Things I wanna do before I turn 21: Sleep In a Hammock Road Trip Camp On The Beach Fall In Love Act Go Under a Waterfall Meet a Band Sing in Front of People Drive Meet Someone Amazing Write a Song Get Closer With My Parents Go To Cosmotech Go Skinny Dipping Ride In a Hot Air Ballon Milk a Cow Ride a Horse Learn to Love Myself Win an Award Get Closer With My Grandparents Learn How To Speak French Fluently Go to Paris Go to Australia Sucker Punch Someone In the Face See One of the ''Worlds Largest'' Get Lost Get Drunk Vote Make Out With a Guy Who Doesnt Speak English Drive At 140 MPH Ball Room Dance

oh my goodness! im soo excited for prom! tomorrow im going dress shopping tomorrow with saskia! so excited! and hopefully im getting the hummer limo! heck yes! yup thats all i got for now. yay! love - natalie xoxo -

im a bitch

images for blogs images for blogs images for blogs images for blogs images for blogs images for blogs couldnt find prince eric but i would have put him on here :D :D im so obsessed

its been over 7 months. today is the 1st x-mas without him. it doesnt seem like he is gone. but it still hurts. does it ever go away? it was weird seeing his name on the paper in church that said "In Memory Of..." it still doesnt seem real. dean didnt even call today. its just weird. i dont know what else to say

whoa! its almost x-mas! i got some kick ass gifts from my friends! let me list! kyle p - dory beanie baby kyle s - blink 182 guitar book, candy and a condom chrissy - spongebob flexiy thing, kick ass necklace, key chain, and ice cream sandwich lip balm nicole - earrings, umberto shampoo and conditoner, huge turtle (soo good!) and play dough helena - 4 awesome shirts! and straightening hair gunk thats hot pink! nice!!!! aww man i love it sooo much!!! i hope they loved what i got them too :D oh and saskia is ordering her friends gifts (including me) from freakin germany! how kick ass is she!! yay! ok peace for now :D merry christmas and happy new year!!!!! - natalie xoxo -

i can never live up to her standards. im always disapointing her. he gets to go everywhere and do nothing. i have to do everything and go to one place a month. i know im the only girl but its still bull shit. not fair. i hate him. ill never be good enough for her no matter what i do. on another note im loving my new friends. i still love my old ones to but i love this new fast change of pace and being able to know whats going on and being envolved and busy. i love my new best friend. he is so awesome and i love helping him out with his problems. i love being busy all the time. im loving my new life. i love how ive changed. i know that some people hate it but im happy and to me right now thats all i really care about. for once im really happy and i feel older. im finally growing up thanks you guys :D and on another note she got laid off. we are broke poor. thats about it. - natalie xoxo - oh and one more thing i miss the fuck out of morgan, i wish patty would call me and let me see her. she is 5 now. im sure she hasnt gotten so big. she probably doesnt remember me, her own aunt. its been more than a year. i dont think i will ever see her again. i miss you morgan. i wish i could see you again.

my self portrait in words when i look at myself i see a girl who knows how to hides things from the world. I've learned how to fake a smile and fool even the closet of my friends. I also see a caring person whos heart is so big she will believe whatever she is told and she'll let almost anyone in. She gives to many chances because she forgets what its like to feel hurt. When I look at myself i see someone who wants to do everything, someone who knows she could do everything but she holds herself back because she is afraid to find out what people will think of her. This girl would like to tell everyone about herself but she knows that she will only get ridduculed for it so she keeps it all inside. this is my self portrait.

yes???

check it out im rocking steady to the beat in my head it goes oh oh oh then its 3 am on the corner and im wearin my leather and this dude comes up to me ans be like sup punk and im like yeah whateva what do u think about that? whatever

so thats whats hot dogs! ME: ewww NICOLE: really?

HELLOGOODBYE random THE STARTING LINE *MY FAVE!!* FALL OUT BOY AND A FEW RANDOM BIG ONES :D peace out for now bitches

i totally made it! yeah thats right! I LOVE KENNY!!!!!!!! im gonna get married my name is now natalie vasoli!