It has been a while since I have updated my diary, so here I am updating everyone with what has been going on with me. It is official, I finally got to meet the girl that I was telling everyone about! It was great. She called me last night and asked me to come over to hang out with her and I gladly excepted. I drove to her house about 7:30 last night. When I got to the town where she lives I got lost, I couldn't find her house, it was aweful, I was hoping that she didn't think I stood her up. But, to much suprise I actually managed to find it after being lost for about 15 minutes. I got to her house and I met her parents and we sat down and watched a movie, she asked me to pick out a movie so I did, I picked out Varsity Blues, which I have seen a million times, but it is one of my favorites! Well, then her brother showed up and I met him, he was home visiting for the weekend from college. The night that we shared together was great, not only was she as beautiful as her pictures showed me she was, but she was even more beautiful in person! I was very happy with what I had in my sites! She was wonderful! Now all I can think about is her! I cannot wait until I get to spend some time with her again, because I would love spending every moment that I can with her. I do know that she was happy with what she saw in me, which to my surprise was awesome, I am glad that she likes me. Now I am really looking forward to being her man and making her happy, and her being my woman and her making me happy. I just hope that this between me and her work out, because she seems like she has her head on her shoulders right and she seems like she would be a wonderful woman to spend a long relationship with, and I look forward to that with her! Well that is about all the good news that I have about me that has been going on! But in two weeks, I am going to go watch WWE Raw from Corpus and I am excited, I can't wait. Well that is it for now! I am gone for now but not forever! Have a wonderful day. Much love, peace and happiness to everyone! Laters!

Well it is now official, I am having a really shitty day! I know everyone knows about the girl that I have been telling everyone about. Well, I just saw something that made me feel really shitty. I was looking forward to meeting this girl, but now that will never happen since she is now taken. We have a lot in common and I know that I wanted a friendship, but I was also hoping that more would come out of it. Now I guess we will never know. I would feel really awkward if I ever met her, because I would feel like I would be in someone else's space and that would make me feel really uncomfortable. So therefore I could never meet her. But I tell you one thing, BEING SINGLE FUCKING SUCKS! I hate being single. But oh well, I have been rejected once, and I am sure that I will be rejected again, so therefore I am not worried, I will survive. Oh well. Well I guess that is it for now. I am gone for now, but not forever. Until next time, much love, peace and happiness to everyone! Hope everyone has a better day then I did! Later!

I have really never been the type of person to walk up into a public place and just start talking to someone that I have never met before, especially girls! I have always been the shy type of guy so it is really hard for me to get dates. I don't know what it is about me, because I have always been told that I am a good looking man, but I don't feel that way about myself sometimes because I have such a hard time meeting women because I am almost scared to talk to them. I think it is the fact that I do not like rejection. As a matter of fact, I am scared to death of being rejected. What could I possibly do to get over this is what I really would like to know. I have always been told that it is easy to get dates if you just be yourself and initiate conversation with the opposite sex, but it is so hard for me to do! I have tried to just initiate conversation before, but it got me nowhere, not even a friendship out of it so I feel rejected when that happens. But anyways enough about that! I have been talking to this girl online now for almost a month, I enjoy talking to her! I have never met her in person, but I have asked her to meet me and go on a date with me to dinner, bowling and maybe a movie this up comming weekend. She told me we will see when it gets here so I am "Hoping" for the best! I would really like to meet her, because we have a lot in common. I would just like to have a chance to get to know her better and see if anything could happen out of it. But I do not want to rush her, I want it to be on her terms, when she feels like she is ready to meet me, so maybe one of these days we can actually get together and just have fun together whether it be a friendship or a relationship. But I am not going to rush into the relationship part until we both feel like that is what we want to do, so for now I just want to have the friendship part and go out on dates together! Well I gotta go for now, but not forever, so have a good night and I will be back soon!

I really don't know anymore, I have given up hope that I am ever going to meet someone. Maybe it is just me being in my depressed state of mind, hell I really don't know. I do know that it sucks being stood up and it sucks to be used(not that anyone has in a while, but still), and it also sucks that I am told I am too nice all the damn time. I really don't know anymore. I do know that all I have going for me is my job, my health, and my family. I don't have any friends where I live that I can go and hang out with, it sucks going to places when you can't go with someone that you know. And most of all it sucks being lonely all the time! I don't ever go and do anything, all I do is go to work, come home, go eat supper with my dad, come back home and that is it! I need some excitement in my life, and I wish that I could find someone that would be willing to have some excitement with me. But, I really don't know anymore! I know that I need friends to get me out of the house because I am starting to go crazy being at home all the time. Well, I guess that is enough whinning now, so I am gone for now, but not forever, I'll be back! Much love, peace and happiness to everyone!

I had a great day today, I got to talk to the girl that I was telling everyone about. She is such a wonderful person to talk to, she brightens my day everytime I get to talk to her! She is a great person. I could be having the crappiest day in the world and she brings a smile to my face when I see her log on and she says, "Hi darlin," to me. I was asking her tonight where she likes to eat at and we like to eat at a lot of the same places, so we really do have a lot in common. I can't wait until I get to meet her, cause I know that we would have a lot of fun together. Other then that I had a pretty regular day today, I went to work this morning, today was my third day at my new job! I like it a lot, because not only does my dad work there, I know a lot of the people that I work with. They make the day go by a whole lot faster because they like to horse around a lot and they make it fun! Other then that I haven't done nothing today just the same ole', same ole'. Well until I get back, everyone have a great night and may god be with all the hurricane victims in Louisiana, Mississippi, and Alabama, may they all be safe and I wish them the best in recovering from this disaster of a storm. Have a good night everyone. I am gone for now, but not forever!