so im writing to you from zaccaroos laptop, in rouge hill. im here for the week, cos i miss him, and this way atleast i can have some time to see him. but hes gone from 6 am til like 7 p.m and i stay downstairs with gramma. creepy, well i should eat. bye ily imy -cassiexox

i miss zac he works all week. every week. i see him on weekends. i miss friends. my oma died yesterday she was everything i want to be, she was everything to me, she was more than a realative, she was my life, my hero. ily -cassiexox

so im going to PTBO to visit my grandparents, they are quite old it will be boring then my mum is taking me on a shopping spree in value village. and i am going to get lots of things with dinosaurs on it to make a new purse to go with my corset except with dinosaurs on it. cool? i love zac i love you -casseexox

i am field tripping in downtown teedot, im happy:) i feel good im in my favorite color, grreeeennn i have a green jean skirt and a grreen teeshirt and a green headband and a green bow, plus green eyeshadow:) i love greeen i love zac ily -casseexox

ew. i feel gross. i almost passed out today at school im pretty sure its a stomach thing. like flu or something. so im making a story site. except on sitdiary. its a bad story cos i wrote it. whaddya expect? ily -casseexox

yahoo! im off grounding tomorrow i have sweet hangout dates with zac tomorrow i get to finish my corset tomorrow im looking forward to tomorrow i love my zac more than words i thought id start a gay ass story sitdiary. its in the making ill post it once i get it up and running 31 days to my birfdae seventeen is a sexy number they only want you when you're seventeen, when you're twenty-one you're no fun. ily -casseexox

so im grounded and this has beeen a very productive week thus far. i have made a skirt a shirt a corset bodice an art project and a painting but now its friday. and i miss my zac terribly. he went to scarborough for the weekend. and he wont be online. and i cant call him. im devastatingly more alone than i have ever been in my entire shitty life. i love him more than anything. more than he will ever know, and i miss him so bad. this is really pathetic, because he left at 6. and it is now 622. so my birthday is in 34 days. 34 days until im seventeen. 35 days until my shopping trip to teedot. and in five days me &zaccee will have been together for 4 months, i adore him more than i have ever adored anything or anyone in the world. he is my everything...i miss him...

so 7 days into my march break i have done these things got hammered was stoned for 4 days had sleepovers bought princess accessories got a sup[er cute bluecat pack-a-pack bought a baby bottle drank cofffeee ate cake like a new born at the grand opening of the library got kaylaboo+jenn grounded didn't get caught for the bacardi shots or sour puss missed my boyfriend unbeleivably things still to do hang out with boyfriend zac mayhaps get drunk once more steal the restr of zacs march break bwahaha -cassandrahxox♥™

so update.. no more josh i heart zac yah ima heartbreaker DEAL WITH IT! haircut, dyed purpley red, new hairstyle! hangoutts tomorrow with zac my parents wont be home lol well thats basically it i love you; -cassandrahxox♥™

aha i am feeling very cock-ish and again math is ew but this time there are no crickets and this is the last day for math summatives i am not done and i don't want to finish it cos i'm lazy i love kaylaboo i love you; i love josh; -cassandrahxox♥™

ew there are like a bajillion crickets in the hall jennifurrrr tried to make me walk down the hall and i said ewwwww so yah math sux and is so boring ne.hu i love you;i love josh; -cassandrahxox♥™

i miss josh and i broke up with alicia so yah but i miss josh he lives in wisconsin he has an awful funny accent and he called me and we talked for hours and then my cell phone died cos it ran out of minutes i miss josh i love you; -cassandrahxox¢¾¢â

i feel this is going to be quite a long entry, so here goes.. i am in love with my girlfriend alicia she is my everything, she even made the picture i use as my header for mex3 we started dating on the 28th and i love her more than my life, ooh photobucket me and ah-lee-shh-ah♥ my sign for my loverr; my loverrrrrrrrr♥ and that's my beautiful girl, and i heart her more than anything :) i love you; -cassandrahxox♥™

I DYED MY HAIR BLONDE! YAY FOR MY BLONDE HAIR i love you; -cassandrahxox♥™

yahoo! 6 days til santafce i absopositively love that santa man he is wonderful! :) i love you; -cassandrahxox♥™

i = a very bored girl, yah i'm in class and bored, shitless fuck!!! i am going exciting, and learning to knit after school and then i am going sweet emo FISHING with danielle in dan the man's basement aha..:O! yah you wish you wwere as cool as me aha knitting and emo FISHINGNESS love you; -cassandrahxox♥™

i love the emo parody music video it's great and the guy talking to his diary sounds just like johnny aha or john-it jack-son aha it's mycrazyvideos.com/video_emo_401.html go see it's great i was just wondering what the fuck are emo girls supposed to do? i mean emo guys get girl pants and making out with other emo boys but emo girls? get nothing? aha i laugh at emo kids although i am told i am one i still laugh at them.. love you; -cassandrahxox♥™ EDIT:// i am dyeing my hair yay i'm doing the front white, and the rest black..when i finally go out and buy black hair dye lol aha yay excited for hair dye

i figured i'd post some poetry so here goes staring at my blank arm wondering what to write i somehow find the courage on this dark weariless night staring at your picture wondering what went wrong tears of remorse fall down these are my suicidal love songs i grip the blade in my trembling hand my open window; wide feel the air;the rush the head lights gleam and it shines the ardrenaline hits me i slowly stick in the blade i carve slashes words and symbols until the pain does fade the blood is running faster now[thicker] a burning searing pain the blade is cool, the pain is hot outside my window, it starts to rain i do not dare close the window but step out into the open night i sit on the roof in the rain on this massochistic lonely night i wash off all the blood salty water enters my veins clear the blade, taste the blood drip down to the passing lanes so i lay there, in the rain quietly i cry drowning in the blood secretly i'm longing to die i crawl back inside my attempt has failed hide in my room the door has been nailed the telephone rings i don't feel like answering it's you and you say you love me and your leaving death is fast approaching now blood fills my ears &now i'm wishing i had someone to kiss away the tears you run through the rain you know something is not right sudden terror strikes you in the middle of the night you knock on the door i feel too weak to get up you run inside, to my room break open the door then stop bloody, you find my body cold and dead quietly you hold me cry and your tears fall then kiss my forehead my poetry love you; -cassandrahxox♥™ EDIT:// go here it is funneh but true http://www.mycrazyvideos.com/video_emo_401.html love you; -cassandrahxox♥™

so today i have smoked like a chimney made plans with my acid date friend to watch emperor's new groove and get drunk in my basement and played feel my hand with quintin p.s-i have a puffy ami yumi profile on myspace love; -cassandrahxox♥

i wish i was beautiful i wish i was worth something i wish he cared i wish for a story book romance i wish i had someone to love me i wish i had someone to kiss away the tears i wish i had this cast gone i wish so bad it hurts love; -cassandrahxox♥