Lovers & Friends [Intro - Lil' Jon] Usher... Lil' Jon... Ludacris... [Usher (with Lil' Jon)] Yeah, man Once again, it's on (It's on) You know we had to do it again, right? [Lil' Jon] We had to do it again, boy Want you to sing to these ladies, man [Usher (with vocalizing)] (Ohh-oh-oh-ohh) A'ight, so I'm up first? A'ight, lemme have it... (Ohh-oh-oh-ohh) Let's do it... [1st Verse - Usher] Baby, how ya doin'? Hope that 'cha fine, wanna know what you got in mind, And I'm, Got me fiendin' like Jodeci, girl, I can't leave you alone, Take a shot of this here Petrone' and it's gon' be on, V.I.P. done got way too crowded, I'm about to end up callin' it a night, You should holla at 'cha girl, tell her you shake it the scene, Pull off, beep-beep, shotgun in the GT with me She said, "Ohhh-ohhh, I'm ready to ride, yeah," "'Cause once you get inside, you can't change your mind," "Don't mean to sound impatient, but you gotta promise, baby, ohh..." [Chorus - Usher] Tell me again (Tell me again, my baby), That we'll be Lovers and Friends (Ohh, I gotta know, baby, aw yeah) Tell me again (Make sho' you right, ohh, before we leave), That we'll be Lovers and Friends (Ohh, it's a good look, baby)... [2nd Verse - Ludacris] Sometimes wanna be your lover, Sometimes wanna be your friend, Sometimes wanna hug ya, Hold hands, slow-dance while the record spins, Opened up your heart 'cause you said I made you feel so comfortable, Used to play back then, now you all grown-up like Rudy Huxtable, I could be your Bud, you could beat me up, Play-fight in the dark, then we both make love, I'd do anything just to feel your butt, Why you got me so messed up? I don't know, but you gotta stop trippin', Be a good girl now, turn around, and get these whippings, You know you like it like that, You don't have to fight back, Here's a pillow - bite...that, And I'll be settin' seperate plays, So on all these separate days, Your legs can go they separate...ways... [Chorus - Usher] Tell me again (Tell me again, my baby), That we'll be Lovers and Friends (Ohh, it's a good look, baby) Tell me again (Tell me over-and-over-and-over again), That we'll be Lovers and Friends (Make sho' you right, before you choose)... [3rd Verse - Lil' Jon] I's been know you fo' a long time (shawty), But fuckin' never crossed my mind (shawty), But tonight, I seen sumthin' in ya (shawty), That made me wanna get wit 'cha (shawty), But you ain't been nuttin' but a friend to me (shawty), And a nigga never ever dreamed to be (shawty), Up in here, kissin', huggin', squeezin', touchin' (shawty), Up in the bathtub, rub-a-dubbin' (shawty), Are you sure you wanna go this route? (shawty), Let a nigga know before I pull it out (shawty), I would never ever cross the line (shawty), Shawty, let me hear ya tell me one mo' time...one mo' time... [Chorus - Usher] Tell me again (Tell me again, my baby), That we'll be Lovers and Friends (Ohh, it's a good look, baby) Tell me again (Make sho' you right, ohh, before we leave), That we'll be Lovers and Friends (Tell me over-and-over-and-over again)... [Outro - Usher] Oh-oh-hoo Oh-oh-hoo Oh-oh-hoo-ohhhh-yeaaah... [Ludacris (with Lil' Jon)] Please tell your Lovers and Friends, That Usher, Jon, and Luda had to do it again (Hey!! (Hey!!) Please tell your Lovers and Friends, That Usher, Jon, and Luda had to do it again, that's right (Hey!! (Hey!!) Please tell your Lovers and Friends, That Usher, Jon, and Luda had to do it again (Hey!! (Hey!!)... I've just eaten the biggest lunch I've ever had! It consisted of: - 1 x Chicken Tikka & Lettuce Baguette - 1 x Bag of Prawn Cocktail Walkers - 1 x Bag of Salt & Vinegar Seabrooks - 1 x Large Custard Tart - 1 x Galaxy Muffin - 1 x Toffee Crisp - 1 x Bottle of water. It really was one hell of a lunch, and now I feel ill - but it was needed. I'll tell you what else is needed. Jo! Yes we're here again talking about her again. She's coming over tonight - I hope. Then we're going shoppin on Saturday. I can't get over how much this girl still means to me. When we met up first time couple of weeks back, it was like we never broke up. Cuddles, Kisses, Laughs it was perfect. I want that feeling to last, I really do. I'm willing to do whatever it takes! I don't want to lose her again! I find it difficult finding the balance of telling her how I feel, and leaving her to her own thing. I don't want to be too clingy because that was part of the problem last time - but I honestly feel like I could spend the rest of my life with her. I took an online quiz thingy, about Star Signs and dating - Apparently I should never date a Capricorn. See this poses a problem, as Jo is a Capricorn. I know it's just a stupid quiz and I shouldn't take notice, but it's hard when you're reading astrologies sites and they all say the same. Libra's (me) and Capricorn's (Jo) can have decent relationships, but it seems like it's a lot of work. Now, I don't have a problem putting that work in because I want her bad, I'm just not sure she wants the same thing. I suppose we should continue how we are, just seeing each other at weekends, chilling out, having a smoke/drink, going shopping. We've both agreed we're not rushing into it! We'll see how things go eh? :D Here's to you hun!! =] x

Because I Got High It's Like, I don't care about nothin man, roll another blunt, Yea (ohh ohh ohh), La da da da da da La, Da Daaa, La da da da, La da da da, La da da daaa I was gonna clean my room until I got high I was gonna get up and find the broom but then I got high my room is still messed up and I know why (why man?) yea heyy, - cause I got high [repeat 3X] (La da da da da da da da da) I was gonna go to class before I got high I coulda cheated and I coulda passed but I got high (La da da da da da da da da) I am taking it next semester and I know why, (why man?) yea heyy, - cause I got high [repeat 3X] (La da da da da da da da da) I was gonna go to work but then I got high I just got a new promotion but I got high now I'm selling dope and I know why (why man?) yea heayy, - cause I got high [repeat 3X] (La da da da da da da da da) I was gonna go to court before I got high I was gonna pay my child support but then I got high they took my whole paycheck and I know why (why man?) yea heayy, - cause I got high [repeat 3X] (La da da da da da da da da) I wasn't gonna run from the cops but I was high I was gonna pull right over and stop but I was high (La da da da da da da da da) Now I am a paraplegic and i know why (why man?) yea heayy, - because I got high [repeat 3X] (La da da da da da da da da) I was gonna pay my car note until I got high I wasn't gonna gamble on the boat but then I got high now the tow truck is pulling away and I know why (why man?) yea heyy, - because I got high [repeat 3X] (La da da da da da da da da) I was gonna make love to you but then I got high I was gonna eat yo pussy too but then I got high now I'm jacking off and I know why, yea heyy, - cause I got high [repeat 3X] (La da da da da da da da da) I messed up my entire life because I got high I lost my kids and wife because I got high now I'm sleeping on the sidewalk and I know why (why man?) yea heyy, - cause I got high [repeat 3X] (La da da da da da da da da) I'm gonna stop singing this song because I'm high I'm singing this whole thing wrong because I'm high and if I dont sell one copy I know why (why man?) yea heyy, - cause I'm high [repeat 3X] La da da da da da, La da da da, Shoop shooby doo wop. Get jiggy wit it, skibbidy bee bop diddy do wahhh - cause I'm high [repeat 3X] (hey where the cluck at cuz) [clucks] Well my name is afroman and I'm from east pomdale (east-pom-dale) and all the tolweed I be smokin is bomb as helllllll (excelent delivery) I don't beleive in Hitler, that's what I said (oh my goodness) so all of you skins (skins) please give me more head You know when you get that feeling that everything is turning around, and things start to look good. I've got that - but it's weird, because it's like I feel it's not going to last. That at some point the new found enthusiasm and stability is going to fade. I was watching a film last night - and in it, one character said "love isn't just a feeling". And that made me think, they're right, love isn't something that "just happens", its something you need to work at, without effort from both parties involved, love cannot exsist. It's a big a problem for one, as it is for the other. Making love work means going at it together! Together we make an awsome team - and I truely believe that with effort it can last. It's just are you willing to put that effort in? I dunno. I know I am. I don't even know why I still use this place - too many bad memories. But then again, maybe it's good to get something written down - so you can look back and say "yeah, that was bad, and I was a dick, but where am I now? Higher, happier than ever before." We learn from our mistakes, and we all make them - cos we're only human. It's willing to learn from them that makes the difference. We made some mistakes last time, and things didn't work out - so this time, lets not make the same mistakes, lets really work to make this the most beautiful thing in the world. I believe it can be! >=] x

Circles You saw me lost in treading water I looked pathetic and As helpless as a stinger Without a bee But underneath my presentation Yeah I knew the walls were coming down And the stones that fell were Aiming away from me Hey what would it mean to you? To know that it'll Come back around again Hey whatever it means to you Know that everything Moves in circles I saw you standing in My headlights Blink blink blink I thought I'd run you down For the weight you left on me instead I pushed rewind Reversed and drove away And see you Disappear in my rearview Brought to me the word Reciprocity Hey what would it mean to you? To know that it'll Come back around again Hey whatever it means to you Know that everything Moves in circles Round and round we go We could know It'd end so well We fall on and we fall off Existential carousel Spin Hey what would it mean to you? To know that it'll Come back around again Hey whatever it means to you Know that everything Moves in circles Everything moves in circles Round and round and Round and round and Round and round and Round and round Well, what can I say? Tonight, was unexpected. However, it was needed. I made my feelings very clear for someone tonight and we've worked a lot out. This kinda thing is nothing but the truth. Deep from the bottom of my heart, I do still love you, always have and always will. Nothing in the world could change that now. This does pose the question however, where from here? I think in this case it's best if time is left to it's own devices, we see if this was seriously meant, or just another chat. All thats left to say is, I hope, I wish, I want, this, to be the start, of something so special, we'll never be seperated again. To you, my love. =] x

Wasted Sacrifice Trading life for life It all must fall It must end with us It must end with me Insinuations of what might be Fight through deprivation There will be no sleep Heed my cry Because of greed and hatred To dust we return They will see the strength in our numbers Only then will the self-righteous learn Yeah! Insinuations of what might be To the masses we mean nothing But it starts in the hearts of the few Witness the birth of a people Unite, renew There is no forever, just today (just today) Don't let your sacrifice waste away Waste away (Waste away) Through change and purity Turn the shadows to light Buried beneath the ashes Is a passion for life There is no forever, just today (just today) Don't let your, your sacrifice waste away Waste away (Waste away) Let there be no more of this bloodshed Let there be no more of this bloodshed Let there be no more of this bloodshed Heed my cry There is no forever, just today (just today) Don't let your, your sacrifice waste away Waste away (Waste away) Waste away (Waste away) So it's been quite a year so far - Let me explain (you may wanna get a brew :)) At the back end of last year, I was saying that I had a good feeling about 2006, that it was going to be the best year yet, one to remember for the rest of my life. So far, this year hasn't been far from that, but for all the wrong reasons. I'll start with the bad stuff. So early this year (April), I lost my driving license - A complete shitter as now I have to get the bus - I made a mistake and now I'm paying the price for it. 12 month ban, 120 Hours community service and £50 fine. I think the fine was more to add insult to injury than anything else. Losing my license meant I lost my job, it's rather hard to get to preston from sabden everyday when you don't have a car. After losing my job, I went into a bit of a downer phase - Sleeping till about 3pm, getting up, doing fuck all until about 3am, then going to sleep again. This trend continued for about 3 months. It wasn't just affecting me, it was affecting the whole family, I even started having hugh arguments with my bro (which rarely happens). In about May time I was hospitalised by a kid 3/4 years younger than me. To cut a long story short, I got into a fight, ended up losing, having 7 stitches in my eye. Doesn't sound too bad (I'll link photo later) huh? Wrong - It got worse. The lad who bashed me decided to be a clever cunt and give me more grief for pressing charges. So he came round to my house, and smashed both mine and my brothers car windows. Something we weren't too happy about - but we knew it was him. We called the police and they did fuck all about it - as usual. Thats not the end of it - 2 weeks later he came round again, and did my mum's car over, this was turning into a joke. We called the police, again. They did fuck all about it, again. My dad started raging at them, which he's quite in his right to do so, but they had a point, unless they caught him doing it, they couldn't arrest him. Another bad thing about this year so far is that I've had fuck all in the way of a love life. It's all gone to pot since I split up with Jo. She's still my ex?! how sad is that? (This update is for her ;)). So my love life down the pan. It doesn't help after seeing a certain picture. That not only did I break up with probably the best girl in the world, she's still THE most stunning, gorgeous, beautiful young woman I have ever seen. In a word, she's perfect, but how can u disagree? Nothing is going to change how I feel about her, especially not pictures like that! I'm thinking maybe we should have a drink sometime, but she doesn't talk to me anymore :( The occasional Hiya on msn is about it! Now for the good bits. I got a new job!!!! After the 3 month funk of unemployment I made it back into the working world. I'm a Service Administration Consultant at a company called HML - They do out-sourcing for major mortgage companies. Part of the Skipton Building Society Group. It's a great company to work for, everyone is friendy and helpful and I've fit straight in. We're getting a house! Yes, finally after sponging from our parents for 20 years, me and my brother have decided to get our own place - it's a pride and privacy matter more than anything - being able to stand on our own feet, instead of living with our parents. Also, we can do what we want when we want and not have anyone complain about it. So we'll be throwing a House Warming party sometime soon - I'll keep you updated. The little cunt that bashed me in, and smashed our cars up? He's going jail - for a long time! He's currently standing trial for the following crimes: - 1 Count of Actual Bodily Harm - 2 Counts of Arson - 3 Counts of criminal damage - 2 Counts of disturbing the peace - Numorous breaches of his ASBO. So the little cunt is going to get it - and when this piss breath thick piece of shit gets out of jail, I'm going to find him, snatch him off the street, put a bag over his head, strip him naked, beat him to within inches of his life and leave him to rot on a moor in the middle of no-where. There is no way in hell he's getting away with it. It's my 21st birthday a week today - I think we'll be holding a party somewhere, but I need to finalise this - I'll keep you informed. I suppose it is one thing to look forward to. All in all, this year has started pretty shit, but brightened up along the way. It's not over yet, not by a long shot and we've still got plenty of time to make this year the best one so far! Afterall it is my 21st year on this earth! I'm still on the search for a girlie, so if ur interested, mail me ;) morfq3@gmail.com. Thats me for now - I'll update again soon - Keep your eyes peeled! Peace! >=] x

I Miss You To see you when I wake up is a gift I didn't think could be real to know that you feel the same as I do is a three-fold utopian dream You do something to me that I can't explain so would I be out of line, if I said I miss you I see your picture, I smell your skin on the empty pillow next to mine you have only been gone ten days but already I am wasting away I know I'll see you again whether far or soon but I need you to know that I care and I miss you (I miss you) Once again, it's update time. I seem to have come to a dead end in my life. It would seem my life has no direction, nothing to indicated what path to take. The signs have gone black and i'm lost. It's coming up on xmas 2005, nearly a year since Jo and I started going out (if you put it that way). I've been doing a lot of thinking. "what would it be like if we were still together?" "Why did I do the stupid thing and let someone so gorgeous go?" "Is there any hope for me?" The kind of questions a regretful person would think. I'm struggling to organise my life. Yeah I have a steady (not well payed) job. A car. A home, loving family. Still it seems somthing is missing.. I know people say "there's always someone worse off than you", but with this feeling, this gut instinct of disaster creeping upon me, I feel like the unluckiest person alive. Sure there are people worse off, but It's not them that matter, It myself. I'm useless with money, once again got paid and fucking blew it all, I don't even have enough money to get any xmas presents.. but there are soooo many people to get presents for. I feel drowned by life. Like life is opening up into a big black hole, and i'm slowly falling into nothing. A point of no return. Regretting I fucked up with college, I could have been at uni. Regretting I fucked up with Jo, we could still be madly in love. Regretting losing contact with my friends, we could all be together still. I'm losing my grip on reality. Everything has gone wrong for me in the last 6 months, I've slumped into a depressive situation I don't have the energy or motivation to drag myself out of. Then again, there is only myself that can help. It sounds soo easy to just put the past behind me and turn over a new leaf, get on and get motivated.. It sounds so easy.. but never is. I just need someone to take over my life and get it back on track while I take a break and relax my mind and my body. So i can quit spending money on useless junk and start spending money on things that really matter in life. Clinging onto reality by a finger, rapidly losing grip on that, and those around me that really matter. I need a change, I need to get out of this place and start a new, get a better paid job, get the money, learn to budget, learn to cope with life as it is thrown at me. I just cower in a corner and hope that when I open my eyes everything is fine again, but it never is. It ME that's got to sort it out... but how!? 2005 has been a year of ups and downs, started on a high, ended on a low. But........... I have a good feeling about 2006, I feel it's going to be the year that I get things sorted, get things back onto track and settle myself down. It's up to me, I suppose, to keep that going. 2006 here I come, you'd better be damn ready, cos it's gunna be one hell of a show. >=] x

Whats the Difference? [Phish] What's the difference between me and you? [repeat 2X] [Dr. Dre] Back when Cube - was rollin wit Lorenzo in a Benzo I was bangin wit a gang of instrumentals Got the pens and pencils, got down to business; but sometimes the business end of this shit can turn your friends against you But you was a real nigga, I could sense it in you I still remember the window of the car that you went through That's fucked up, but I'll never forget the shit we been through And I'ma do whatever it takes to convince you Cuz you my nigga Doc, and Eazy I'm still wit you Fuck the beef, nigga I miss you, and that's just bein real wit you You see the truth is Everybody wanna know how close me and Snoop is And who I'm still cool wit Then I got these fake-ass niggaz I first drew with Claimin that they non-violent, talkin like they *voice sample* Spit venom in interviews, speakin on reunions Move units, then talk shit and we can do this Until then - I ain't even speakin your name Just keep my name outta yo' mouth and we can keep it the same Nigga, it ain't that I'm too big to listen to the rumors It's just that I'm too damn big to pay attention to 'em That's the difference [Chorus: Phish (repeat 2X)] What's the difference between me and you? You talk a good one - but you don't do what you supposed to do I act on what I feel and never deal wit emotions I'm used to livin big dog style and straight coastin [Xzibit] Yo I stay wit it While you try to perpetrate, play wit it Never knew about the next level until Dre did it (YEAH) I stay committed while you motherfuckers baby-sitted I smash you critics like a overhand right from Riddick (Yeah!) Come and get it, shitted on villians by the millions I be catchin bitches while bitches be catchin feelings So what the fuck am I supposed to do? I pop bottles and hot hollow-points at each and all of you (Come on!) A heartless bastard, high and plastered My style is like the reaction from too much acid - never come down Pass it around if you can't handle it Hang Hollywood niggaz by they Soul Train laminates What's the difference between me and you? (What?) About five back accounts, three ounces and two vehicles Until my death, I'm Bangladesh I suggest you hold yo' breath til ain't none left Yo that's the difference [Chorus] [Eminem] Aight, hold up hold up! STOP THE BEAT A MINUTE!! I got somethin to say Dre; I wanna tell you this shit right now while this fuckin weed is in me (The fuck?!) I don't know if I ever told you this, but I love you dawg I got your motherfuckin back, just know this shit [Dre] Riiight? .. Slim, I don't know if you noticed it But I've had your back from day one, nigga let's blow this bitch [Em] I mean it dawg, you ever need somebody offed - who's throat is it? [Dre] Well if you ever kill that Kim bitch, I'll show you where the ocean is [Eminem] Well that's cool, and I appreciate the offer But if I do decide to really murder my daughter's momma I'ma sit her up in the front seat and put sunglasses on her And cruise around wit her for seven hours through California And have her wavin at people (Hi!) Then drop her off on the corner at the police station and drive off honkin the horn for her Raw dawg, get your arm gnawed off Drop the sawed off and beat you wit the piece it was sawed off of Fuck blood, I wanna see some lungs coughed up Get shot up in the hot tub til the bubbles pop up and they nose and cough snot up, mucus in hot water That's for tryin to talk like The Chronic was lost product That's for even THINKIN of havin them thoughts thought up! You better show some respect whenever the Doc's brought up!! So what's the difference between us? We can start at the penis Or we can scream, "I Just Don't Give a Fuck," and see who means it! [Chorus 2.25X] Here I am again, another update.. It's been a couple of weeks since my birthday, and I still don't feel 20 .. It's strange, it was like it wasn't really my birthday, everyone is skint and I got a few cards, hardly any money, and one or two pressies.. I'm not complaining, in fact thanks to everyone who contributed :D I love you all! (Except Gemma and Sally B, but thats a different story). Then again, I ought to start growing up. Thinks...... ...... ...... ...... ...... ...... NAAAHHH!! :D I'm not growing up yet, it's only 20, and the best birthday is to come yet!!! Yet again, i'm hard of cash. I can't make my wage last more than a week, I need to start being responsible with my money, I have just started my own Insurance, and the deposit was £200, which was a hefty sum, but I could have handled the rest of the money better.. Instead of spending it on shite, save it?! Yeah thats an idea, but will it work?! :/ I got a new motor, I still haven't got a name for him/her/it yet. Had to spend a bit of money on it to get it running right, but now it is, wow.. Miles quicker than Rex, unfortunately I feel i rushed into it, and am wishing I still had rex. There are perks, but there are cons as well. Risks you have to take, but i'll stick with the new one for a bit, get my no claims going and get somthing faster! Definately back to a clio though! :D Other than the above i'm pretty peachy. Doing well at work, enjoying it so thats good :) Not been out in a while, being skint and all. Me and kacy are still talking :D Just as best friends should :P I've slightly lost contact with adam and ste and that since i left college, but I still manage to get out once in a while and have a bash with them. Which is always good, although veez is getting tiring now, it's run it's course i think. If you ask me the place needs knocking down. Anyways I've rambled on enough now, I need my sleep.. Laters :D >=] x

Slam No Lyrics .. IT'S MY BIRTHDAY BITCH! that took some typing. >=] Edit: That didn't quite work as planned, and therefore i have posted a page showing what it should have looked like here. Looks quite groovey actually :) Anyways too much effort has been put into this anyways.. nite :)

Fasten Your Seatbelts This choooooooooon, has no lyrics, as it's drum n bass, but it's fucking good!! Well, so here I am again, it's been getting a bit shaky recently, not been updating much as i've been busy. Below I shall explain why. I've turned over a new leaf, I apologised to caddy and kacy a couple of weeks ago, just so I didn't feel as shit, because however much I try, I couldnt help but fuck things up for them. So I decided to leave them to it, i'm staying out of it now :) I got a promotion at work, I'm now Deputy Manager of Wine Rack in Penwortham, which is on the far side of Preston to me. It's an ace job, i'm people's boss!! Buzzin off that. Rex is looking more and more cleaner and better everyday, I've managed to fix all the major problems with him, and he now has 4 alloys back on, and has been valleted. He's all nice and shiney again, which is good! I have some more plans for him, next month some new springs for his suspension, and bucket seats / harnesses hopefully. We'll see how things go :) I met Steph on the friday just gone, and She's amazing!!!! I love her even more now! Even tho we didn't get to talk right much, she showed me the rizla game, and had me on the giggles for most of friday night/saturday morning. She's ace, and I can't wait to meet her again, and talk a bit more! wubs joo huni!!!! xXx. We were both buzzin off this choon i've got on here, it's sooooo funny, but we have no idea why! I've quit smoking weed, well cut down. I've decided that weed isn't really doing much for me at the moment, and seen as my brother has quit, I've decided to follow his tracks. I spent all this weekend just gone, completely battered (hull saying ;)), and i'm feeling it a bit, also my dad had a massive go at me for it. So now is as good a time as any to cut it out. I'll still smoke it now and again, special occasions, but I've been on a bit of a bender recently, and have been smoking it every night. I've got a brighter outlook on life than a few weeks ago, things seem to be picking up again, and i'm not suicidal anymore. I just hope I can keep this good trend going. I wanna feel like a did at the beginning of this year, I was on top of the world, and it's been going downhill since then. I have a good vibe about 2006, it's going to be a good year, I can see it coming. I dunno what it is, I just feel 2006 is going to be a good year. Anyways, that me for now, knackered, moff to bed! Night Night! Xx >=] x

I got Five on it Creep on in, on in (echos) Woo. See I'm ridin high, ridin high (echos) Whoooo! Kinda broke you see me, so all I got is FIVE I GOT FIVE! Verse 1 *(Knumskull & Yukmouth)* (Knumskull) I Got Five On It I got five what you got nigga? (Yukmouth) Damn I think I got two bucks in my sock nigga. (Knumskull) Well that's that fuck it I think I got three bucks in my backpack enough to get a phat sack. (Yukmouth) Hell yeah! (Knumskull) You got some zags? (Yukmouth) Not at all man. (Knumskull) Let's get some from the store. (Yukmouth) Fa sho, because a nigga need a Tall Ken. (Knumskull) Damn open the door blood. (Yukmouth) Nigga where my keys at? (Knumskull) I don't know? (Yukmouth) Remember I gave 'em to you to go get that weed sack. (Knumskull) Oh here they go in my sock. (Yukmouth) Put your seatbelt on cuz there's hella cops parked up the block. (Knumskull) Well nigga bust a U-ey then. (Yukmouth) Nigga fire up that doobie then. (Knumskull) Hell nah! (Yukmouth) You major skanless potna. (Knumskull) Well sue me then. (Yukmouth) Oh, be like that on a roach? (Knumskull) Nope, look at them hoes! (Yukmouth) Man fuck them tricks, nigga let's get smoke! Pass the doobie to the left biddy-bum-bum-boo! Whoa! What the fuck wrong wit you?! (Knumskull) Damn I had a flash back this nigga frontin me some yay but you know that he ain't gonna get his cash back. (Yukmouth) Nigga what if the cash jack? (Knumskull) Oh it's cool Fuck this, I'm puttin it in the cuts. (Yukmouth) It's bad enough he got not tags on the Cutlass (Knumskull) Eh you know what? 84th is the closest. (Yukmouth) Yup Oooh! a fat ass Hamp, nigga let's smoke this. (Knumskull) Let's roll a blunt wit the skunk. (Yukmouth) Why you bring that skanless ass sack? (Knumskull) Man this shit ain't no punk. Here smell this. (Yukmouth) Roll it up then nigga! (Knumskull) Haha, yeah! (Yukmouth) Let's go half on some liquor yeah go get some Tango or something. (Eh, I got to see some I.D.) (Knumskull) Aww man, shit I ain't got nothing! (Sorry) (Knumskull) Man I spend wit you all the time. (Sorry no I.D., no colors Icy Bine) (Knumskull) Aww fuck that! (Yukmouth) They didn't let you get the drank? (Get out my store!) (Knumskull) Man I ain't trippin. This font colour has nothing to do with my state of mind whilst writing this entry. What the fuck am I talking about? Of course it does! I'm down, i'm as down as I can be. In fact i've not been on a downer this bad .. EVER!! I'm bordering on depression, in fact i am probably very depressed at the moment. I chose "bleh" because it reminded me of adam, and he makes me laugh. Like the only thing to be happy about. This is a entry I never would have thought i'd put as pubilc, but fuck it. I'm an asshole. I'm a downright prick. I make myself out to be a nice guy when i'm not. Not just with girls, I'm talking everything. See i'm a smart lad, or so i'm told? However, I've just spent the last 3 years of my life fucking up my LIFE. I'm a waster. I've got to face the truth, there is nothing in life for me now. I obviously didn't want to go to uni that much. But I do!!!! See I've done nothing over the last few days, but think, and regret not getting on with things, not knuckling down and getting my grades at college. I didn't get a bollocking off my mum and dad, but it's more powerful when parents just stare at you with blanc faces after seeing you've just failed 2 years at college. They hardly said a thing, but they didn't need to. It doesn't help when all the people I've met over the last 3 years, are all saying wooo!! I've passed!! i did so well.. Just sends me even more down to the gutter. I'm proud of all my mates. However, it only further illustrates how fucked up i am. I know it now, I'm a loser. It's my attitude towards everything, I can find reasons excuses as to why I didn't do things. But if I were a half decent person i'd have done things in the first place. I thought it would be easy to put into words, but i'm finding it difficult to comprehent any way of saying how I feel at this present time. Since Jo, i've gone worse, i'm not blaming it on her at all, i'm just saying. Back then I wouldn't have even thought about cheating on her, or anyone for that fact. but now, well now is a different story. See while i'm here admitting i'm a nob, i may as well say that I've been leading people on, I'm in it for the sex, it's obvious, see that didn't bother me that much with Jo, in fact i reckon it was the sex that spoilt it. But Kacy? how many times have I told her i Love her? and led her on thinking i wanna get back with her, it's fucking stupid. and i'm a fucking idiot. because Kacy is an awsome girl, and i've just been playing with her. Kacy i'm sorry :( My car, well where do i start? I haven't cleaned it since i went to the french car show, i've washed the outside once or twice, but that it.. And i treat cars like shit, much like i treat everything else in my life. I'm not set out for it. I love driving, but it's obvious I think cars look after themselves, i mean a perfectly mint R reg clio, 10k down the road as had a new engine, new drifhshaft and hub, in turn has fucked up the tyres. Things are rattling, but i don't do anything about it. I'M A FUCKING DICKHEAD! I've disappointed my dad, my mum, my whole family. I've lost all my friends from admitting to shit in the entry, so I can't have disappointed any of them. Most of all i've disappointed myself, to the point i feel physically sick thinking about how fucked up i've made my life. I'm a complete and utter waste of everyone's time and patience. So now i'm going to go and find another excuse not to do somthing, and continue living my life in the shitball it's rolling itself into. Because thats all i meant to myself right now, a big ball of shit rolling down a shitty hill. Well to everyone that i thought i cared about, it's been nice knowing you. You're all probably not going to speak to me again after this entry. Oh before i forget, i'll give u another example of my womanising. There's this lass called gemma, who i'm currently with.. I went out with her not so long since, and things were good, then I met a lass on hotornot, you've heard that story.. Esstta, see i dump gemma, get on with esstta, she comes over to meet me, we have sex, and she goes home.. i barely text her and then she says it might be better being friends, i agree, and a couple of days later, having strung her on, i'm back with gemma. Good isn't it? NO IT'S FUCKING NOT... I'M A PRICK, FULLBLOWN 100% NOB. and to all those that maybe to care about me. You'll not see me for a bit, i'm going to stay inside all the time, and just go to work and back. I'm going to cut off any link to me with anyone that still likes me, cos i'll only take them down with me. so fuck it. >=[

Ghetto Gospel Uhh, Hit them with a lil' ghetto gospel [Chorus - Elton John:] Those who wish to follow me (My ghetto gospel) I welcome with my hands And the red sun sinks at last into the hills of gold And peace to this young warrior without the sound of guns [2Pac] If I could recelect before my hood dayz I'd sit and reminisce, nigga and bliss on the good dayz i stop and stare at the younger, my heart goes to'em They tested, it was stressed that they under In our days, things changed Everyone's ashamed to the youth cuz the truth looks strange And for me it's reversed, we left them a world that's cursed, and it hurts cause any day they'll push the button and yall condemned like Malcolm x and Bobby Hunton, died for nothin Don't them let me get teary, the world looks dreary but when you wipe your eyes, see it clearly there's no need for you to fear me if you take the time to hear me, maybe you can learn to cheer me it aint about black or white, cuz we're human I hope we see the light before its ruined my ghetto gospel [Chorus - Elton John] [2Pac] Tell me do you see that old lady aint it sad Living out a bag, but she's glad for the little things she has And over there there's a lady, crack got her crazy Guess she's given birth to a baby I don't trip and let it fade me, from outta the frying pan We jump into another form of slavery Even now I keep discouraged Wonder if they take it all back while I still keep the courage I refuse to be a role model I set goals, take control, drink out my own bottle I make mistakes, I learn from everyone And when its said and done I bet this Brotha be a better one If I'm upset, you don't stress Never forget, that God hasn't finished with me yet I feel his hand on my brain When I write rhymes, I go blind, and let the lord do his thang But am I less holy Cuz I choose to puff a blunt and drink a beer with my homies Before we find world peace We gotta find peace in that war on the streets My ghetto gospel [Chorus - Elton John] [2Pac] Lord can you hear me speak!! To pay the price of being hell bound... First off i'd like to say, this entry is in pink for no specific reason, i'm just fed up or red and blue.. anyways and the second thing is that, if this entry bangs on a bit.. My apologies i'm stoned. So I put my picture up on hotornot the other nite because i was bored.. got a bit of a confidence boost from the overall rating thingy.. didn't expect anything else.. Until.... Someone clicked yes to wanting to meet me.. :O big shocker indeed.. So i checked her profile out (yes, a her, i'm not gay.. (like burnt face man)).. anyways, she looked fair hot on't sly.. so I clicked yes back and sent her an email.. she sent one back and we got chatting.. I met her 3 days ago, and we've spent at least 4 hours on the fone.. talking to each other, we've hit it off in a big way.. She says I have a awsome voice, and we're already up for meeting each other.. I dunno what it is about her, but her personality strikes such a pleasnt blow, i'm hooked... + we've got matching sense of humour's.. Not only that, but i truely believe i'm bordering on love again, I can't stop thinking about her.. and i haven't met her yet, but she does it for me in so many ways already.. I don't mean for this to sound mushy n shit, but it's the truth.. I just really wanna meet her too.. It's quite insane really.. but at the same time... Swishness on a stick. >=] x

Last Summer The Friday sun bears down again As we drive with our friends And on these longest days we spend All the time trying to pretend That our stories could be true Wanting to be cool The setting sunset says the day is through If only we knew... And we all sit around here in our home town Listen to the waves as they all crash down And watch the fire as it slowly burns away Glowing embers fly across the sky your Here by my side, in my summer, our last summer The world passes by in my summer, our last summer The light makes shadows fall, surrounded by each other I let you watch it all, the view from our last summer The view from our last summer... We trace the sun across the sky And we laugh till we cry Always so hard to say goodbye (good bye) And we all sit round here in our home town It's so good like this, these are times we'll miss The memories, I hope will never fade Glowing embers fly across the sky your Here by my side, in my summer, our last summer The world passes by in my summer, our last summer The light makes shadows fall, surrounded by each other I let you watch it all, the view through our last summer The view from our last summer... I would stop time to stay with you I would stop time so we don't move I would stop time I would stop time I would stop time to keep you Here by my side, in my summer, our last summer The world passes by in my summer, our last summer The light makes shadows fall, surrounded by each other I let you watch it all, the view from our last summer So, a mixed, but generally decent weekend has just past. I shall explain. First off, friday night after work I went up to see Kacy at a wedding do... first off she looked completely stunning, even if the dress she was wearing was a little lose fitting :p but still gorgeous, but then again I don't expect any less from her :p See this poses a bit of a problem, because 1. She's with caddy, 2. I do really like her still, and with considerable meaning. You see, I would love to be with her again, and i'd be definate about it, but at the moment there is a little too much shit flying around for it to work comfortably, not only between me and Caddy, but me and other girls. See there is sam, she's recently been txtin me, and said that..... ooooooo wait a minute, NiN - Closer just came on :D ......anyways, she's said that she wants to get back with me (yes back we "dated" a couple of years back). This poses a problem because sam is cool, and I don't want to hurt her either, I was up for the idea of maybe getting back with her, spent Saturday night with her, but thinking of Kacy quite a bit. I don't have it in my heart to tell sam I don't really want her, there is only one girl I want at the moment, and there's no need to say who, it's obvious.. (p.s. it's ste ;)) but she's with someone who she's apparently happy with. This has nothing to do with the fact he's my arch enemy, but I can't believe Kacy is saying she's happy with him. She's told me on numerous occasions she wants to be with me. She even sent me a txt after I left her on Friday saying she'd txted caddy and said she think she'd be better off with me. Now she was drunk at the time, so I'm not quite sure what to take that as. It could be the truth, which I would be happy about, Caddy has already figured it out anyway. However much I like Kacy, she needs to be 100% sure about it before making any moves. See I'm 100% sure I want Kacy, I get on with her, she's gorgerous and I get on with her family, as an added bonus. I know i'm rambling, but if I don't get all this emotional shit out of me now, i'm going to be churning it round in my head all night. So we've got Sam, who is nice, but she's not who I want, but i've already stopped at hers, and I got the "I don't want to be hurt" speech.. So this poses a problem, as I don't really want sam, but I wouldn't know how to let her down, I couldn't let her down now. Which is why it's better Kacy stay with caddy for a bit, see how things work. Then again, we'd both be in a relationship we're not 100% comfortable with, whereas it would be perfect between us. Then there's Gemma, who is slightly less of a problem, but a problem not to be forgotten. I went out with her for about 2 weeks just after my car broke down, and although she's a nice lass too, I wasn't comfortable with her, so I ended it, but she seems to think there might be a chance we can get back together, apparently she loves me, after 2 weeks.. PAH! She doesn't know what love is. Yeah, so that was a ramble and half, if it doesn't make sense, fuck it, i cba changin it. Saturday I was up early ringing around to find an engine for my car, managed to find one and went to pick it up. My dad took me, and we picked the engine up, then spent from about half 10, till about half 7 in the evening putting the engine in my car, we managed to do it, and get it running perfectly, the engine is absoloutly mint!! I set off from Wayne's with it all working fine, got back and a bolt had come out of the suspension arm on the passenger side, so I had to trail into town to try and find it, cos i thought I knew where it came off.. I managed to find it, so I went home, bolted that up, tweaked the gear linkage and connected an earth strap up and it was sorted, coulple of other things to do 2morro just to check and go over it, make sure it's all still ok. After i'd finished with the car, I grabbed a shower and went out, picked ste up and landed down veez. Dancing to closer on your own is shit, especially when it's a song I usually dance to with Kacy. Unfortunately she couldn't make it out. The rest is just sam and hannah and ste and other random people :P On the way back from veez to sam's, I stopped at a petty station to get some skins and a drink, when I got back in the car it wouldn't start, nothing happened when I turned the key, the dash lights came on, but nothing kicked over. So I thought I'd fucked it, but thought it could have been the starter motor, because it wasn't even kicking over. I called the recovery out, after half an hours wait he came fiddled with a wire on the starter motor and it burst into life! I felt a bit of a dipstick, seen as I'd just spend all day putting that engine in, and somthing as simple as that was the problem. Anyways, got up Sunday, took ste home, mooched into Clitheroe to try and find peeps, then went to home, and chilled there before work. After work Ash rung me, so I went for a bit of a smoke, and now I'm here. So overall it's a pretty mixed weekend, but good at the same time, and even though i'm tired, i'm feeling pretty fantastic! I've just got to get my head around Kacy, or my arm, my arm would be good :P >=] x

Lovers & Friends [Intro - Lil' Jon] Usher... Lil' Jon... Ludacris... [Usher {with Lil' Jon}] Yeah, man Once again, it's on {It's on} You know we had to do it again, right? [Lil' Jon] We had to do it again, Want you to sing to these ladies, man [Usher (with vocalizing)] (Ohh-oh-oh-ohh) A'ight, so I'm up first? A'ight, lemme have it... (Ohh-oh-oh-ohh) Let's do it... [1st Verse - Usher] Baby, how ya doin'? Hope that 'cha fine, wanna know what you got in mind tonight, Got me feenin' like Jodeci, girl, I can't leave you alone, Take a shot of this here Petrone' and it's gon' be on, V.I.P. done got way too crowded, I'm about to end up callin' it a night, You should holla at 'cha girl, tell her you shakin' the scene, Pull off, beep-beep, shotgun in a GT with me She said, "Ohhh-ohhh, I'm ready to ride, yeah," "'Cause once you get inside, you can't change your mind," "Don't mean to sound impatient, but you gotta promise, baby, ohh..." [Chorus - Usher] Tell me again (Tell me again, my baby), That we'll be Lovers and Friends (Ohh, I gotta know, baby, aw yeah) Tell me again (Make sho' your right, ohh, before we leave), That we'll be Lovers and Friends (Ohh, oh it's a good look, baby)... [2nd Verse - Ludacris] Sometime I wanna be your lover, Sometime I wanna be your friend, Sometime I wanna hug ya, Hold hands, slow-dance while the record spins, Opened up your heart 'cause you said I made you feel so comfortable, Used to play back then, now you all grown-up like Rudy Huxtable, I could be your bud, you could beat me up, Play-fight in the dark, then we both make love, I'd do anything just to feel your butt, Why you got me so messed up? I don't know, but you gotta stop trippin', Be a good girl now, turn around, and get these whippings, You know you like it like that, You don't have to fight back, Here's a pillow - bite...that, And I'll be settin' seperate plays, So on all these separate days, Your legs can go they separate...ways... [Chorus - Usher] Tell me again (Tell me again, my baby), That we'll be Lovers and Friends (Ohh, it's a good look, baby) Tell me again (Tell me over-and-over-and-over again), That we'll be Lovers and Friends (Make sho' you right, before you choose)... [3rd Verse - Lil' Jon] I's been know you fo' a long time (shorty'), But fuckin' never crossed my mind (shorty'), But tonight, I seen sumthin' in ya (shorty), That made me wanna get wit 'cha (shorta'), but You ain't been nuttin' but a friend to me (shorty'), And a nigga never ever dreamed to be (shorty'), Up in here, kissin', huggin', squeezin', touchin' (shorty'), Up in the bathtub, rub-a-dubbin' (shorty'), Are you sure you wanna go this route? (shorty'), Let a nigga know before I pull it out (shorty'), I would never ever cross the line (shorty'), Shorta'let me hear you tell me one mo' time...one mo' time... [Chorus - Usher] Tell me again (Tell me again, my baby), That we'll be Lovers and Friends (Ohh, it's a good look, baby) Tell me again (Make sho' you right, ohh, before we leave), That we'll be Lovers and Friends (Tell me over-and-over-and-over again)... [Outro - Usher] ah-ah-hoo ah-ah-hooo ah-ah-hoo-ohhhh-yeah yeah yeaaah... [Ludacris {with Lil' Jon}] Please tell your Lovers and Friends, That Usher, Jon, and Luda had to do it again {Hey!! (Hey!!)} Uh, please tell your Lovers and Friends, That Usher, Jon, and Luda had to do it again, that's right {Hey!! (Hey!!)}yeah Please tell your Lovers and Friends, That Usher, Jon, and Luda had to do it again {Hey!! (Hey!!)}... I'm hot!! :o OMG.. I'm well chuffed, didn't think people liked me this much! :o >=] x

Pull harder on the strings of your martyr The face and the lips tremble as it rips Your breath quickening as heat rushes in Pull harder strings martyr Stop you cry that's a lie Flush gasping white reddening You smile and destroy it- it's time that we end this It's our curse that makes this world so hopeless Allowing our king to spread his genocidal wings Clawing the skin each kill your weakness Annihilation your masturbation- tyrant, I'll burn you down My hands grip your throat I need your end Burned, staked, ripped apart- I avenge For every life you have taken I am here to repay You ask me oh God why 'Cause I'm God that's fucking why http://www.hotornot.com/js/rate/?eid=EQRLBSH&key=CJY >=] x

The Preacher Voi perkele! The time has come for you and me To reveal the truth from inside I am not of the kind you want me to be I'm going nowhere but down Forgive me father for my sins Forgive me for the things I have done Hey, just look at me I know the reason You just can't see it from that far When you look into my eyes You see a dead part of your life We are still together as one In your world, build on silence and greed Forgive me father for my sins Forgive me for the things I have done Hey, just look at me I know the reason You just can't see it from that far I will go on my way from the cradle to the grave I am the one who you should not blame Take care of your soul, I'll take care of my own Cos you make me a preacher as you know Forgive me father for my sins Forgive me for the things I have done Hey, just look at me I know the reason You just can't see it from that far I will go on my way from the cradle to the grave I am the one who you should not blame Take care of your soul, I'll take care of my own Cos you make me a preacher... Cos you make me a preacher as you know So last night I went out to veez for the first time in like a month. Ste and Adam were, which is always a massive highlight... Had a few bevvies for the first time in god knows how long.. Got fairly tipsy :) The real highlight of my night however, was seeing Jo and Kacy again, haven't seen either of them in like a month, and I haven't really talked to Kacy, cos when she's on MSN, i'm not at my comp. But yeah, me and Kacy had a good natter, lots of hugs and a bit of a boogie.. It was ace, loved every second.. (+ She said i'm a good kisser ;) +1, no.. +10, no.. +100 points! to chew :D) In other news, Rex is still off the road, the engine I got to replace the old engine with, is very similar, but at the same time, very different. Which leaves myself with a slight problem, as I have a car with 2 engines, but one doesn't fit, and one doesn't work. Wayne and I managed to get the old engine out, before we realised the new one didn't fit. Then again we haven't lost any time by doing that, because it needed to come out any way, so at least it's half a job done. Now onto Caddy, well everyone knows i hate his fucking guts, and if he so much as slips up with kacy in any minor way, i'll make damn sure i'll be the first one there to beat the fucking crap out of him. I've tried my best to get on with Caddy, for Kacy's sake, but I can't, just can't. He's pure cunt, and i've said it stright to him, and i'll say it again. Think about it, you know your life is fucked when u can't have a good night out without class A drugs (e.g. EEEEEEEEEE'S!!!!)... fucking faggot. To be perfectly honest with you, if I were Kacy, he'd be long gone by now.. But i'm not and have to respect Kacy's decisions, and stand by her through it all, bein her best mate and all.. so it's liek.. MEH!!! One more thing before i go, Jo and Kacy, I love u both!! :D Chewy's outta here! >=] x

Linchpin Can’t take me apart! See the light, a new day has arrived for us Genesis of our evolution A linchpin holds within a means to an end Can’t you see that we are one? Can’t take me apart! No you can’t! We see no end to the dream We will never see the end We will never be the end All my life I’ve felt discarded Never feeling a part of it No you can’t! Without me you will fade, you will not remain We are one, and of the same future machine! A linchpin holds within a means to an end Can’t you see that we are one? Can’t take me apart! No you can’t! We see no end to the dream! We will never see the end We will never be the end All my life I’ve felt discarded Never feeling a part of it No you can’t take me apart You can’t change me now Well, it's been a while since i've updated, yet again, some things have happened in the time i've been away. I've finally got my arse into gear, and been paid, so i've source and engine for my car. This will hopefully be fit on either Sunday or Monday of next week. This is good news as I will finally be back on the road. I think however, i've had my fun with Clio's. However great a car mine is, I need somthing faster. I'm currently looking at Vauxhall Corsa's SRi's 16v's :P If you know what that means, i've respect for ya :D I'm currently in a state of recovery after being in hospital to have a sist removed from my lower back. This is why i'm in pain, as I have an inch wide hole in my back, which is rather painful, and make sitting down a chore. The sooner i get the stitches out, the better. I'm having to strip wash instead of shower, which is highly annoying :/ I need a joint. moff for a fag :D >=] x

Spit it out Since you never gave a damn in the first place Maybe it's time you had the tables turned Cuz in the interest of all involved I got the problem solved And the verdict is guilty... ...MAN NEARLY KILLED ME Steppin' where you fear to tread Stop, drop and roll - you were DEAD FROM THE GIT-GO! BIG MOUTH FUCKER - STUPID COCKSUCKER Are you scared of me now? Then you're dumber than I thought Always is, never was Foundation made of piss and vinegar Step to me, I'll smear ya -Think I fear ya? BULLSHIT! Just another dumb punk chompin' at this tit Is there any way to break through the noise? Was it something that I said that got you bent? It's gotta be that way if you want it Sanity, Literal Profanity HIT ME! SPIT - IT OUT All you wanna do is drag me down All I wanna do is stamp you out Maybe it's the way you spread a lotta rumour fodder Keepin' all your little spies and leavin' when you realise Step up, fairy I guess it's time to bury your ass with the chrome Straight to the dome You heard me right, bitch, I didn't stutter If you know what's good - sit, shut up and beg, brother Backstab - Don't you know who you're dissin'? Side swipe - we know THE ASS THAT YOU'RE KISSIN'! BIGIDY-BIGGIDY BITCH BOY, HALFWAY HAUSER Can't hear shit cuz I keep gettin' louder Step up, and you get a face full o' tactic Lippin' off hard, goin' home in a basket You got no pull, no power, no NUTHIN' Now you start shit? Well, ain't that somethin'? Payoffs don't protect, and you can't hide if you want But I'LL FIND YOU - Comin' up behind you! SPIT - IT OUT All you wanna do is drag me down All I wanna do is stamp you out 'Bout time I set this record straight All the needlenose punchin' is makin' me irate Sick o' my bitchin' fallin' on deaf ears Where YOU gonna be in the next five years? The crew and all the fools, and all the politix Get your lips ready, gonna gag, gonna make you sick You got DICK when they passed out the good stuff Bam Are you sick of me? GOOD ENOUGH - HAD ENOUGH FUCK ME! I'm all out of enemies! FUCK ME! I'm all out of enemies! FUCK ME! I'm all out of enemies! FUCK ME! I'm all out of enemies! FUCK ME! I'm all out of enemies! FUCK ME! I'm all out of enemies! FUCK ME! I'm all out of enemies! FUCK ME! I'm all out of enemies! SPIT - IT OUT All you wanna do is drag me down All I wanna do is stamp you out Forgot I had this on here, always liked this song. Before any of your cunts start saying shit like "oh ur a mosher, oh ur a whatever.. STFU. This is old school Slipknot, before all the 11 year olds heard about them :) I want my car back, i'm desperate for it, not being able to drive is shit, i HATE it. Been with my dad at work again today, and once again i'm at work tonight, I really need to get into a proper job, i need to sort this apprentiship. Things need sorting, but right now, i'm hungry. So i'm going to eat. >=] x

Hello playground school bell rings again rain clouds come to play again has no one told you she's not breathing? hello i'm your mind giving you someone to talk to hello if i smile and don't believe soon i know i'll wake from this dream don't try to fix me i'm not broken hello i'm the lie living for you so you can hide don't cry suddenly i know i'm not sleeping hello i'm still here all that's left of yesterday I'm lovin Evanescence at the moment, the music and Amy Lee are just so fucking awsome. Anyways, went out this weekend, n it was shit. There was no-one out hardly, in fact veez was quieter than on a friday night. I'm really fed up of that place now, it's the same people every week, and the same shit. Jo was out, which was a pleasant surprise, and I told her a few things I had to get off my chest, I feel better now. I've also thought that maybe I don't like her as much as I thought I did, and we'd be better as friends. This i'm sure will come as good news to her, which it should. I'm spending far too much time hooked up on old obsessions and it's doing me in. I got the offer of moving in with Ste, me and him in his house, as his parents are moving away and his mum would prefer us to have the house, which is somthing to think about. My car still isn't fixed, but we're getting closer, i've decided what i'm doing with it, it's getting an engine refurb, I just need to ring some people and sort it out, then I can have it fully back on the road, which will be awsome, as not havin a car it utter shite! Not really much else to report i'm afraid. Met some new girls down veez on Saturday, which was different, so we'll see what happens there. oh! and... Problem 1: Solved. Problem 2: Waiting... Problem 3: Solved. Problem 4: Processing... (23%) Problem 5: Waiting... Basically :) hmmmmz >=] x

The Blood, The Sweat, The Tears Oh yes i walk the path, that righteous Many men have walked before And this pain"s held A broken shell Straight shackled onto the floor So welcome to the world That i lived in Puking up bile and hate My world has turned To false inclusion Sickening broken state But then i'll see There's a thing in me That make you want it More than you But i deny all this Cause pain was my bliss Get wasted on self destruct Just hold on to the edge It's all about The blood, the sweat, the tears Attribute to the strength Built through the years [2X] Yes i walk the path That gives me Confidence strong and pure Now i realize That freedom rises From confronting the source I built these walls around me And i can break them all away I'll focus all the strength i call Into unstoppable energy So hold on to the edge It's all about The blood, the sweat, the tears Attribute to the strength Built through the years [2X] Hold on I'm not falling Not falling down again It's all about The blood, the sweat, the tears Attribute to the strength Built through the years Believe me that Time will sear the wound Time will sear the wound Time will seal the wound :x: name = Joe :x: piercings = 1 (used to be 2) :x: tattoos = none, one soon! :x: height= 6'5" :x: shoe size = 13 :x: hair color = Brown :x: eye color= Green :x: siblings = 1 LAST... :x: movie you rented = Harold and Kumar get the munchies :x: movie you bought = 51st State :x: song you listened to = Machine Head - The blood, The sweat, the tears :x: song that was stuck in your head = Eminem - Mockingbird :x: cd you bought = Kasabian (for Jo) :x: cd you listened to = Arch Enemy's new one :x: person you've called = meh lil bro :x: person that's called you = Gemma :x: tv show you've watched = Futurama :x: person you were thinking of = Kat DO... :x: you have a crush on someone = Yes. :x: you wish you could live somewhere else = hmmm, i'm happy atm :x: you think about suicide = nah :x: you believe in online dating = never tried it so i wouldn't know :x: others find you attractive = I hope so. :x: you want more piercings = Yes :x: you like cleaning = non :x: you like roller coasters = YES!!! :x: you write in cursive or print = Print FOR OR AGAINST... :x: long distance relationships = toughie, but for. :x: using someone = against :x: suicide = against :x: killing people = against :x: teenage smoking = against :x: driving drunk = against :x: gay/lesbian relationships = For :x: soap operas = against HAVE YOU... :x: ever cried over a girl= yes :x: ever cried over a boy = no :x: ever lied to someone = yes :x: ever been in a fist fight = yes :x: ever been arrested = no WHAT... :x: shampoo do you use = Head n Shoulders :x: shoes do you wear = DC's :x: are you scared of = Not havin a car NUMBER... :x: of times I have been in love? = 1 :x: of times I have had my heart broken? = 1 :x: of hearts I have broken? = No Idea :x: of girls I have kissed? = too many :x: of boys I have kissed? = 1 :x: of girls I've slept with? = too many :x: of boys I've slept with? = 0 :x: of people I would classify as true, could trust with my life type friends? = 2 :x: of times my name has appeared in the newspaper? = Twice :x: of scars on my body? = a few little scratches :x: of things in my past that I regret? = too many to count DO YOU THINK YOU ARE... :x: pretty – No :x: funny – Yes :x: hot – No :x: friendly – Yes :x: amusing – Yes :x: ugly – Yes :x: loveable – Yes :x: caring – Yes :x: sweet – No :x: dorky – Yes favorite: 5 letter word: Gofer actor/actress: Keanu Reeves / Angelina Jolie Candy: Lion Bar Cartoon: Futurama / Fairly Odd Parents / Power Puff Girls / Dexter's Lab. Cereal: Frosties Color(s): Green / Black Color nail polish: Don't wear it Day of week: Saturday Least fave day: Monday Flower: Tulip Jello flavor: Strawberry Jewelry : Necklace Special skills/talents: Driving Summer/Winter: winter Trampolines or swimming pools: Pools || Person who last.. || Slept in your bed: Me Saw you cry: Jo Made you cry: Jo You went to the movies with: Ben / Ash / Benjab Yelled at you: Mum Sent you an email: MSN || Have you ever.. || Said "I love you" and meant it?: Yes Gone out in public in your pajamas: No Kept a secret from everyone: Yes Cried during a movie: No Ever at anytime owned new kids on the block stuff: No planned your week based on the TV Guide: no Been on stage: yeah Been to New York: no Been to California: no Hawaii: no China: no Canada: no Europe: Bulgaria, France, Germany. Asia: no South America: no Australia: no Wished you were the opposite sex: No What time is it now?: 13:59 Apples or bananas?: Apples Blue or red?: Blue Walmart or target?: eh? Spring or Fall?: Autumn What are you gonna do after you finish this?: See if my COD works, then have a shower What was the last meal you ate?: Spicy Chicken thingys High school or college?: College Are you bored?: No Last noise you heard?: My mum talking to me Last smell you sniffed?: My armpit :/ Last time you went out of the country?: About two years ago.

No Sex Went too fast way too soon. I feel disgusted and you should to. Its no good when all that's left is the sex. The sex. [Pre chorus] sex has become all I know about you. Memories of those filthy things that we do. There's not one single thought that is left after sex with you [chorus] should've left my pants on this time, but instead you had to let me dive right in. should've left my pants on this time. You let me dive right, you let me dive right in... wait... its my ass, your perfume that make my temptation hard to refuse. So I guess we undressed to have sex... dirty sex. [Pre chorus] sex has become all I know about you. Memories of those filthy things that we do. There's not one single thought that is left after sex with you [chorus] should've left my pants on this time, but instead you had to let me dive right in. should've left my pants on this time. You let me dive right, you let me dive right in... How could you respect yourself? you couldn't respect yourself cuz I didn't respect myself. I couldn't infect myself with.... realize that I'm worth more than that realize that I'm worth more than that realize that I'm worth more than that realize that I mean more than that!! [chorus] should've left my pants on this time, but instead you had to let me dive right in. should've left my pants on this time. You let me dive right, you let me dive right in... W00000000000000T!!!!! i HAVE BROADBAND, AND THE HICCUPS AT THE SAME TIME, IT'S ALL GOOD. EXCEPT MY STOMACH HURTS. and i'm using caps. >=] x

.... be arsed.. I would.