well... i haven't written since thursday.. and there is much to be added. jade's computer got fucked up so she can't use it to comment me or nick anymore... and nick... i hope you dont mind what i'm saying here. well... anyway.. since i was all confused about last wednesday, i talked to nick about it on thursday night.. and we kind of agreed to be... more than friends... we both wanted it. kris had a party at her house on saturday night, and, miraculously, my father let me go. i figured he had a little something planned for himself... but anyway...we go... kris's parents are gone... till tomorrow i think. nick was there. there was plenty of booze and drugs and stuff like that in general. i'd be amazed if there was one person there that left that party completely sober. around one... at a peak... nick and i left with a little of the goodies and went to my house because he had a headache or something.. i dont even remember. but we went into my room... my dark... quiet room... and we sat on my bed for a while just half talking and half kissing.. twas really very lovely... we had some more to drink... and we started seriously making out... tongue rapes and all... he stuck his hand up my shirt and i put my hand... well yeah... he was rock hard... we ended up having a lovely fuck.its weird to think that after two days of being "more tahn friends" we did that. but it was really great... only bad parta bout getting fucked when you're drunk/high is that you dont remember it too well... but i know it was good... because i was sore when i woke up and i slept till almost noon. and the last time i had good sex i was sore and slept for a long time. nick was still there when i woke up. i thought it was sweet that he didnt leave me. my dad didnt even interrogate me about nick leaving as he stumbled out of his room. i figured he was too hungover to really take it in. well yeah... that's about all that's happened in my life lately.. since thursday when i last.. entered... well i have to go. meeting jade, nick and O at burger king. more ketchup ahahahahhahahahahahhahaha