Goodness Gracious...I remember how much of a stress reliever this thing was...can't believe I lost my password. lol. Man i don't know where to start with all my problems. lol. At the begginging I guess. I started to feel bored in the relationship I was in with Trevor. It had been a year and like 4 months, and really, it just wasnt going anywhere. We didn't do anything, and time together just led be to be irritable and i would avoid him so i wouldn't bitch at him for pretty much no reason, but when i avoided him we got into fights anyways, and i realized it was best to just end it, and i tried. 3 times in the same week i tried to tell him i didn't want to be with him. and one night he totally lost it. we were drunk and got into a huge arguement, and i tried to tell him again i didnt want to be with him and he would scream at me and ask me why and i couldnt really give him a straight answer. But what ended up happening was it got to him and he was on his hands and knees crying on my front lawn...where everyone was walking over him and staring at him, and he would turn around and beg me, actually beg me to take him back and i wouldn't i decided to be strong and stick to my choice. Then hew starts crying all over my best friend..."please nicole, just go talk to her, find out why shes doing this to me" and blah blah blah blah blah...but then he starts to get like...mean. and he starts looking at me likes he actually gonna hurt me...i swear i've never been so scared of someone as i was of him. eventually he goes and punches in my garage window and smears the blood all over my neighbours windows...like really it was sick...and he laughed about it too. he was a lunitic. and all i could think was it was me who made him like that...and i love this boy...i really do, even now i must say. I know for a fact that i will always love him in a way. My mom saw that he was too messed up to go home so she let him spend the night at my house, and after he calmed down a bit trevor and i were able to talk like real people. and we took a walk to seven 11 and then went to the park where we sat until the sun came up and talked and talked and talked. we talked about so many things. he told me even if we werent going to be together now, he swore on his life i was going to be the girl he would marry. and he said so many things about our furute together, and im a sucker for these kinds of things, so when we got home, eventually i told him i wanted to work things out with him, and i swear to god i have never seen anyone so happy in my life. he grabbed me and we went to sleep and he didnt let go of me till morning. and then two days later he comes over to my house and tells me he doesn't have feelings for me anymore, and thats its over....so i'm standing there...practically out of my mind with rage and well confused-ness. lol I have never met more of an asshole in my life. i swear it. my bestfriend hung out with him for a day while i was at Folklorama working at the Dutch pavillion, and when i came back i learned that Trevor cheated on me a second time. the first time she sucked his cock, and he told me about that 3 days before my birthday. and the second time i dont know the exact day that it happened but i do know that he called me and told me he was coming to see me and he never did, and thats because he was off fucking some chick. and he also told nicole he was gonna break up with me after he fucked me one more time cause i'm hot. anyways, so thats the asshole at hand. now on to the next. At folklorama, there was this smokin' hot cook and his name was Niel. and wow...just wow....24 y/o, but wow. so me and my friend alaina got to know him and then he brought his friend Mike along, and Mike helped me do dishes one night and i found he was a pretty good guy. so we all hung out that night...insanely fun we all didn't go to bed untill 10 AM the next day. Mike and I kissed that night and we exchanged numbers and whatnot...he wanted to hold my hand and call me babe and stuff like that. and i thought this was moving a little too fast, but didn't really do anything. any ways, we talked a lot and mike and neil took me and alaina and my bestfreind nicole and their bestfriend josh out. it had been decided we were going to a movie, and as soon as we got into the car niel says "you girls feelin 18 tonight?" and i was like "I AM!!!" lol...so they ended up taking us to a fuckin karaoke bar, and i just loved it!! me and alaina were up on that stage singing sooo much, of cource after 5 strawberry daiquiri's....one mint shot.....and a rum and coke...or a rye and coke.. not sure which. so then after all this hanging out and such mike and i shared alaina calls me one day and tells me mike got back together with his ex girlfriend. and now he seems really weird when i talk to him and such...so i dunno what to do. lol. lots of problems huh? well i think ive been at this for almost an hour so i think its time to call it quits for now...lol. Leigh ♥