will you leave ur name? i dont think you understand, that despite my knowledge and beliefs of everything...everything just isnt real to me. i still feel completely and utterly displaced, i cant help it. theres just some feelings inside that over come my every being sometimes and i cant control it. its like a tidal wave, and the memories swallow me up into a vast ocean of regret and remorse. i am the lost child. i will be alone in the end. HOME thats where the heart is and my heart, is so hard to find. im sorry, from the bottom of my heart, im sorry for everything. im a failure by design. the pressure is just too much...i cant measure up to any of you. and it hurts so bad...it hurts to know that this really isnt mine to claim. this is all just borrowed time. im living in someone elses reality. i need to find my own. ::i dont belong anywhere, and thats how i stay free::