09/12/09

Good day.

Do you mind if I smoke in here?

No.

It's my last one, I'm trying to quit, but, like most things, I'm sure I'll give up.

Why do you think that is?

No ambition, probably. I just don't care enough. Probably for the same reason I don't wear a seat belt.

I don't think it has anything to do with ambition. You just need motivation.

Motivate me, then.

I can't. I can preach the risks, but I'm sure you already know them.

I do. I don't care, like I said.

Why don't you wear a seat belt?

It makes life interesting.

Aren't you afraid of getting a ticket, or getting into an accident?

No.

Why not?

Why? Why be afraid of anything?

Our fears make us human.

Maybe, I guess. I don't know.

Do you fear death?

I have accepted death as a part of life. We're all already dead. It's just a matter of how you do it.

Do what?

Live. Some people lead happy successful lives, some more depressing ones. Some get married, some live alone. Some people do drugs, some go to church. I don't think anything really matters, unless you are hurting other people in the process.

Do you hurt people?

I have, in the past.

Not any more?

No. I used to be different than I am now. Outwardly depressed and grumpy. I am now outwardly happy.

But what about on the inside?

It doesn't matter what's on the inside. The outside is what counts.

Why do you think that?

Because if you smile people will think you're happy. If you frown, they'll think you're sad. Body language is also key.

So why not just be happy then?

Who says I'm not.

You just did.

No, I said that I was outwardly happy. People see me and assume that I am happy, not unhappy. Can we stop saying happy, I hate the word.

Sure. That's it for now.

Yeah.

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epic, point blank. kudos
[Anonymous (67.87.188.110)]
Wow. The troubled soul of inner conflict embodied in the most casual conversation. Kudos.