i don't really know what to say. i'm in love but i'm still depressed. i feel like i'm failing my girlfriend by not being there for her. megan made me feel like shit because she hate's me. I like told her everything i trusted her but i guess she hate's me. Then Shay told me that the only reason she went out with me is because i was hot. WHY THE HELL WOULD SHE DO THAT TO ME!!! oh well i'm SUPER happy with the girlfriend i have now :) her name's elly... she's BEAUTIFUL i wish she knew how much she means to me. tonight she did kind of make me sadder than what i was but i got over it... i guess it's what love does to and ass like me.Sometimes i think we would be better friend but i love it when were togather. i asked her out today and promised to love her for ever. and not cheat!!! and Kyla tried to test me today but i told her know... i love elly and nothing could make me cheat on her this time. i love her with all my heart... even though it's black it's all i have to give. i hope she uderstands that. Elly i love you babe