HATING ME

by jaymelee
Have u ever dumped someone and then wish u didn't and u tell urslef that u hate him soooo much, but deep down u dont and it kills u knowing that he's with someone else? And that everyday all u want to do is cry, stop trying and possibly wanting to die? Well yah they always said that u dont know what u got until u loose it..... it's true I didn't know what I had until I lost it and now this someone is with someone else. Even though I don't want to see it I do, I see them walk in the halls together, laugh together, and touch, and when she's holding him, it's killing me, let my memory be the reason that he can't sleep and everytime he feels her touch, I pray to God it's not enough and that I've touched his heart so deep that he can't shake me because I love him. I HATE MYSELF!!!!!!!!!!!!
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okay, u SERIOUSLY have to get over J! you're a little selfish if u want him to not be happy with the one he truly loves, just because u love him!
[Anonymous]
I hope its not about sqaush, cause if it is, HOLY CRAP. He's happy, its her warmth he feels. The fact is you did dump him. You can't take back what you said no matter what. So this is the part when you pick up the pieces and move on. Life doesn't stand still just because you made a mistake.
P.S. I think he's shaking you. Im really sure its not you're memory keeping him up at night. In fact, he sleeps like a dam log
Ian... correction... you sleep like a log... A log who likes to moon me... (eyes still burning)
okay . . . do u guys realize how wrong it sounds when u talk about sleeping together all the time?! STOP! we really DON'T want details!
funny, we're talking about squash's sex, i mean mooning life on jayme's blog. Maybe she knows why i woke up naked
[Anonymous]
it isn't about josh, josh and i are just friends and will aways be just friends its about someone u dont know named isaac.
[Anonymous]
I know how you feel. I did the exact same thing, but turns out the only reason he said he liked the other girl was to get over me . . . maybe it'll work out. it'll be okay. I pretended I didn't like him but I ended up just wanting him more, and I eventually told myself I liked someone else just to get over him. Don't make that mistake I did.
I know exactly what you are feeling because I went through the same thing last year with my ex. I actually loved him and then I dumped him. I still miss him sometimes and trust me I regreted it more than anything. Stay strong things will work out in the end.