Maybe you don't go to hell for the things you do. Maybe you go to hell for the things you don't do. The things you don't finish. Nobody wants to admit this, but bad things will keep on happening. Maybe that's because it's all a chain, and a long time ago someone did the first bad thing, and that led someone else to do another bad thing, and so on. You know, like that game where you whisper a sentence into someones' ear, and that person whispers it to someone else, and it all comes out wrong in the end. But then again, maybe bad things happen because it's the only way we can keep remembering what good is supposed to look like -Jodi Picoult, Nineteen Minutes The only way of knowing a person is to love them without hope. -Walter Benjamin You change for two reasons. Either, you learn enough that you want to or you've been hurt enough to have to

i fint it so hard to explain that a boy lke you can understand a girl so complicated like me. nobody ever really takes the chance. to take a close glance they just see the smile and eyes and want nothing then a blast from the past almost like a one night stand. But your different. you opened up and shared and ill i ever wanted was a guy that cared. someone i could actually trust. But i got scared and pushed you away you held n tight you never went away. im glad your still standing here today i almost gave up till you brought hope back into my eyes thanks for being my everything. for being "that one guy"

When the worst case scenario comes true, clinging to hope is all we've got left. Grey's Anatomy:: Meredith: You ever feel like you feel like you're disappearing? Izzie: All the time. Meredith: Why can't I just be the happily ever after person? Why can't I believe in that? (you and me) we could be made for this (just wait and see) we might be made for this -Hellogoodbye [love this song] When you are the one, the one that lies close to me Whispers "Hello, I miss you quite terribly." I fell in love, in love with you suddenly. That there's no place else I could be, but here in your arms -Hellogoodbye When you go, I'll let you be, But you're killing everything in me -Jimmy Eat World best friends understand every single word youre saying. when youre crying & speaking gibberish

When you drop a glass or a plate to the ground, it makes a loud crashing sound. When a window shatters, a table leg breaks, or when a picture falls off the wall, it makes a noise. But as for your heart, when that breaks, it’s completely silent. You would think as it’s so important it would make the loudest noise in the whole world, or even have some sort of ceremonious sound like the gong of a symbol or the ringing of a bell. But it’s silent and you almost wish there was a noise to distract you from the pain.--Cecelia Ahern How she'd be soothed how she'd be saved if he could see, She needs to be held in his arms to be free. But everything happens for reasons that she will never understand. 'Til she knows that the heart of a woman will never be found in the arms of a man All I would like in my life, what I wish for so very much , is to someday have the strength and be free of the resentment and anger that I carry around with me like Linus' blanket for just long enough to become one of those people who is better than the worst thing that ever happens to her. -- Elizabeth Wurtzel In life, you can't get caught up wishing for something that won't happen. You've just gotta move on to the next best thing. - The OC What is it you said to the kid? The world ain't all sunshine and rainbows. It's a very rough, mean place... and no matter how tough you think you are, it'll always bring you to your knees and keep you there, permanently... if you let it. You or nobody ain't never gonna hit as hard as life. But it ain't about how hard you hit... it's about how hard you can get hit, and keep moving forward... how much you can take, and keep moving forward. If you know what you're worth, go out and get what you're worth. But you gotta be willing to take the hit. -Rocky School is still the same.. there's still that one guy that you get up and go to school for in the morning. The one with the mysterious confidence that every girl falls for. Those years of school wouldn't have been the same without him. I wouldn't have been the same without him ~ Never Been kissed

just some stuff that reminds me of cocoa, or how i feel right now one of the oldest human needs is having someone to wonder where you are when you don't come home at night. - margaret mead when you are sorrowful look again in your heart, and you shall see that in truth you are weeping for that which has been your delight -kahil gibran you cant be brave if you've only had wonderful things happen to you - mary tyler moore The ultimate measure of a man is not where he stands in moments of comfort and convenience, but where he stands at times of challenge and controversy.- Martin Luther King Jr. It's so hard to forget pain, but it's even harder to remembre sweetness. We have no scar to show for happiness. We learn so little from peace -chuck palahniuk Maybe were not supose to be happy. Maybe gratitude has nothing to do with joy. Maybe being grateful is recognizing what you have for what it is, appreciating small victories admiring the strugle it takes simply to be human. Maybe we're thankful for the familar things we know and maybe we're thankful for the things we will never know. At the end of the day the fact that we have the courage to still be standing is reason enough to celebrate. -Grey's Anatomy

God's Answers It's impossible = All things are possible (Luke, 18;27) I'm too tired = I will give you rest (Matt, 11:28-30) Nobody really loves me = I love you (John, 3:16) I can't go on = My grace is sufficient (II Cor, 12:19) I can't figure things out = I will direct your steps (Prov, 20:24) I can't do it = You can do all things (Phil, 4:13) I'm not able = I am able (II Cor, 9:8) It's not worth it = It will be worth it (Rom, 8:1) I can't forgive myself = I forgive you (IJn, 1:9 & Rom, 8:1) I can't manage = I will supply all your needs (Phil, 4:19) I'm afraid = I have not given you a spirit of fear (IITim, 1:7) I'm always worried and frustrated = Cast all your cares on Me (IPet, 5:7) I don't have enough faith = I've given everyone a measure of faith (Rom, 12:8) I'm not smart enough = I give you wisdom (ICor, 1:30) I feel all alone = I will never leave you or forsake you (Heb, 13:5)

Its been awhile, so i decided to put up some quotes! these aren't by me, just to let ya know! ENJOY! Guys drink to forget about girls. Girls drink to think back about the guy. When guys are in love, they become poor. When girls are in love they become pretty. Guys can forget, but can't forgive. Girls can forgive but can't forget. Guys break up when they feel love from another girl. Girls break up when they feel the separation from their man. Guys feel curiosity towards all girls. Girls feel curiosity towards guys who are interested in them. When guys are heartbroken they try to forget about the girl by going out with another girl. When girls are heartbroken they try to find his characteristics in another guy. But finally, guys wish to be her first love, girls wish to be his last. Words don't seem too come easy when I need them oh-so badly. Here's to playing tug of war with my vocal chords. Trapped mainly by wanting things to be exactly as they are, only better. Leaning out as far as she can, hoping she'll fall soon, so she can stop worrying about whether it will happen or not. -Brian Andreas One does not like to generalize about so many people all at once, but you may be sure that men know nothing about their hearts, whether they be six-and-twenty, or six-and-eighty. -Emma Wait for the right guy, but in the mean time-- have fun with all the wrong ones 11-12-06 You know how when you're making a snow angel and you wanna make it perfect, but you can't cause there's always that hand print when you climb out? Well with him -- there's no handprint -Snow Day 11-13-06 As long as we can love each other, and remember the feeling of love we had, we can die without ever really going away -Mitch Albom, Tuesdays With Morrie 11-20-06 Life is like riding a bicycle. To keep your balance, you must keep moving.-Albert Einstein 11-29-06 Character is made by many acts, but it can be destroyed by a single one.

hey well i just got home from doing one act play auditions, i know its not that huge, but i had fun it was really kewl n crazy lol i really hope i make it in! wish me good luck! =) ~Neen

hey! well i just wanted to let you all know im full-time switching to this diary, my other one has big issues lol so ya! just thot id let ya all know i'll be writing in this one from now on! ~Neen

did i tell you how much u mean to me? you mean more than the world, when everyone was telling me the sky is the limit, u told me why reach for the sky when thers prints on the moon. When people told me i wouldnt survive, u helped me win 1st place. When people said im always here for you, you said heres a kleenex and my shoulder..cry away! When people told me i looked pretty, you said your the most beautiful thing god created. When i was sad, u made me happy. When you were sad, i made a dork of myself just to make u smile just a lil bit, cuz it lit up my world, u may not of known it, but ur the reason im standing today, when everyone told me i hope it gets better, u said its going to get better and im going to help you through this. Your love was the strongest kind ever! Your friendship was the most amazing, and you were my best Friend. You were then, you still are now! and when ur gone you'll be standing right next to me! for i know ill never forget everything that happened between us, i know we werent close at touch, but we were close at heart that it didnt even matter how far apart we were. Take care my friend, Till Then, I cant wait to see you up in Heaven. Love Always, ~Neen

you were the ones who were with me thru thick n thin, u helped me back up when i had fallen to my lowest, u had let me cry on ur shoulder so no1 would notice, the tears that streamed, the hurt that had shown, you were my friends,the most closest ones. we laughed, we cried, we did the most stupidest stuff, but we had fun, n tht was all that mattered the most. the pictures are fading, the time is moving fast, but the memories are oh so vivid, but how long will they last? we were a team, we were a group, we were like 6 girls who had bonded together, to become almost a family to me. I miss those times, Too bad i cant press rewind, but i still see those smiles everyday, that reminded me of the times we cherished the most. I loved you guys then, I still Love ya now, Your My girls, My friends My Family, My Everything at most! by: Janine Hunstad

these arent by me, by other authors just to let people know!! You know you really care when you have to try and convince yourself that you don't. Almost everyone you know, without exception, has their heart all wrapped around someone who will never love them back. I wondered what happened when you offered yourself to someone, and they opened you, only to discover you were not the gift they expected and they had to smile and nod and say thank you all the same. -Jodi Picoult, My Sister's Keeper Your heart just breaks, that's all. But you can't judge, or point fingers. You just have to be lucky enough to find someone who appreciates you . -Audrey Hepburn "What's your biggest secret?" he asked. "Loving you " She whispered. but you are what you love and not what loves you back

i wrote this along time ago but i like it alot so im putting it up again so yea... im the type of girl who wears winni the pooh boxers and a huge baggy shirt and could care less what you have to say because shes just comfy, But when she gets all dressed up and curls her hair just for you shes listening to every word you say to notice if you "noticed." and just those little siple words you say can light up her day make her grin for no apparent reason and have you on her mind constantly. Im the type of girl who wishes she could say that beacuse not many guys take the time to do that or to be there for her. Im the type of girl who hase huge romantic fantasies in her mind but ends up alone watching her friends expierence things shes only dreamd of. Im the type of girl whoe says shes fine no matter whats going on in her personal life and would much rather just see you happy and laughing because thats the type of girl she wants to be.

never judge a book by its cover, you never know what the details inside will tell you. plz dont freak out when u read this i was just angry when i wrote it, its nothing serious. I write my pain on here becuz there is no more room on me, you may not be able to see my scars, they arent above and seen, they are skin deep where only i see, feel, & weep. you cant see it but its there and it hurts more than anyone should ever bare. they say sometimes the pain is so much you go numb, you can never go numb, its always there, always mocking u, saying look at me! im still here! making u feel like shit, why dont u just disappear?! not like your wanted or loved, not like you have some type of importance in this life, is it all worth it in the end? we wont know till......The End. ~Neen

you speak to me like a lullaby, like soft words written on a new, crisp, page. i dont want to let you in, but boy does it get lonely at night, your words make me fall deep in sleep where i smile the most. you know how to get to me and thts what scares me the most, i wish u knew what its like to luv u, maybe then you'd feel the pain i endure from you. your love is the murder lullaby, 1 song, 1 kiss, goodnight. ~Neen

One Girl One girl looking out her window One boy walking down the street He didn't know it at the time But when she saw him her heart skipped a beat. One girl playing outside One boy doing the same He didn't know it at the time But she wanted to find out his name. One girl getting hurt by many boys One boy mending her heart He didn't know it at the time But she loved only him from the start. One girl standing outside One boy asking her out He didn't know it at the time But she never had any doubts. One girl loving a boy One boy loving a girl He didn't know it at the time But he was her world. One girl's heart breaks One boy moves on He didn't know it at the time But her love for him wasn't done. One girl tries to win him back One boy doesn't care He didn't know it at the time But she wouldn't always be there. One girl leaves for college One boy stays where he's at He didn't know it at the time But her heart was breaking in half. One girl's heart is missing One boy has it you see He doesn't know it right now But the two of them are meant to be.

dont you wanna believe? dont you dream of fantasies where everything ends in "happily ever after" with princes and fairies. id like to feel like that again, happy and free but then i wake up knowing it was just a dream, and as a tear streams down my face i know that something so beautiful just doesnt exsist, i get up and go back to the world that is going to kick me out newayz and back to neverland, it is.

this is actually horrible writing but oh well! you know what u wanna do and what u shouldnt do,but dont we all like to have fun? c'mon you cant rock and roll without the partay and all, or can you? can you talk the talk, without having to walk the walk? or do u have to have the whole package in the end? you know what u wanna do so lets skip the rules lets just party and drink booze we will spend the whole night laughing becuz we do what we wanna do. ~Neen

sorry i havent written in a while i dont even know who reads this! lol but i got somethings i need to write in here! dont take em personal ther just the thots that flow out of my head. luv always ~Neen

I'm not giving up on us. Because I know you're my something worth waiting for In another time, in another place all things might have been in place. But for now I'm finding myself right here standing on a rooftop screaming. "Hey world are you listening... listening to me?" I'm here and I'm hurting to begin again. -alkaline trio I need to believe that man and woman love each other. I need to believe that they go home to each other every night, so I can believe that it will happen to me too someday. -Ally Mcbeal In every single letter / in every single word / there will be hidden message about a boy that loves a girl -Boxcar Racer It's like when you meet a person who is just want you've always wanted... its when you meet that person who enjoys doing everything that you enjoy.. and who can stump and interest you.. and stimulate you... its that person who makes you realize why it never worked out with anyone else.. its like meeting that person.. and telling yourself that you wont fall in love with them.. that one way or another you'll keep your heart in some gigantic box in your chest and not allow it to feel a damn thing until you say its okay... lets not fool ourselves.. emotions.. all of them.. are uncontrollable.. you cant keep yourself from crying.. just like you cant stop yourself from falling in love.. and like you cant stop someone from falling out of love.. it happens.. it occurs.. and it sucks -Arminda