad! i wont see lauren for a month! omg i hate thinking about that! good thing rachael lives down the street so thats awesome! i cant wait until summmer just to start and the good times to happen! going to see lucy this summer =) which is awesome!! i really hope lauren can come and that it all pulls through!! mom is stressed so badly...its scary! she was yelling insanely last night! brother caused a bunch of stuff and a family is sueing our family for molesting and bullying a kid. which is GAY and retarded. my brother is too scared to hurt anyone like that and he really does feel really bad. he was crying a lot last night. feel kinda bad for him but its his fault. i hope that the "posse" stays together over the summer *rachael*lauren*conner*alex*john*max*taylor*katie*april*jenna----i lOve yall

this week has been kind of boring! monday me and rachael went on like a one hour walk and then went to the powderpuff game! looost badd but ehg whatever! wasnt that fun! tuesday i walked home from matts busstop and then i came home and did my normal routine: watched next then i ran. wednesday was web and i hung around school and then came home and ran. yesterday i came home, slept, watched tv, went to target and got a bathing suit. today i have to go to michaels graduation until 6:30 ... then maybe walking to laurens if she wnats me to lol! i am so sick of this beach background . i want a cool layout! ever get bored and wanna find me one =) i couldnt argue. i would appreciate it i think my nana and papa are coming down saturday. i dont see how...they cant even stay in my house. my nana is allergic to my cat and wears a face mask. grades are horrible. pissed about that. nothing i can do now tho. money situation is bad. owe rachael $10. need clothes. want rainbows. it sucks. i need to babysit last day of normal school. monday is dumb day and tuesday is teb. then finals. i only have to come to the first final on wed. thursday i come to all. friday i go to the first. not bad not bad I CANT WAIT UNTIL SUMMER!!

that prolly was the boringest trip ever! i used to think michael was so funny...after this trip...it turned into annoying. so on friday i go to rachaels house after school and so does lauren b/c our bus driver is the best...then we walked to the clubhouse and on the way there i dropped my math book in to sewer which really sucks...so my best friend lauren climbed down there to get it for me! then kyle kevin jeremy lauren me and rachael hung outside and then i walked with kevin and kyle to kyles house then walked back home! he lives really close tho...or else i wouldnt have done that lol! then i drove to clemson which what felt like a married couple! one second they are like all cute...the next they are fighting. just for them to shut up i was like OK ANYWAYS! we get at the "dump" and retarded michael BREAKS THE KEY TO THE HOUSE. so we had to sit out there in the pitch black until my parents got there...then we had to break open a door. then went to bed. woke up and helped my mom tear town two ceilings in BY FAR THE CREEPIEST BASEMENT. on the closet door there was a pic of a boy and it said "i want to kill myself" and it was like a suicidal pic. prolly the freakiest thing. and my brother was like "id shoot myself too if i had to live down here" not only was that creppy....it REEKED! after i was done with that i ripped up the tile...then did some crap outside to the weeds lol. me and my brother went exploring and found this awesome bridge so we climb down to it...then we look behind us and there is this sign that says "the point of no return" and my brother was like "what the fuck emily...why didnt they tell us that up there" b/c we were in a ditch. that sucked....but we got out. then i literally LAYED around for about 2 hours and then my mom wanted me to help her with more weeds. and i told her i would rather smoke them then pull them up! then we looked at a four-runner for sale. then i convinced my mom i was wastless air...so she finally let me leave with michael and laura. ill write more later if i remember...im tired and i want a shower more than anything in this world right now besides the NOTHING i did at the house...i talked on the phone a TON!! lol my family was acually pretty pissed but whatever! talked to conner...but he wouldnt talk to me about anything. then i get a text from lauren saying all this stuff so i call her and she tells me A BUNCH OF STUFF that conner said to her about me. so i call conner back but he wouldnt tell me anything. and i dont feel like fighting for him to tell me so i just was like whatever...when he wants to tell me he can. EDIT-- alright so i talked to conner online and he acually talked to me and we sorted everything out! so im REALLY happy i know he is one of my best friends and we can talk about anything! instead of how it has been the past week or so! ehh that sucked slept in until 12 and then lauren called me and she said she was at the pool...and i was like WTF SHES AT THE POOL AND IM ASLEEP! so i got up out of bed! then me and rachael met lauren and katie at the pool and saw sam there and ko was there to so we all hung out! then at 3 kyle came! and then at 4 alex taylor and max came! and then later conner came! lol and then later john came! it was cool hanging out with everyone but it would have been better if me and conner had sorted things out before that b/c it was kind of akward with him there hating me! i each person there! they are so much fun so me and kyle... i dont know whats gonna happen! considering i have hung out with him TWO times...and talked to him only TWO times lol i dunno! at the pool me and him walked to the swings and went on them for a while and talked which was cool! then he fell off the swing and it was the funniest thing! he seems really cool and funny but ya never know what happens! im just gonna go with whatever comes along! + im not 100% over conner! i still love conner even through all the stuff he has said! if something happens with kyle...it happens! if not...hes a cool friend! i really miss jenna! i read her diary...and i feel like i am not apart of her life anymore! its really sad how one of ur closest friends u barely ever see! i guess i have been a bitch lately and im really sorry jenna! im always here for you and i love you!! GOOD LUCK IN THE POWDERPUFF GAME TOMORROW you will be a big help in kicking the seniors asses =)

i want something else, to get me through this semi-charmed kind of life yesterday was WEB and i hung out at school for like an hour then went to the avenue with april rachael lauren jeremy and ko. we walked to capozzis but then i left b/c my sister didnt wanna pick me up later. then rachael called me and asked if they could come over so april rachael and ko came over! we walked to the clubhouse and the door was unlocked so we went inside and then i climbed down from the balcony into the pool area! then i jumped off the lifeguard stand into the pool and it was SO COLD then finally they all got in and then we realized a turtle was in the pool! i got goggles and i was stickin my head underwater to look at the turtle and ko tried to push me into the water but i have a phobia of fish...so i was like freakin out!! we saved the turtle..then left and went back to my house b/c i got in trouble for climbing up to the balcony of the clubhouse! KO did not leave until 9:30 and i was about ready to make him walk home... it is so annoying how he overstays his welcome. he was like so what are we gonna do now LETS DO THIS. ahhhh he wouldnt freakin leave. damn i feel bad for those people who have him over on a normal basis! so...i guess now i can write about LOVE TRIANGLES...so lauren and jeremy are still perfectly amazing and rachael is pretty into 'someone' dan is a complete jerk to jenna. taylor g and taytay were in a fight last night and they think taytays mom knows about taygs bad crap. alex still is all over shelli and i personally think thats going nowhere. john and katie are still together. max likes april. april likes 'someone'. and im just along for the ride having fun EDIT- so nothing interesting happened at school cept for me and kelsey talked during lunch and she was like "im sorry for everthing people have been saying" yeah pretty much. then i told her i liked her outfit..and we ended it there! guess that was nice of her to set things straight even tho she did nothing wrong. so then i came home and ran so much like...it was insane. lol and then i went to my brothers chorus concert. and that was hilareous laurens sister had a solo...she was so cute looking up there on stage! then it was that CHANDLER MILLER girls solo and i wanted to throw a tomato at her! what snotty brat CRIES over a solo? lol w/e thats 7th drama! so then i talked to will costanzo...who i pretty much see everywhere! weird considering he lives in roswell but yeah! he is pretty nice but not the best looking. eeeeh still has those BRACES. his brother is hot tho--so maybe something will happen to him!