Im dieing slowly, put me in my pine box, let me have my eternal sleep, till i am reunited with you, put me out of my misury, deep cuts, bottel of pills, bullets, it dont matter to me, it never has. put me in my pine box, i donot deserve to be here, i didnt deserve you, you deserved my tears, my blood, my prairs. put me out of my misury, i dont deserve this, i never did, im dieing slowly, i hurt, thinking of you, i have my frozen heart, i keep it in a box, in a corner, where there is no light, bang bang, all i need is one, then no more sun, no more night, no more me, there is no more you, its been so long, i think of you always, but in the end i seen it all, in my dreams, the car, you and your husband, the acident, i hurd the screams. let me have my eternal sleep, blood flowing, sleep coming, its deep this time, you were all that i had, im so lonly, all of the tears i have shed, wont bring you back, ive reached the bottom, of this whole, depresed, and suicidal, let me die, so i can fly, be by you again, i miss you, and love you, here i come, to see you. cuting slowly, blood drips on the snow, a life goes out....... i just wrought this tonight at 12:08 im thinking of my best friend who died when i was in 5th grade in a horific car acident. dont wory im not going to kill my self. but i am being riped apart from the inside.. love always jonathan