i hate flakey people... stupid staci, she says "oh lets hang out i'll come get you" *gets excited* STACI NEVER F-ING SHOWED UP!!! I'M SO ANGRY!!! she doesnt even care...she didnt even call...

well, i was in New Mexico the last week....being obsessed over by grandpa, grandma, and aunt terri...........not too much to tell about that week....we left Ruidoso tuesday morning...went to the grand canyon yesterday......dad and i were perfectly fine until yesterday......he was pissed off for no reason...i was in a crappy mood....i was sick and just not happy......i got to drive a bit the way to Ruidosoat like 12:30 at night....it was terrible....and then i got to drive tuesday....but we passed a sheriff and a cop so dad made me pull over so he could drive (i dont have my license...) anyways.....april's cleaning my room for me kinda.....i'm gunna help her in a bit.....i told her she could listen to any CD of mine now without asking....blah blah blah..... i think i want to be blonde again.....i wish i had the hair i used to.....long blonde and beautiful.....like this pic...i was so pretty...i miss that me.... one day.....one day........uuuum like three years maybe....i dont know...i'm bad at estimating....how long do you think it'll take??? <3 pearl....

keep dreaming and never lose your love... Current mood: drained last night i only got three an a half hours of sleep....and today was weird... i fell asleep in class for the first time ever in my life...it was fourth period and i was assistant cook....after i did half of the cooking i went back to my table and put my head down and i was out cold.....i leave 4th period at the seven minute bell everyday cuz i work in the snack bar (it keeps me busy during breaks so i'm not wandering the halls aimlessly searching for some one to talk to....) i awoke startled to this seven minute bell, said goodbye to mrs smith, gathered my belongings and left without another word and my eyes halfway open....i went to my locker, opened it, threw in my binder, locked and shut it and then walked (stumbled) to the bathroom to assess the red marks and in-dents my purse and arm had made on my face....washed my hands and then walked (stumbled) on down to the snack bar....i told patty that i had just woke up and she could see i wasn't myself....so she said i could go after the big crowd left...well, she later told me i could go right when the crowd got there cuz i needed rest badly and whitney was just sitting there waiting to be needed.....so i grabbed a water and left.....there really was lots more to my day...but the only stuff i REALLY remember was the many times i fell asleep.....and then i almost fell asleep on the girl next to me after school on the bus....she told me about it when april woke me up.....i apologized and then got off the bus.....we got home.....and my dad called saying they were an hour and a half away (they were in anaheim for 4 days and today they came back)....but yeah...we hadn't even started to clean the house....so i quickly told my father goodbye and we got started...blasted music, put in laundry (which i should go attend to now)...i took on the kitchen and the bathrooms april cleaned to front room and dining room.....she did really good...and then the belt in the vaccume broke and the whole house smelled like burnt rubber.....so we put the cats in my room, opened the front door and sprayed citrus air freshener everywhere....meh.....now my parents are home and we're almost finished watching Tommy Boy....i love chris farley...RIP.....well, i've got brusies all over from who knows where...i mean frick! theres even a mass bruise on my chest and one on my back and my muscle in my right forearm is tight and the whole side of my face is bruised....i'm so tired and sore...i think i'll go change into PJ's and go to bed...hmmm...its only 6:10...oh well, good night....

well, i see so much has changed since my last entry....i am no longer in love with jake....i was forced to not be "in love" with him anymore....he changed his mind, ultimately deciding he didn't like me anymore...whatever...screw him....anyways!... its the end of spring break and i've wasted it....sitting around eating and getting fat...making stuff like earrings and crocheting purses....what a life i've made for myself huh?.... i finally have some plans for my future....after i graduate i'm going to washington to stay with my sister for a month...then coming back home....staying long enough to get my stuff organized...pack stuff up...go to camp and then be a bride's maid in september and then move up there...probably for a long time....and the only thing that could keep me in california would be love....and i have high doubts of that ever coming to me here....well, i think i'm gunna go.....i have decorating to do...

wow....um.....at least i know....i have a lot to say....and yet....somehow, i have nothing to say....but i CAN say..."ok, i understand..."....its hard to write anything....so i'm just gunna find another dumb questionare.... 1. Time you started: 3:38pm 2. Name: Pearl 3. Nickname: Pearly, Pearly-Q, luke calls me "pearlz" 4. Number of candles on your last birthday cake: 18 5. When did you celebrate your last birthday?: December 7th, 2004...doy... 6. Have any pets: yes three dogs and four cats 7. Hair color: blonde 8. Body Piercing: ears twice 9. Eye color: blue 10. How much do you like your job: your mom likes her job! 11. Hometown: uuuum 12. Current Residence: mt. mesa 13. Favorite food: uuuuuuuuuuuuuum... 14. Been toilet papering? no...i don't exactly have friends to do that with... 15. Loved someone so much it made you cry? ......yes....back then and now... 16. Croutons or bacon bits? your mom likes bacon bits! 17. Favorite day of the week: ...................days are days....what does it matter if i like one more than the other..... 18. Favorite word or phrase: uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuum....shut up....i hate you...and your mom....i don't have one....so back off.... 19. Favorite restaurant: ..................i don't have one of these either....food is food.... 20. Favorite flower: white tulips...and red roses...blah blah blah... 21. Favorite sport to play: i don't..... 22. Favorite drink: water... 23. Favorite ice cream: neopolitan....plain jane am i.....crap....i'm such a loser... 24. Disney or Warner Bros: .......does it matter? 25. Favorite fast food : In-N-Out....its the only fast food i'll eat...and last monday i decided not to eat red meat anymore....so...uuum...i'll eat the fries... 26. What color is your bedroom: red and every other color....but theres a lot of red... 27. How many times did you fail your drivers test: haven't taken it yet...yeah so what....bite me.... 28. Have you ever spent Valentines Day with some one?....no.....does this make me a loser?....if so...i hate you....but i hate your mom already.... 29. Which store would you choose to max out your credit card?: "CREDIT CARDS ARE THE DEVIL'S WAY OF GETTING IN YOUR HOME!"...i don't know who said this....but i'm sure its been said... 30. What do you do most often when you are bored? i daydream....of things i wish i were doing..... 31. Ever been to Africa? nope 32. Ever seen Africa on TV?: your mom's in africa! 33. Most annoying thing people ask me: "whats going on between you an ****?".....my answer..."nothing...yet ( ; " 34. Bedtime: 8:30-11:00.....yeah...i go to bed at eight-thirty some times!....i get sleepy! DON'T YOU!? 35. If you were stuck on a deserted island, what one thing would you take with you? uh...a life saving pack only 24 payments of $19.95 it includes a years worth of dried foods, three flare guns, and life raft, 3 years worth of matches, yoursignificant other, a two way radio, a cell phone, a bed, monkey repelant, a flash light, 200 extra bateries, clean clothes, and 4 years worth of toiletries!....its very handy and well worth the payments....! 36. Do you have a bf/gf/crush?....crush.... 37. Who?.....i know, he knows...you, will not... 38 Favorite TV show: we don't really have tv.... 39. Last person you went out to dinner with? uuuum...i went to lunch with mum, dad, and the Tayler family (pastor and fam) 40. Time you finished? 3:55 pm....go away...

this, my life...sucks!

my senior quote---> Dont' forget: love always believes the best of everyone. the events of today...wishy-washy Current mood: mellow well, i don't feel like writing a bunch...so i'll keep it short and sweet...these are the events of today....wishy-washy, emotional, heart-breaking....here we go... *ran to the bus stop after only blow-drying my horrid hair...no straightening...(bad hair day) *had ariana frenchbraid my hair in first period to make it look some-what presentable....(got compliments on it all day!) *dustin's little brother (kindergartener) came in class cuz home ec's little buddies were going trick-or-treating....he ran and jumped in dustin's arms...total emotional moment...i cried because it was so beautiful...just the look on their faces....:warmfuzzy: *choir, rachel wasn't there...she didn't show off....and it was all good... *nutrition...blackberry pie...nuff said... *government...nothing great *computers....freshmen acted up...i got invited to gorgette's birthday party... *lunch...watched april play basketball...i ate almost all her chips...hee hee hee... *passing from lunch to english...tera asked me a bunch of questions about her make-up and hair....(she started using make-up and straightened her hair) i tried to help her get over her insecurities by telling her that she looked good....she asked me the same stuff....like 50 times...(i swear! some of these sophomores think i'm the greatest thing that ever walked the earth...its disturbing) *english....proved luke wrong on Sonnet 130's meaning...hee hee hee... *drama...turned in my monologue...practiced monologue with veronica...i helped her with hers....tried to get her to speak with more feeling and meaning....she did better after i showed her how...took a test....meh... *night school...mrs. patty brought us chocolate...mr deJong...he brought us fruit....i chose and orange... no matter how much i wash my hands they still smell like it!....talked about cereal and my preferences... *at vons....heard a song, one of the ones you just have an impulse to dance to...like slow dance...i went to look for nathan...then i remembered that i hated him.... *way home mum pretty much told me i have tons of major issuses that need to be fixed....i cried cuz she was so mean....dad told her...she snapped at him, told him to "shut up" and told me to get over it... *ran to my room when i got home, flopped on my bedand cried even more....realized i was having trouble breathing so i went to the bathroom when i heard her walk in the other room and blew my nose....and cried a little more... *put groceries away...mum seemed to have forgotten she yelled at me... *got on net...apologized to nathan....he accepted and apologized back...next time we'll dance... *ate....cleaned off table...then got back ont he net and here i am...typing all this...and telling luke all my problems at the same time.... ~HOWS THAT FOR MULTI-TASKING!?~ -pearl- looks like i wrote a lot anyways!

hey! so yeah....there may be a new guy in the picture soon....i don't know though....it'd be neat though....i wont tell his name or anything...not till something actually happens....but i WILL tell you he lives in bakes....cool huh!? -pearl-

my words to live by: people don't waste your love....store it up for some one that deserves it.... -pearl-

i'm tired....and i'm gunna go clean my room....its so messy! i've been too busy lately to clean it... -pearl-

i'm dieing....yeah....i'm sick....i'm all congested and hurting. i stayed home from church so i wont infect anyone...lol....like the old people don't need to be sick...lol.... -------------------------- i was kinda sick yesterday....so i knew this was coming....speaking of yesterday! it was so great! even though i was hecka tired....i got to beat up on mikey....i do feel really bad though...we were moving in the new pastors and they had this little table they took apart cuz they didn't have a place for it....so we took the legs and were beating eachother with them...we were sitting on the couch and i took his legs away from him....and beat him with mine...hee hee hee....i had to make it known to the new pastors that i could hold my own....and that i'm REALLY not a WUSS!.....poor mikey though....he really brings it on himself....like when we were playing hacky....well i was sorta just standing in the circle while everyone else tried to kick the hack....well, the hack went into the bush so michael bent over in the bush to get it...hee hee hee...so i PUSHED HIM IN! BAM!!! lol.....the bush scratched his face like....kinda deep....and he was bleeding....i felt SO BAD!!! so i left him a lone and kinda kept to myself....i still feel really bad....he told me its ok because it was really funny....and man! IT WAS!!! i laughed so hard! i almost peed my pants it was so funny! omg....yeah.... ok...thats all my fingers can type for now! talk to ya'll laters!!! WOOO ~the felly baddy and infectiousy one~ -pearl-

ok, so last night was the football game...our first since the last one was canceled.... -during the pep rally, it was going to be the peprally where we totally creme the freshman....but well, all the water balloons and silly string had been passed out but erica got suspended so we decided not to....i gave the three water balloons i had (morganna's mine and andrew's) to luke...and i kept my silly string....the freshman were safe....i guess....but thas just gunna make us hate them so much more! and we totally already HATE no despise NO! LOATHE!!! the juniors!....first THEY got candy land for their home coming float! which totally blows! and then they're having JUNIOR BABES!!!?? WTF!? thats something that happens when you're a senior! so we're making a petition against it! also! they're planing "junior ditch days!" WTF!!?? that also is a SENIOR THING!!! we had to wait! so should they!!! so jason (our class president) was saying we should plan a senior ditch WEEK!...poor jason...yesterday made his job harder...well, i'm on float committe....so is breanna and andrew....i'm still debating whether i should do powder puff again this year...i kinda just wanna stay on the float committe....but i don't want it to be one of those things i'm gunna regret for the rest of my life....i think i'll do it... ok so! back to last night.....anyways....ok, so last night was, duh, the football game....we lost horribly! 41-0!!! OMG! WE SUCK!....but thats not important! here's what happened : i got attacked by a woman about 50 years old...the kids behind me threw a piece of ice down, so i threw it backwards....not looking. and i guess it hit this woman right next to them, so i'm talking to andrew and all of a sudden she chucks he water at me....my whole right side is soaked! they all pointed to wayne so i got up and poured my water on his head. the woman is cracking up but i think nothing of it. wayne was telling me it was her...but i didn't believe him.after the game i asked this guy, ryan....and it turns out it WAS the woman! i was really mad...and then i still had silly string in my purse...and kevin took it and got me and andrew....but mostly me...it was all in my hair....so gross...so very gross! but i got to talk to andrew and it was good, i haven't really talked to him in SO LONG....well, i've talked to him...but ya know....not that much....i like having guy friends.....especially cus you don't have to worry about what they think of you...

yeah....never mind

hee hee hee.....i miss you too! ~i love my prince~ -pearl-

the below is an excerpt from my brain... ------------------------- hmmm....ok....you told me to write to you on here...so i am.... uuuuuuuuuuh.....i'd really like to talk to you...like voice to voice....since its almost impossible to do it face to face...i can call you.....but i'd need a number....i have free long-distance on the weekends...and i'd very much like to talk to you voice to voice...i don't know why...but its important to me...so please...if i'm still on here....when you get back....i'd really like a number.... ~i still love you~ -pearl- ~i might have to go eat soon....so please stay on till i come back....~

i'm so tired! i've been going non-stop this week... sunday: church all day! monday: went to the river and ate crap...i have a total of 12-13 bruises! tuesday:i had normal school, then night school! wednesday: school then church thursday: regular school then night school friday: school....then ihave no clue what i did.....but it wasn't rest! today....i painted/got ignored tomarrow: CHURCH!!! THE WHOLE DAMN CYCLE STARTS OVER!!!!! ----------------- ~tune in next time for the continuation to this epic drama we like to call Pearl's Life~ ~will she ever get time to sleep? and what about that guy!?~ -pearl-

i hate jon davidge.... we watched a film on september 11th today in government....and he made fun of it the whole time! he didn't even stop to think of who's feelings he was hurting! I HATE HIM I HATE HIME I HATE HIM!!!!! -pearl- ~go lick poisonous frogs!~

i like school....hee hee hee....i like people....well...some....hee hee hee... -pearl-

i'm gunna go die...ok...i'm tired...and i'm lonely...i have no friends....

TODAY was so great....fun, fun, fun!....mom and i went to bakersfield....shopping ya know....mom didn't have a whole lot she was shopping for so she had money to do whatever with....SOOOO...hee hee hee... FIRST!!! we went and had lunch at Jonny Rockets....it was ok....i really liked the decor and the way they put a happy face on the little ketchup platter they give you for your fries....i didn't really like the burger...it was, well, maybe just cuz i never eat when i go shopping and it just....it was different, and plus that guy kept looking at me....so i played with my food....and made my ketchup platter a girl...hee hee hee....i ate some of the hamburger but then just ate the top bun and the tomatoe....i'm a little weird i guess....i'll admit that.... NEXT!!! we went and saw spiderman 2....mom, for the first time; me, for the second time...there was this guy who came in with his little brothers and there was a preview for Catwoman....after the preview he goes "MAN! THAT WAS HOT!!!"....so naturally i busted up laughing and mom just held hers in....well, when the movie got started and they showed spiderman w/o his shirt i'm like "MAN! THAT WAS HOT!!!" mom hits me and starts busting up, while that guy sitting down two more rows from us turned around....i didn't noticed but mom did....after the movie he kept looking at me....maybe he was glaring....i don't care... THEN!!!....we went to the mall....walked in Old Navy and it took me like 5 minutes to find a pair of jeans that make me look OH SO bootylicious! *rolls eyes*....then we got back in the car and went to Costco and got gas... THEN!!!...we went to wal-mart...i got a belt, undies, and bras.....and some binders....they're really neat ones...like they have stars and flower shapes cut out....any ways i like them.... THEN!!!...we went to Trader Joes....and got some chocolate soy milk for april, and some of those yummy Potpouri chips that lasted about five minutes.....we got some Organic Orange Mango Soda.....and....hmm...oh yeah.....then we got the the register....ok they name the registers after places! they even have "The Mighty Kern River" (where WE live)...ok, we get to the register and the guy goes "hi how are you guys today?" i'm said VERY QUIETLY "fine"....cuz ya know....ok if you know me! i talk to you!....but i wont really if i don't know you...i'll just talk really quietly....i don't know why....ANY WAYS! he asks my mother "is she always this quiet?"....my mom goes "no, actually you can never get her to shut up! she's always talking!"....later in the parking lot: me:"why'd he ask that?" mom:"he was flirting with you!" me: "was he?!" mom: "yes! can't you tell when a guy is flirting with you!?" me: "no" mom: "if grandma was with me do you think he would have asked me if she was 'always' that quiet" me: "hmmm, i guess not..." THEN!!! we went to Food Max, and these like little 13 year old lookin' girls MADE FUN OF ME!!! OF ME!!! ME!!! ME!!! WTF!?....they go "look at her Shirley Temple hair....what is she trying to recapture her youth or something!?".....ok, mom said i look much older, but PLEASE!!! "RECAPTURE MY YOUTH???!!!" (excuse me! my curls are ALL NATURAL BABY!!!) i told mom never to buy me a gun.....she suggested i should get a whip...that wouldn't put me in jail and cause permanent damage....then i tols her that if i had to go through a bag-check for whatever reason people would be like "ya kinky freak!" anyways...then we came home and here i am.....lol....a very eventful day.....but i swear! i'm so not that hot! not for people to be staring and it is a LITTLE emberrassing when your mother is the one to point it out....arg....it is somewhat encouraging....but i will NEVER look like, well, what i think is pretty....lol....ok i need sleep so yeah.... ~she got some honeydue and some spicey canteloupe chapsticks!~ -pearl-