Oh my god like im flirting with simon!!!

Points Of Authority Forfeit the game / Before somebody else Takes you out of the frame / Puts your name to shame Cover up your face / You can’t run the race The pace is too fast / You just won't last You love the way I look at you While taking pleasure in the awful things you put me through You take away if I give in My life My pride is broken You like to think you’re never wrong (You live what you’ve learned) You have to act like you’re someone (You live what you’ve learned) You want someone to hurt like you (You live what you’ve learned) You want to share what you’ve been through (You live what you’ve learned) You love the things I say I’ll do The way I’ll hurt myself again just to get back at you You take away when I give in / my life My pride is broken You like to think you’re never wrong (You live what you’ve learned) You want to act like you’re someone (You live what you’ve learned) You want someone to hurt like you (You live what you’ve learned) You want to share what you’ve been through (You live what you’ve learned) Forfeit the game / Before somebody else Takes you out of the frame / Puts your name to shame Cover up your face / You can’t run the race The pace is too fast / You just won't last You like to think you’re never wrong (You live what you’ve learned) You want to act like you’re someone (You live what you’ve learned) You want someone to hurt like you (You live what you’ve learned) You want to share what you’ve been through (You live what you’ve learned) You like to think you’re never wrong / forfeit the game (You live what you’ve learned) You want to act like you’re someone / forfeit the game (You live what you’ve learned) You want someone to hurt like you / forfeit the game (You live what you’ve learned) You want to share what you’ve been through / forfeit the game (You live what you’ve learned) life sucks....

OH SH*T!!!! Think i may have failed my biology exam :( i revised this time tho! and i thought i knew everything but totally f**ked up on genetic screening/testing oh god what am i gonna do??!! By Myself What do I do to ignore them behind me? Do I follow my instincts blindly? Do I hide my pride / from these bad dreams And give in to sad thoughts that are maddening? Do I / sit here and try to stand it? Or do I / try to catch them red - handed? Do I trust some and get fooled by phoniness, Or do I trust nobody and live in loneliness? Because I can’t hold on / when I’m stretched so thin I make the right moves but I’m lost within I put on my daily façade but then I just end up getting hurt again by myself [myself] I ask why, but in my mind I find I can’t rely on myself [myself] I ask why, but in my mind I find I can’t rely on myself I can’t hold on To what I want when I’m stretched so thin It’s all too much to take in I can’t hold on To anything watching everything spin With thoughts of failure sinking in If I Turn my back I’m defenseless And to go blindly seems senseless If I hide my pride and let it all go on / then they’ll Take from me ‘till everything is gone If I let them go I’ll be outdone But if I try to catch them I’ll be outrun If I’m killed by the questions like a cancer Then I’ll be buried in the silence of the answer [by myself] [myself] I ask why, but in my mind I find I can’t rely on myself [myself] I ask why, but in my mind I find I can’t rely on myself I can’t hold on To what I want when I’m stretched so thin It’s all too much to take in I can’t hold on To anything watching everything spin With thoughts of failure sinking in How do you think / I’ve lost so much I’m so afraid / I’m out of touch How do you expect / I will know what to do When all I know / Is what you tell me to Don’t you (know) I can’t tell you how to make it (go) No matter what I do, how hard I (try) I can’t seem to convince myself (why) I’m stuck on the outside How do you think / I’ve lost so much I’m so afraid / I’m out of touch How do you expect / I will know what to do When all I know / Is what you tell me to Don’t you (know) I can’t tell you how to make it (go) No matter what I do, how hard I (try) I can’t seem to convince myself (why) I’m stuck on the outside I can’t hold on To what I want when I’m stretched so thin It’s all too much to take in I can’t hold on To anything watching everything spin With thoughts of failure sinking in I can’t hold on To what I want when I’m stretched so thin It’s all too much to take in I can’t hold on To anything watching everything spin With thoughts of failure sinking...

Did I disappoint you or let you down? Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown? 'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun, Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won. So I took what's mine by eternal right. Took your soul out into the night. It may be over but it won't stop there, I am here for you if you'd only care. You touched my heart you touched my soul. You changed my life and all my goals. And love is blind and that I knew when, My heart was blinded by you. I've kissed your lips and held your head. Shared your dreams and shared your bed. I know you well, I know your smell. I've been addicted to you. Goodbye my lover. Goodbye my friend. You have been the one. You have been the one for me. I am a dreamer but when I wake, You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take. And as you move on, remember me, Remember us and all we used to be I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile. I've watched you sleeping for a while. I'd be the father of your child. I'd spend a lifetime with you. I know your fears and you know mine. We've had our doubts but now we're fine, And I love you, I swear that's true. I cannot live without you. Goodbye my lover. Goodbye my friend. You have been the one. You have been the one for me. And I still hold your hand in mine. In mine when I'm asleep. And I will bear my soul in time, When I'm kneeling at your feet. Goodbye my lover. Goodbye my friend. You have been the one. You have been the one for me. I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow. I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.

Truly Madly Deeply I'll be your dream I'll be your wish, I'll be your fantasy I'll be your hope, I'll be your love Be everything that you need I'll love you more with every breath Truly Madly Deeply Do I will be strong, I will be faithful Coz I'm counting on A new beginning A reason for living A deeper meaning (yeah) I want to stand with you on a mountain I want to bathe with you in the sea I wanna lay like this forever Until the sky falls down on me And when the stars are shining Brightly in the velvet sky I'll make a wish send it to heaven Then make you want to cry The tears of joy for all the Pleasure in the certainty That we're surrounded By the comfort and protection of The highest powers In lonely hours The tears devour you I want to stand with you on a mountain I want to bathe with you in the sea I wanna lay like this forever Until the sky falls down on me Oh can you see it baby? You don't have to close your eyes Coz it's standing right before you All that you need will surely come I'll be your dream I'll be your wish, I'll be your fantasy I'll be your hope, I'll be your love Be everything that you need I'll love you more with every breath Truly Madly Deeply Do I want to stand with you on a mountain I want to bathe with you in the sea I wanna lay like this forever Until the sky falls down on me

Yeah,i know i said i wouldn't write in this dary anymore but i can't get on to the other one so...deal with it :P Well...i was going out with Ste and all was right with the world as far as i was concerned,but then Friday came and i finally talked to him for the first time since Sunday and it wasn't like he had forgotten that we were together but he forgot how he asked me out:( And just as i thought he'd changed his mind-he wasn't thinking straight apparently,it's not like he doesn't like me or doesn't want to go out with me but he's hopin that he gets this job and he'll never be able to see me.Of course i get it now but on friday i was really upset cos i'd been wanting for us to get together for ages and it felt like i had wasted months trying to get him to ask me out...but now i get it-doesn't mean i'm happy about it :( i feel kinda bad now tho cos i gave him a really hard time about it. Oops. Anyway,this song that i'm about to copy and paste on here...it's not that i hate it but everytime i hear it i get upset and really sad-so i try to hate it but right now i'd give anything to hear it. Always J. Bon Jovi This romeo is bleeding But you can't see his blood It's nothing but some feelings That this old dog kicked up It's been raining since you left me Now I'm drowning in the flood You see I've always been a fighter But without you I give up Now I can't sing a love song Like the way it's meant to be Well, I guess I'm not that good anymore But baby, that's just me And I will love you, baby - Always And I'll be there forever and a day - Always I'll be there till the stars don't shine Till the heavens burst and The words don't rhyme And I know when I die, you'll be on my mind And I'll love you - Always Now your pictures that you left behind Are just memories of a different life Some that made us laugh, some that made us cry One that made you have to say goodbye What I'd give to run my fingers through your hair To touch your lips, to hold you near When you say your prayers try to understand I've made mistakes, I'm just a man When he holds you close, when he pulls you near When he says the words you've been needing to hear I'll wish I was him 'cause those words are mine To say to you till the end of time Yeah, I will love you baby - Always And I'll be there forever and a day - Always If you told me to cry for you I could If you told me to die for you I would Take a look at my face There's no price I won't pay To say these words to you Well, there ain't no luck In these loaded dice But baby if you give me just one more try We can pack up our old dreams And our old lives We'll find a place where the sun still shines And I will love you, baby - Always And I'll be there forever and a day - Always I'll be there till the stars don't shine Till the heavens burst and The words don't rhyme And I know when I die, you'll be on my mind And I'll love you - Always

i've decided to close down this diary-i started it because i wanted somewhere where i wouldn't put private entries,as in you all would EVERYTHING going on in my head.But everything that i would put in a private entry sounds really stupid and childish-also very upsetting when i read over it again.So i'm gonna be writting only in my other diary from now on-no mor random entries in here and my private entries will remain private. WWW.SITDAIRY.NET/DAWN. BYE! In two more years, my sweetheart, we will see another view Such longing for the past for such completion What was once golden has now turned a shade of grey I've become crueler in your presence They say: "be brave, there's a right way and a wrong way" This pain won't last for ever, this pain won't last for ever Two more years, there's only two more years Two more years, there's only two more years Two more years so hold on You've cried enough this lifetime, my beloved polar bear Tears to fill a sea to drown a beacon To start anew all over, remove those scars from your arms To start anew all over more enlightened I know, my love, this is not the only story you can tell This pain won't last for ever, this pain won't last for ever Two more years... You don't need to find answers for questions never asked of you You don't need to find answers Dead weights, balloons Drag me to you Dead weights, balloons To sleep in your arms I've become crueler since I met you I've become rougher, this world is killing me And we cover our lies with handshakes and smiles And we try to remember our alibis We tell lies to our parents, we hide in their rooms We bury our secrets in the garden Of course we could never make this love last I said of course we could never make this love last The only love we know is love for ourselves We bury our secrets in the garden SONG LIST

Security. my security i want it where did it go im alone and i feel it.

Girl: hey baby i want to show you.... Boy: ( cutting her off ) ugh i'm so mad Girl: why? whats wrong ? Boy: ugh everything Girl: explain baby Boy: just lost a championship game, parents flipped out on me for no reason, and im catching a cold Girl: well hey there will always be other games, you know ill take care of you when your sick, what your parents flip about ? Boy: they are making me pay them for a car repair Girl: is it alot of money Boy: no it just sucks Boy: but hey i dont feel well im going to go lay down Boy: bye Girl: wait i want to give you some... Boy: cant it wait til tommorow ? Girl: yeah sure Girl: bye Boy: bye 2 hours later a friend of hers asks her to go for a drive ...she goes..... her friend swerved to avoid a truck....hitting a tree instead her friend was killed instantly....shes in critical condition This is the conversation between her sister and her boyfriend Sister: omg ( crying ) Boy: what? whats wrong ? Sister: my sister...your gf was involved in a major car wreck Boy: is she ok ? ????? Sister: shes in critical condition Boy: i'll be there in 10 minutes He shows up to the hospital room ...standing outside the door going over the last conversation in his mind over and over as he heard the machines beep and beep and breathing tubes pump Boy: she wanted to give me something or tell me something Girls mom: yeah this... it was an envelope smelling like she did sealed with a kiss in lipstick he opened it..... it said ..... your everything to me....i love you with everything i am and everything i have...i want to spend the rest of my life with you sealed in it was a ripped movie ticket from the first movie they went to and the first picture they took together he kissed the picture as a tear fell from his face onto the picture it looked as if in the picture she was crying then the machines flatlined....3 minutes later she was pronounced dead If you have any heart...any soul...or want to be happy you will repost this. if you care for someone ...do not let something like this ever happen Post this in the next 200 seconds and you WILL have THE best day of your life THIS SATURDAY. You're number one *love* Will either kiss you, ask you out, or call you or better

The winter here's cold, and bitter it's chilled us to the bone we haven't seen the sun for weeks to long too far from home love)love is a verb love is a doing word feathers on my breath gentle impulsion shakes me makes me lighter I know I could love you much better than this teardrop on the fire feathers on my breath I carry the burden of losing rest Upon my shoulders And its weight seems unbearable Your tomb is where your heart is, I should have told her water is my eye most faithful my love seen this place before where everything we say and do hurts us all the more Her eyes She's on the dark side Neutralize Every man in sight oh darkness I feel like letting go If all of the strength and all of the courage come and lift me from this place If I wake before I die, Rescue me with your smile The kiss of vanity you blessed me with, spiritual woman, Then you got someone insatiable And it feels like I’ve been buried alive by love we broke up....

HEY. HO. CHEERLEADERS. LETS GO! HO!

It's hard to remember how it felt before Now I found the love of my life Passes things, get more comfortable Everything is going right And after all the obstacles It's good to see you now with someone else And it's such a miracle that you and me are still good friends After all that we've been through I know we're cool I know we're cool We used to think it was impossible Now you call me by my new last name Memories seem like so long ago Time always kills the pain Remember Harbor Boulevard The dreaming days where the mess was made Look how all the kids have grown, oh We have changed but we're still the same After all that we've been through I know we're cool I know we're cool Yeah, I know we're cool And I'll be happy for you If you can be happy for me Circles and triangles And now we're hanging out with your new girlfriend So far from where we've been I know we're cool I know we're cool C-cool, I know we're cool I know we're cool TBH I DON'T KNOW IF WE ARE

what can i say? i really don't have a clue what i could say to you to make you feel better.why do ypu look to e to make your life better when mine is no different to yours.everything is falling apart at the seams now....not everything is so perfect and rosy as it was in the beginning......what can i say?i really don't have a clue what i could say to me to make me feel better.

I HATE YOU NIN-I DO NOT WANT THIS i'm losing ground you know how this world can beat you down i'm made of clay i fear i'm the only one who thinks this way i'm always falling down the same hill bamboo puncturing this skin and nothing comes bleeding out of me just like a waterfall i'm drowning in 2 feet below the surface i can still make out your wavy face and if i could just reach you maybe i could leave this place i do not want this i do not want this i do not want this i do not want this don't you tell me how i feel don't you tell me how i feel don't you tell me how i feel you don't know just how i feel i stay inside my bed i have lived so many lives all in my head don't tell me that you care there really isn't anything, is there? you would know, wouldn't you? you extend your hand to those who suffer to those who know what it really feels like to those who've had a taste like that means something and oh so sick i am and maybe i don't have a choice and maybe that is all i have and maybe this is a cry for help i do not want this i do not want this i do not want this i do not want this don't you tell me how i feel don't you tell me how i feel don't you tell me how i feel you don't know just how i feel i want to know everything i want to be everywhere i want to fuck everyone in the world i want to do something that matters

An Update

this revelation is the death of ignorance tangled in a state of suffocation slave to self righteousness damnation is on your lips from sorrow to serenity, the truth is absolution, from sorrow to serenity, its on your head this is my last serenade i feel you as you fall away this is my last serenade from yourself you can't run away it's your choice, point the finger but it's on your head your destination is a choice within yourself will you rise or become a slave to self righteousness open up your heart and gaze within reet so..............ermmmmmmmmmmmmmmm. WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! im feeling good nuh nuh nuh nuh!!!!!!!!! hope everyone else is feeling wonderful....if your not then awwwwww poor you,but i am so ha!!!!!!!! LAST NIGHT FUCKING ROCKED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SOMEONE'S FEELING FABULOUS!!!! OMG! WHATS WRONG WITH ME ? i think it was the relaxation thingy we did in history,im chilled fucking ICEBURG! hehehehhehehehhehehehehheeeeee! happy as fook why tho? i have noooooooooooooooooooooooo idea no new bf not going anywhere spesh today ive got exams soon and an english talk today so..wtf? bloody hormones happyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappy

yeah.....cos i can be assed with any of yas...let concentrate on one friend at a time okies....biatch

The Good Girl. That's me. Haven't always been. But. For now. I am. Yes that was a random statement about myself.....i swear i am normal. so life. Tis pretty okish atm.i've realised that i no longer need a bf just to be happy and loved,i've got my friends for that. More specifically my bestfriend. JoJo. Possibly one of the most wonderful people i know. And sometimes. I just don't appreciate her enough. And to think it was me who felt that nobody appreciated me. I didn't realise how much i need her to be there everyday until the beginning of this week. We fell out on Saturday night,and we didn't speak didn't speak again until Wednesday. Which was slightly upsetting. Everything is better now,we both apologised for being a complete bitch with eachother,then there were lots of big hugs. So. JoJo. Love you such an unbelivable amount,sorry it took that bitchy exchange to realise it.You mean so much to me hunni,and btw people do like you ingore what that silly little whore said to you,me thinks she got herself mixed up with you,si? anyways. Feeling very good about myself-all the revision and stuff. And now. It's time for me to disappear.

You are a Romantic Kisser, when it comes to kissingyou get your drive from the lure of romance,for you it is more than a meeting of the lips,you appreciate kissing for what it symolizes,you probably like to make a lot of eyecontact, gently hug, touch your date and talktenderly about your feelings. What kind of kisser are you? brought to you by Quizilla yeah go copy and paste this into teh search engine...