well i havent updated in a while. but ive been soo busy with school that ive barely had anytime to do anything. but now i`m on easter break. soo yay! i`m soo bored. i could be at the beach right now with kristin but no my retarded mother wouldn`t let me go because we`d be coming back sunday afternoon and she wants me to go to church on sunday because its easter & i`m catholic. ugh. well today when i was home alone soo i went out driving alone. yay !! lol. and then i layed out and i got a pretty tan. but yeaa. i hope my break will get better and i`ll have something to do. i dont go back till wednesday. well i`ll update later ♥♥♥

wow.. its been a hell of a long week. and its FINALLY over. thank god. i was soo stressed this week. we had a huge english project that took forever to do and we had a lot of homework and stuff and i had a french test today. we were supposed to have like 4 today but 3 of them got postponed till next week. thank god. but yea.. i`m soo tired but i dont want to go to sleep yet because i want to be able to sleep in really late tomorrow. well these past couple of days me and gee talked a LOT. its crazy.. well then again i have 6 out of 7 classes with him and hes soo cool. but yea.. im soo glad we`re friends.. but yea.. i dont feel like typing anymore so ill update later ♥♥♥

yeaa.. im bored.. last night was pretty fun.. i went to that reception with kristin.. it was fun. i loved the food.. hehe there was a chocolate fountain!! now thats not something you see everyday. haha. but yeaa.. and there were soo many old couples there.. and everytime i saw a couple i thought about him. i honestly have never liked or cared about someone this much before. he means everything to me. just why can`t i just have him? uggh.. well i`ll get to see him tomorrow because today is the last day of my spring break. it was pretty fun. maybe today i`ll go outside and layout with kristin because its sunny & hopefully dad will let me drive today.. but yea.. well here is one poem that i wrote about him.. it doesnt rhyme or anything. haha but yea.. i know its not too great..but yeaa.. here goes: do you care still care about me? i know i loved you more than anyone else. i was there when you needed me & you were there when i needed you. do you realize what we had? i know it was more than a friendship. i know you felt the same way about me, but you chose to keep it to yourself because of who i am. you care about what they think & not how we feel about each other. how foolish of you. & i would willingly give my life for you i love you from the bottom of my heart you selfish bastard.. why must you only think about yourself? i love you yea yea.. that was it.. pretty corny.. i know.. but whatever. well i`ll update later ♥♥♥

gosh i`m getting like all emotionally freaky. i started writing all these poems today about gee. i`m like obsessing. but i cant`t help that i truly love this kid. but whatever. i might end up putting one of the poems up here if i feel like it. well today was pretty boring. nothing to do. at ALL. i was on the computer for a bout 3/4ths of the day. but whatever. tomorrow night i`m going to the wedding reception with kristin =) hell yes.. its going to be fun. but yeaa.. thats pretty much my weekend.. what a lovely way to end my spring break. well i`ll get back to this later. leave comments ♥♥♥

wow.. its been a LONG time since i`ve last used this thing. but i decided i needed something to confide in.. soo yea.. well nothing really interesting has happened in my life lately. yesterday i went to lunch and a movie with caroline and mariel and then i stayed the night at caroline's house. we hung out with her brother alex till like 3 in the morning. he is soo hott. lol. he`s pretty cool. i had a lot of fun. i`ve date him before and i don`t know if i`d date him again. but who know`s. honestly i don`t know who i like anymore. well i know i`ve liked this one guy gee since the 7th grade, & i still have feelings for him. we dated for a few months the summer before 8th grade.. but we`re not anymore.. gosh i love him. it`s crazy. but we`re good friends soo thats a good thing. i have 6 out of 7 classes with him soo we have a blast. hes like one of the sweetest guys i have ever met. i hope we`ll date again. i really hope so. but anyways.. i have these ulsars in my mouth and their viruses and they hurt like crazy. it hurts to like open my mouth, smile, & eat and i think im getting some around my throat. i have no clue where these came from. but they hurt like shit & i feel horrible ( sickwise ).. but yea im going to go to bed because im tired.. so ill write in this later. leave comments ♥♥♥