well today was a horrible day really. woke up... had a little to eat.. then I had to leave to go to work. I have to repaint the building(big house)... in the hot sun... with a brush and roller... not fun. I did that for around 4 hours. My hands and shirt were blue. so was my mind. After work I came home and had to clean up the garage because I have been working on my car alot and it was a mess. again.. not fun. and now im here.. tired as hell.. with nothing to do at all. Erin is away with her mom and a friend up north at a campsite, definentally having a better time then me. I wish I could go with her when she goes up there. I really, really do. I worry about her.. I hope her parents trust me enough soon to let me come when they go. I hope. so tonight I am probably just going to lay around and stare at the wall. Cuz I'm dead tired. I have to call Erin later. I miss her tons and its only been one day. I LOVE YOU ERIN!! well.. untill next episode. night. Update I just called her. She didnt pick up her phone. Now all I can think about is where she is and what she is doing. Im not going to sleep well at all.